This was misery

It's a catastrophe

 

I lost my self

When you found yourself

 

 

I thought I was getting a man

But your lies had other plans

 

 

Now I sit here feeling all alone

Wondering if I will ever feel home

 

 

Try and love you all that I can

Wishing god had other plans

 

 

I feel lost and scared

How could anyone have prepared

 

 

Your finding your true self

I can't cry away the pain I have felt

 

Why must I feel like the selfish one

For things that can't be undone

 

I have no one to talk to about this

And my thoughts leave me feeling like shit

 

Wanting something I can't have

Leaving my brain feeling fucking mad

 

A battle of my will

Is enough to make me self kill

 

This is the hardest thing I been through

Fighting between the two

 

I deystroye everything I touch

I go crazy wanting it to much

 

Pain comes from feelings we can't express

Why does life always have to test

 

Why can you just be who I fell in love with

But instead you put me through this

 

God save my soul

I fear I might let go