I look up for

A sign, direction, a compass

Ask God to show me signs

A better me

Knowing I am great

I could be better

My love and affection scares them away

They are intimidated

Strong brown women

You can’t control me

Only during intimacy

I want to serve and cater to you

You are like a phantom

You stop responding to me

I can't see you

I ask God

What's wrong with me

I thought this was he

All me on out first meet

I continue to build

A relationship with the man, that will always be there for me

Waiting for my union

That other man

That will take vows in front of everybody

When my wall is strong

An starts to dissolve, thinking God has sent him

I am without a guard

Heart is lost

I look up

And keep wondering