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I am capable of love
Words can be weaponised
Be careful with the words you use
What might be a throw away sentence to you
Forever imprinted, taunting anothers mind
When you chose these words
Did you remember the things about me which only you know
The secrets I don't share freely
But entrusted with you
People have preconceived notions
Ready to label and validate assumptions
You saw behind the mask
Y...
Friday 6th September 2024 8:35 am
A letter to my Father
If we could rewind the clock
Would you be different
So that I could know how it feels
To feel the love of a Father
Maybe I could run into your arms
Instead of away from your fists
You could be my hero
Instead of the nightmare that persists
Left with questions I cannot answer
What version of me were you after
You never liked my face
So neither did I
I look in the mirror
And...
Friday 9th August 2024 8:40 am
The Aftermath
What can we learn from the aftermath of disaster
As we hunt through the wreckage for survivors
But find only bodies to bury
Sobered by the cruelness of life
The cruelness of self
For this was no act of god
We caused this
I caused this
With blood on my hands I submit to the reckoning
I led us down a path of no return
For I could see the crash site ahead
But I was asleep at th...
Thursday 8th August 2024 2:27 pm
The Wind
On summer evenings with not much to do,
The wind blows, soft enough to hear my words.
I ask the wind to bring relief,
I ask the wind to feel my pain,
I ask the wind to understand.
But the wind does not reply.
Yet, deep in private moments,
The wind knows more than you or I.
Monday 15th July 2024 8:18 am
Black hole
Moon eyed she goes
She is one of the stars
Lonesome she is
In the presence of Mars
Soon her reflection renews
She is a planetary part apart
Memories become brand-new
She is solo in this system
And as the lights dim
He becomes hers
She sucks us in
Until everything’s hers
Friday 19th April 2024 3:33 pm
Reflection
I woke up this morning to the drip drop of rain,
then lie there just thinking how peaceful it was.
Wrapped in the moment, reflecting again
how totally different my life is because
I long ago finally came to myself,
I guess you could say like the prodigal son –
deciding to put errant ways on the shelf,
and live life for something a bit more than fun.
I li...
Friday 15th March 2024 1:17 am
In The Middle
In the middle of life there’s a moment of still.
Reminiscing, regretting, “Is there point in it all?”
Looking out in both ways from the top of the hill
as I tumble and shrink to an infinite small.
For I know forever has no end of days,
it leaves me to contemplate just who I am?
And I know that size never ends in both ways,
when you sit in infinity, is there a plan
...
Saturday 24th February 2024 7:42 pm
The Human Dome
I travel across this phenomenal path, a path that trails me to justice, a path that unites me with the lofty dome of the human establishment. From these broken shattered glasses of the dome, I gaze upon the increasing influence of insecurities among these humans. One of the sides of this dome had an air of fear and vengeance while the other parts here repres...
Friday 5th January 2024 12:44 pm
Us
I sang a song
upon that hill
wishing you would hear
but the trees and birds
were all that heard
for you were nowhere near
I raised a note
so full of hurt
up to the heavens high
and without you,
I laid my pain
upon that midnight sky
I cursed the stars,
forevermore
my words so black with hate
but they cursed back
and left me ...
Tuesday 31st October 2023 6:26 am
Tearboats
Cry me a river
so I know you can feel
the heartache which splits me apart
in hopes you will come
with a stick of glue
get me that violin
and sing me a song
for I’d play,
until my fingers fell off
just to hear you sing along
or come kiss me goodnight
bless me with your gentle touch
and look at me with those glittering stars
so I may fall asleep
...Tuesday 29th August 2023 6:51 am
One
I’m sorry to disappoint you
That I can be too sweet and so weak
And yet I can be cold and cruel too
That I can completely snap to my core
And morph into a creature of different sorts
I’m sorry that I’m not white or black
Or immaculate
Or of any matter
For that fact
I’m not anything
At all
Not wholly whole
You see,
Incompleteness
Has been my superpower
...Monday 8th May 2023 9:09 pm
I thank you for not being good enough
You pulled me into your orbit
when I needed your help
and so, I made you my centre
to centre myself
That was my first mistake
I looked inside you
for places where I could hide
I hoped to run from reality
into the delusions of your mind
I was happy to believe you were one of a kind
chuffed upon chuffed that you were mine
and I felt adored
grateful to m...
