I loved you once
I think
You swept me up in a cyclone of romance and fear
Excitement and charm
And control.
A romantic threat across a crowded room
On lined paper.
I love you, but if you ever shit on me I'll break both your legs.
You loved me!
And I loved you for that.
They say love makes you blind
And I was blind
I could not read the flashing signs.
And I was deaf
I could not hear the warning bells.
You loved me so much
You chose my clothes
And styled my hair
And I felt special.
You moulded me into a woman.
But bit by bit I disappeared.
The girl now long gone
The smile now long gone
The friends now long gone.
Replaced by car crash bruises
And broken bones
And broken dreams.
And as my world grew smaller
My fears grew larger.
I left you a thousand times
But you always found me.
And I took my punishments on the chin
And on the arms
And on the legs
And wherever you could lay a punch or a kick.
Then from nowhere
I grew strong.
I carefully laid out my plans
And hid them from you.
Bruises became bricks
And I built a wall
So high you could not pass
And then I was gone
Never to return.