THAT MAN

Lord who is THAT MAN, I don't remember when we met, but the way I feel around him I will never forget.

 He touches parts of me I never knew exist, it makes me want to run from him because I know my body can't resist

 I can't seem to concentrate, articulate, demonstrate, or my pen tries but can't initiate, I try to draw but cannot illustrate, the words to describe how my heart leap for joy inside. It is a chemistry I can't explain, but damn I get excited when I hear his name.

My mind is all over the place THAT MAN,THAT MAN always brings a smile to my face. He strokes my soul without even touching me, his words are usually few, but yet I feel them so deep.

It's been years since he came away, but not one week has passed for him I did not pray. I had other lovers, but still from time to time my mind drifts to THAT MAN who use to mine. It has to be a divine, connection because after so many years I hate to approach because I fear his rejection.

I hate to look in his eyes out of fear of him seeing me and knowing he weakens my inner-mystery. It’s just something about THAT MAN, THAT MAN I feel vulnerable like a child. Because most of the things we’ve done have been so damn wild.

I asked God could this be is this just lust, but deep down inside I know it’s more than a crush. It's nothing in particular that he has said or done but I connect with him on so many levels we made love I feel like we are one. My knees get weak when I see him my soul cries out just to be near him.

He could never do wrong in my eyes even if he fails or disappoints somehow our souls are still tied. My body he always controls I stay away from certain conversations out of fear my mind he will soon hold.

He is my light in a dark place he always pushes me to run this race. When I'm with him I forget all my problems just the sound of his voice solves them.

 I don't like not feeling in control of my body and mind but to me THAT MAN,THAT MAN is just so damn fine.

Why do I love him I can't explain it's not like we spent years together that I can't claim. There is something inside of him placed there for me because whenever I see him my anointing sure does leap.

I want to know him better his dreams, his fears I want to know about some of the things that have made him shed tears. Without him telling me anything I have faith unexplainable in him that makes my stomach cringe.

Lord outside of you I have never felt such joy, about what could be, are yet to come, from someone who captured my heart eight years ago, Damn son.

 He scares me when Im with him it's really kinda hard because the more time we spend together my heart I cannot guard.

I'm so crazy over him I want him to have nothing but the best, even if it means being with someone else better for him, now that’s a hard test.

THAT MAN,THAT MAN weakens my inner mystery he's my Romeo and Juliet there's nothing in life we can't defeat.

 I am a strong queen alpha female but when Im near THAT MAN Im softened a lie I cannot tell. He brings out the vulnerable woman in me, he makes her become a lady when I see him I think, yeah that's baby

 I don't know where this might even go but I don't think I can fight this feeling no mo. I really miss my Romeo.

Hoping we may cross paths again if that is my fate damn I think I may have passed up on my soulmate.