Stop playing pretend

Stop trying to be my friend

 

I just wanted you to listen

Instead you just start fishing

 

I don't have time for this in my life

You fuck with my head causeing strife

 

I am so easily to change my mind

I will just lay here and act like I am fine

 

I deserve to feel like shit

I caused all this now I deal with it

 

Now you just bully me around

While I lay here crying begging to be found

 

I need time and space

To see I could so easily be replaced

 

I don't need you to approve of this

You came around and flick a switch

 

You talk with a surpants tounge

Whispering things can't be undone

 

Force me to hold this blame

Making me feel nothing but shame

 

I just wanted a shoulder to cry

A friend I could rely

 

I can't even face you it hurts to much

I am ashamed I even tried to keep in touch

 

I was vulnerable lost and scared

I just wanted you to be there

 

Now I have to fight with my self

Deal with the pain I caused myself

 

I have bigger issues then you

I fell down the rabbit hole it's true

 

I am not sad cause things ended

I am sad because I pretended

 

I feel embarrassed lost and scared

Damage was cause beyond repare

 

This isn't some sick twisted joke

Stop exposing words that should be unspoken

 

Go a head point fingers at me

This isn't some way to people please

 

I will hold all this blame

Cause we all know it's a twisted game

 

The lesson I take from what you taught

Was I should have just left from the start

 

In all this I found my love to write

It makes it worth every fight

 

Let me sit in my rabbit hole of shame

In this hole I hold all the blame