Friday 28th April 2023 11:54 pm
When His Words Become Hands
His words could become sharp as corners
And trap you there
Flailing in his grasp
They could pinch your skin
Until you cried
And cried
Throughout your shifts
They could catch your wrists and stop you
From moving on
From moving
They could lock the doors, no leaving
They could shame you and shrink you
They could come flying in from an open window,
A buzzing phon...
Monday 8th March 2021 7:27 pm
Breath On The Mirror
It is going to come
as some surprise
To those who think
that I am wise
But I hardly know
what's right to do
And I've probably done
far less than you
I'm nothing much
make nothing different
I'm usually stuck
so much for wisdom
It makes me sad
to fall so short
Not what I hoped
I'd be at all.
But this is not
the final me
I can be more
than what I've been
And in...
Friday 12th February 2021 4:14 am
Reflections of Love
Hope cannot save what’s forgotten with age
As the moonlight clandestinely shines.
Pieces of souls, washed up on the shores
Laughing gleefully at the passing of time
Abandoned dreams sink beneath the sand
On which fateful footsteps once tread
Years rage on, crashing silently on rocks
Where despair and weakness once led.
Reflections of love rise up from the deep
...Monday 24th August 2020 2:14 pm
When you see a rainbow
A rainbow appears when there is sun and rain
The weathers equivalent of joy and pain
Grey clouds may come to darken your day
Sunshine and blue skies, will light up your way
A spectrum of colour created by reflection of light
An optical illusion, presenting an arc that delights
The rain subsides and the rainbow fades away
The sun breaks through, revealing a brighter day
...Monday 25th May 2020 6:44 pm
Sunday Thoughts
Two lone souls
believing they stand out in the crowd
do they really
or are they the same as everyone around
they feel like they're special, profound
no one must feel the same
but they do,
they all want to be loved
they're all searching for the one
Yet there isn't only one for you
there are quite a few
as they've slowly come in and out of view
this one here...
Monday 13th April 2020 2:20 am
Catalysis
It was a special speech:
...a part of the distinguished lecture series.
The Chemistry professor spoke on alternative corridors for a reaction to occur.
He exemplified how Manganese dioxide, when added to Hydrogen peroxide, yields water... ...hydrogen oxide.
The talk seemed insipid till he skillfully indicated
that Manganese dioxide remains untied with the reaction and can be recovered s...
Saturday 4th January 2020 4:20 am
You once asked me why I loved you
You once asked me why I loved you.
I didn’t know what to say.
Because you are kind,
like a viper, killing quickly.
Or because you’re wicked smart,
like a jungle cat stalking its prey.
Because you see me, deeply,
that much is true.
I didn’t know what to say,
so I didn’t say anything at all.
In the silence that has settled
in the ye...
Monday 9th December 2019 12:01 am
Willpower and Discipline
Willpower and discipline,
have long been two of the
most despised words in the
english language to me.
What character flaw prevents
the willpower and discipline
necessary to be the person
I imagine myself capable of being?
A half-lived life is heartbreaking.
There is no acceptable excuse,
not age or disability.
Even people with no limbs
live empowered lives
built on willp...
Saturday 12th October 2019 3:29 am
Fingerprints
To know my fingerprints
on another’s heart
could stir them into art
a priceless gift, a magic
To know there is a poem
written about me
those words, more beautiful
than I could ever hope to be
From the caverns of passed time
there comes a sound
a constant, quiet, ring
when I choose to listen
always there
telling of another way of living
That the heart of an artist
a complexly c...
Monday 16th September 2019 11:51 am
Duality Dissected
Sometimes black and white become one.
Gods omnipresecence is seen, white dancing across black.
Morning comes from night.
Day breaks and lights the dark.
Half the world is light, while the other half is dark.
In the dance of shadows, white light reflects colors on dark night.
Prisms take white light and reflect colors on black night.
White light, dark night.
Black canv...
Tuesday 3rd September 2019 4:10 pm
Morning calm
A world of desperation.
The face and the faceless.
Indescribable yet on the tip of my tongue.
Impecability holds the key to power.
I stare out over the city on my park bench throne.
The morning hours calm my mind.
Crows speak in their own tongue.
I reflect on a night of dreaming.
The number is 4.
