I was worried, nervous, scared, even

About how you'd react

when you heard

when you knew

when I told you

IF...if...if there wound up being anything to tell

Maybe I was getting ahead of myself

I quite probably was, to be honest

Still

Still, I was worried, you see

Because your feelings matter to me

Not a lot of others do, you know

You, my friend

my confidant

my fellow perverted ass dyke

my brother from another mother

my family

Because you had...you know...with her..

Been..with her..ok, dated...ok ok fine! FUCKED her...wanted her..wanted to be more

and though you both decided not to

would it be awkward if I did? If I was? If we were?

I was so relieved when her name glided from your lips

as a suggestion..as a potential direction

highly recommended, commended for who she is

A weight slithered off my heart as it pirouetted in relief

If it were anyone else...ANYONE else...

It might have been a problem

Even with how convoluted and tangled our family bush can be

It might have been a problem

But not you

Because we are twin flames

Flickering with the wind

we are candles in a world of false lights

a world of flashlights, light bulbs, man-made contraptions meant to banish the shadows

But we exist to accentuate them

to balance them

light and dark

dark and light

intermingled, entwined

dancing in the shadows

Is it any wonder

We'd both be drawn to the sun?