Small Victories
Taking to the ocean
distance put between
my flippant will
and things to conquer
heart beasts
tugging at my sleeve
Turning, turning, turning
from that incessant chasing
the bay recedes, city lights
swallowed by the horizon
heart beasts
circling overhead
Test me, am I strong enough?
I try not to be broken
daily trials so choking
can I survive them?
At night, rocking in the waves
dreaming of returning
my fingers whispering upon them
my fortunes reversing
heart beasts
tangled all around me
Rising in the morning
telescope to my eye
mistakes reflected back
I reach for my pen, plot a course
heart beasts
following my wake
Some days, I have to wonder
is the chart the right way round
is this a map or just an outline
is this a tide to follow
heart beasts
snapping at my feet
Will I be strong enough
could I still be broken?
daily trials to navigate
can I survive them?
Here’s to the honest ground
I’m scheming on
here’s to heart beasts tamed
each day; another day without them
here’s to small victories
here’s to heart beasts tamed
here’s to living
without them...
John Marks
Wed 8th Jan 2020 20:01
Tiny victories! Heart beats/beasts - auto-piloted through the day. "My flippant will" is also a defence mechanism, I don't care but I do.