Six months, ten days have passed Yet nothing has changed

Time has not started since that April day…

Sadness remains Tears constant

Helpless still…

Days remind me of a rollercoaster ride Not one you enjoy…

But the dreaded kind… Where every uncertain second So unkind

One day bearable… The next, a bottomless pit…

Falling, Anger overwhelming Emptiness always …

Helpless still

Alone…is what you prefer

Push and shove everyone that’s dear Out of your life…you want no one near

If you don’t love anyone…you can’t lose anyone

Patience my answer… But you won’t hear

Your fear suffocating

Can’t breathe… Can’t walk… Can’t live…

Helpless still

Days are awesome…remembering your ANGELS smile… Remembering his antics… That nearly drove you insane…

Days are awesome As your face lights up with the lost smile that was hidden since that day… As if not allowed, Suddenly your laughter transforms into a sob…

Heartbreaking… Soul wrenching… Helpless still…

Sleep does not come easy…

Helpless still

Eat…what’s eat?

Helpless still

They say the pain lessens

Who are they?

Helpless still

Questions unanswered

All the why’s you ask

Helpless still

As you struggle Day by day Hour by hour I am still here …right beside you…

Reminding you…I care…I love you.

SS