panic attack (Remove filter)
Hurricanes
Swirling thoughts
causing chaos in my head
Leaving destruction in its path
Debris consisting of my pastĀ
Left scattered
Left broken
Ā
My head filled with TV-like static
Never staying on one show
Never giving me the timeĀ
To appreciate the little thingsĀ
The plots
The characters
Ā
Ā
Somehow something calmed the storm
SomeoneĀ
Even if it's for a bri...
Tuesday 27th August 2024 4:37 pm
big girls don't cry except when it is absolutely not the right time to do so.
am i hungry or hasĀ the pit returned.
that stupid fucking pit.
its an eternal loop, circling in and out of itself.
floating dead centre in my gut.
particles of another girl explode and expand out of it,Ā
overcome by this strange girl from the strange world.
i weep on my mothers lap,Ā
i retch overĀ porcelin, patterned.
seeing my sister for the first time in weeks,Ā
she glow...
Monday 19th September 2022 9:32 pm
Loudest in the Room.
A simple note to explain doesn't seem long enough
To bring on one sheet my final feelings and thoughts
Why am I doing this and what lead me here?
It wasn't just one event and the timing wasn't near.
I'd start when I was younger but who can remember that far back?
Unfortunately I do with every panic and anxiety attack.
You'd probably start to see why by the time I finished 10th grade
B...
Sunday 8th November 2020 5:53 am
Red Cross Training
Yesterday I fell in love with a face.
Only for five minutes or so:
Wholly inappropriate, I know -
an excess of emotion displaced
while I tried my best to make you safe
as I had been taught to do.
I found you lying on the floor,
an empty bottle as a clue:
You did pretend-coma so well,
as you had being chest-stabbed just before.
But as I practised faux first aid -
lifted your young chin...
Friday 1st November 2019 3:07 pm
My Body
My hands is where it starts
The heat of the fire
Ignited there
Ā
My fingers betrayed me
Now with a mind
Of their own
Ā
They torment me
Driving me insane
Slowly
Ā
My heart starts to race
A speed my body isnāt
Prepared for
Ā
My blood runs everywhere
With a temperature
Way too high
Ā
They torture me
Crippling my movements
Immediately
...Friday 4th May 2018 12:50 am
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