Time to let go of what I can no longer carry.
My saving grace is ...
Monday 10th June 2019 2:29 pm
Void Brooding.
I wish the abyss would stop looking back at me.
I look in the mirror and I swear that's all I see.
Not a monster but a void I cant escape.
I was born with a heart but it seems mishaped.
Someday I swear I'm going to leave this place.
Find my way to the light that people praise.
But for now I think it's better if I hang my head.
Bite my tongue and drink until I just forget.
I don't know ...
Saturday 18th May 2019 7:49 am
Bellow
I could fill a barren sea
full of tears I've shed
for a moment with you.
I learned to focus only
on the good it led to.
What purpose does it serve
to open old wounds
except to serve the
greater good.
So, I bellow not
unless it can be
a beacon
for mermaids
coming ashore.
Sunday 27th January 2019 6:09 pm
Discernment
A valuable gift,
An emotional curse,
Seeing past the illusion,
Stuck with the truth
Ugly at times,
But you know it’s for the better,
In a world of pretenders,
There’s only a few authentic left
A loving heart,
Unable to be free,
God forbid you love a fraud,
Imagine you’re 6 feet deep
The mind and the heart are at odds,
HOW can they reconcile?
...Sunday 25th February 2018 6:06 pm
Virus in the Motherboard
My mind is something like an analytical computer,
Processing, Calculating, Probability.
Always observant,
Sometimes giving me unrest.
Is it really as simple as it seems?
Or is my mind prone to hard truths?
This is my newest edition to self-discovery,
I think my mind needs to have surgery.
Dissecting the unforgiving folds,
Maybe even remove the hard drive,
Se...
Sunday 11th February 2018 6:30 pm
Lately
Lately I’ve been wondering,
Wondering in the lowlands,
Lately I’ve been following,
Any star that shines,
Painfully I’ve swallowed,
Poisoned arrows that led me here,
They whispered dreams and virtue,
Didn’t know it would crumble to tears.
I can’t help it,
Every man has felt it,
I’m alone,
Though you try to help me.
Where every map leads backward,
P...
Tuesday 11th April 2017 8:31 pm
Hit and Miss
Contradiction is inevitable.
Perspective relative.
Monotony is life.
Amnesia saves
drugs,
a selfish freedom from the past.
White open spaces,
existence and impermanence.
Meaninglessness.
The great abandonment,
a tragedy,
the greatest agony,
random nostalgia.
Simplicity,
blue open skies, open arms,
open mind over mind
over matter mad as a hatter
no matter the weather,
I don’t ...
Monday 7th November 2016 2:57 pm
Phoenix
Phoenix
You set my sails ablaze,
How can I not feel hate?
My wings are singed, I cringe,
My throat is dry, I cry,
Why did you cause such pain?
Did you not my trust my ways?
My reflection is maimed,
The hope you did deflate,
The energy fades,
The Light of Heaven diverts away,
I guess I’ll have to wait,
The urgent message on delayed flight,
The r...
Thursday 23rd June 2016 5:09 pm
If I Could Rewind Time
If time could go backwards I would change a whole lot
the misery experienced and the Untied knots
things would be different but better you'll agree
because I would know what would hurt and benefit me
times are hard and will only get harder
life is short and will only get shorter
so I must correct my mistakes and just stop accepting this sorrow
Because I know I have fewer toda...
Monday 13th June 2016 8:44 am
Tribulation
If living for subsisting
or existing to survive
Purpose stays elusive
any sense can’t derive
Going about in vortex
moving at rapid pace
No time for indulgence
in own personal space
Stuck in same tedium
since been on to avoid
On face near amiable
but zest seems devoid
In inferred conspiracy
end's nowhere in sight
No choi...
Thursday 21st April 2016 7:28 am
A Lifetime Of Nights In A Welsh Town
Asleep beneath a sodium tongue,
Damp synthetic fire-licked stone,
Fake stone,
Hand made stone,
Carpeting ugly and commodious city streets,
Voices of young men,
Smoke filled lungs and wide wild eyes,
Sanguine chatter-boxes,
Impatiently idea making,
Dreaming, cold-air-breathing, nights on end without closed eyes,
Hearts open,
Some happy numbness in the fingers and toes,
All may rest ...
