Each night 

I pull a rib from this body 

and set it alight to keep myself warm 

That is what happens 

When you burn everyone around you 

You become hollow 

Wide awake at 4am 

Disconnected 

The control I crave and that which is surrendered 

To memory loss 

To nausea

To sheer exhaustion 

I cannot take it much longer 

That same fire will burn out 

That once could be seen so easily in my eyes