I am not the fat girl

I am not the skinny girl.

 

I am both.

 

I am both the bingeing in the night

And the starving from pure fright.

 

I am both

 

In the mirror I am both.

 

I am the always too thin pile of bones

And the body too big to call home.

 

I am both.

 

In the shops I am both.

 

I am the girl who is too curvy to wear cute clothes

And the girl who's Inability to feel sexy makes sore

 

I am both.

 

In public I am both.

 

I am the girl who is heckled for braving  wearing shorts

And the girl who is mocked for having a thigh gap when she walks

 

I am both.

 

In other women's eyes I am both.

 

I am the girl who is incapable of restraint

I am the girl who doesn't look after herself

I am the girl to which you all hate

I am the girl who stands by herself

In hope's if I do, I'll be free from your own hell.

 

I am both.

 

I am not the fat girl

I am not the skinny girl.

 

I am both.

 

The men are not the issue

They don't hate us this cruel

This is the act of women

With intentions far from true.

Do not let them push you down

They are wearing a false crown

Made of malice and jealousy

A crown which will never set them free.

 

Still,

I am not the fat girl.

I am not the skinny girl.

 

I am both.