Wednesday 6th January 2016 11:56 pm
The Rational Animal
I did not ask,
I did not ask to emerge from the firmament,
I did not ask to grow, and learn, and make mistakes and start over,
I did not ask to feed a whole soul by way of wide-eyed wonder,
I did not ask,
To consider my self,
To bear the burden of loving a stranger,
To practice the discipline of forgiving,
I did not ask,
To find my way in the dark and reach out to touch the only force...
Wednesday 6th January 2016 11:53 pm
HOLLOW HALLS
She drags tired heels
across a tainted floor,
poise slightly bowed
and her back is sore.
She holds on her face
a cold marble stare,
a hard life engraved
upon cheeks once so fair.
Her faulting movements,
once graceful; divine,
her aching limbs now
with guile, defy
her final performance
on this dark empty stage,
memories fleeting
of a much better age...
Sunday 28th June 2015 9:36 am
Sex and Cigarettes
The smell of sex and stale cigarettes, Two bodies connected in life and death, Chapped lips meet between the sheets, Lust in our bones, the Reaper in the air. How rare an oxymoron, neither with clothes on, We follow recreation with deadly inhalation, Skin touching skin, lips wrapped around uncertainty, Two separate entities leaned inwards somehow gently, Feeling so alive, ...
Monday 27th April 2015 10:07 pm
Beset current despondency
goads me again to express
Reason for disenchantment
and issues crucial address
It’s not just plain strangers
but ones considered as own
Despite all indulged civility
apathy in return got shown
Kept seeking sane rationale
searched the very core inside
Answers did never justify
with none to stand be...
Tuesday 27th May 2014 5:07 pm
Complexity
Feeling blue and lonely,
for positivity I’ve doubts
Long has been torment
with endless sort bouts
Undoing other’s tangles
accidently I got caught
Intricately opposing to,
how I would’ve thought
Unknown with intent wily
I still can face and fend
Familiar I can’t decipher
with their density contend
If success was a hal...
Saturday 22nd February 2014 3:10 am
Hindsight
It indeed turned a folly
telling wrong from right
Each came out a winner
with me conceding fight
I’ve reached a juncture
doesn’t matter anymore
On face may seem loser
but wiser since before
Likely never transpired
surprising didn’t emerge
Accepted all dished out
veiling own latent urge
Saturday 15th February 2014 11:23 am
Hindsight
I’ve reached a juncture
doesn’t matter anymore
On face may seem loser
but wiser since before
Likely never transpired
surprising didn’t emerge
Accepted all dished out
veiling own latent urge
No rue is being nursed
none there to complain
Excused are all ignorant
let my loss be their gain
Thursday 6th February 2014 1:18 pm
Bespoke Monotony
Jaded lasting tedium
beset with gloomy cape
More I try ridding off
seems stuck at nape
Tattered and misshapen
the vilely kind of garb
Root cause for despair
inviting many a barb
Donned inadvertently
as cover up sort drape
From all harsh realities
when I sought escape
Ever since it stayed on
not even once removed
...
Tuesday 4th February 2014 2:43 am
Way Back Home
There’s always a way back home.
Maybe no one told you
But cement and brick last a long time,
Even when neglected.
You can disappear for a year or ten
Then come back again, to the street,
And watch history repeat
As memories breathe through old concrete.
And maybe it’ll seem strange to meet,
After all it was there I learnt life can be like
Spoilt conjoined...
Tuesday 29th January 2013 7:28 pm
When a Heart Truly Breaks
I am scared.
Eye sweating, lip stinging scared.
An irregular pulsar in the overstuffed confusion of my chest offers a less than precise signal, two-two time minus one, again and then again. All inside chooses to rise in unison and grip my desiccated throat. My fingers hover, but I dare not move. The continuation of this vessel in the balance and yet I still wrestle with pride and a fear...
Tuesday 21st August 2012 12:49 am
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Friday 6th May 2011 7:16 am
New X (30 years after the tragic fire)
On the 18th of January 1981, 13 young people died in a fire in New Cross, South East London (a fourteenth committed suicide after losing so many friends). Just shy of thirty years on, these are the contemporary reflections of a man who was a seven year old boy at the time. Widely thought to have been a racially motivated attack, more recent advances in forensic technology have suggested o...
Saturday 8th January 2011 5:45 pm
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