{Life's Expectations}

 

 

Life isn't what we

think or expect it

to be 

 

Because life can be

filled with hurt, pain,

sickness, death, lying,

cheating and

bamboozled with

condensing pricks

that only seems to

think of themselves

and no one else in

life no matter how it

effects the other

person in the situation

at hand 

 

 

Because my heart

has been beaten,

broken scarred and

disfigured way past

of healing because

of people and how

they treat you in life

without even having

any cares at all

besides the one's

the have for

themselves 

 

 

But as the day's pass by

that turns into week's

that is mounting into

hallowed out year's

of a heart bleeding

from within every

second of the day

and night as you

slowly cry saying

God why is this

happening to me

with so much sorrow

filling the dusty air

around you until you

slowly slip away to a

darkened place where

{the lost soul's are

never to be found again} 

 

 

But you cannot stay

in that darkened place

because it's unholy

and it's so unsafe

for you to fade

away from life,

family, children,

friend's and anyone

that surrounds you

as you cry a billion

tears since no one

ever show's you no

love and care plus

any kind of

compassion that

makes you want to

just die leaving that

horrible world behind

but just because of

their behavior and

actions you cannot

die you must stay

showing them you

are much stronger

than they all think 

 

 

No matter how much

your heart may break

you have to show them

the real you not the

one who has been

discarded like a worn

out tool that cannot

even fix a dang thing

in their eyes and so

called reality 

 

 

But life isn't prefect

 

And life isn't always

so loving 

 

And life isn't always

so happy 

 

And life isn't always

so blissful 

 

And life isn't always

cherishable to you 

 

 

And life can be a

traumatic experience

that you just want to

forget but it's always

pondering and stuck

in the back of your

mind making you think

that you're going crazy

or losing what little

insanity you do have

left but life is something

we all try to live through

or die trying 

 

 

And life isn't what you

may expect because

as some people may

sit by watching the

world and their loved

one's pass away

leaving a gaping hole

in their heart and chest

that can never be filled

by no one until that

hole heals and that can

take day's, week's or

year's it all depends on

the person where the

hole is gaping through

their chest that you

helped place there

so please keep on

belittling me 

 

 

And please keep on

discrediting me 

 

 

And please keep on

trying to make me feel

like I never meant

anything at all to you

not a dang thing

because believe me

that's how you make

me feel each day I

open my eyes to see

you have forgotten

and left me far behind

without a care and

thought or a single

tear and I never knew

life could make you feel

this way until it happened

to me and it slammed

me directly in my face

like a eighteen ton

mack truck hitting my

face head on killing

me softly 

 

 

And please keep on

telling me that you

don't love me because

each time you do

that's like a dulling

dagger with jagged

edge's piercing my

heart right from the

start making me cry

and bleed until my

blood runs cold 

 

 

But is this life's big

expectations we all

live to die for while

waiting on them to

love you back the

same way you love

them 

 

 

So as I'll be waiting to

hear you say I love you

and I'm sorry please

forgive me for my

selfless rude actions

towards you but I'll

never hear them from

your corrupted lips as

I slowly die more each

day without you by my

side loving me like I

love you but is this life's

big expectations that

can make us all hit

rock-bottom never

returning from our

watery grave as we

all drown in a little

more each day 

 

 

 

And what more can I

say besides if this is

life's big expectations

it sucks royally

 

 

 

 

©Tina Glover All Rights Reserved/One_Pissed_Off_American_Ghost_Writer June 12,2018