There is 81 Buspirone in this bottle
Do you think if I swallow all of them 
Do you think it would kill me

I don't want to die but
I really don't want to live
So what is happiness
I know I sound crazy

But damn I know this world would be better without me 
She doesn't love me 
I can't keep this up I'm back in the place 
I was before I met her 

I don't want to life 
It's all gone now 
It's all gone now
Who could love me now

Maybe if I swallow all them everything will be okay
I lost the person I love the most when I was 15
So tell me it gets better when 
I know it never fucking does
I'm sorry I'm not like you

I found a new girl at 21 fall so in love that 
I wanted to be her everything 
But ended up just getting hurt
That gose back to my mother
I loved you firefly but you picked a great guy over the poor kid
I can't blame you I have suicidal tendencies that's never going where

I don't want to life 
It's all gone now 
It's all gone now
Who could love me now

If I smile fake like you will I looks like you
I been thinking about this for what it feel like forever
I can't keep this up much longer 
Got this promise I made to her and I have to keep that promise

So I'll put the bottle down today
But I'll be back here tomorrow