The chaos in my mind
is killing me,
my life, a bad trip
on LSD
a rush to the brain,
serotonin, dopamine
all at once shining
blue light
a mind so open,
a heart so full,
peace,
such peace,
the sweetest sleep.

Memories are mirages,
I cannot reach.

A sinking feeling,
a dread inside around I go,
again and again,
down the rabbit hole,
just once more,
one last time
looking for a prize,
searching out my pain,
my life, lost love,
some kind of fight.

I seek the light.
All is dark.
I want to go home!
The moon lights the way
I cannot help but follow
so many signs
and in my mind
she is all I see
my perfect shade,
my muse blue
lights a fire in art,
puts a spark in heart,
makes me shine
inside out each part
she inspires,
oh how she inspires 
opens my mind
which stutters and stumbles
over the words lost inside.

©JM.Cole