(Waring! Excessive use of expletives)

 

Hindsight illuminates the plight

Retrospect brings dark to light

Always a little too late

Try as I might

 

Do I stand up and fight

Or is this a time for flight

I can never seem to tell

Never get it right

 

Maybe genetically,  I am a mix of ostrich and possum

Freeze and play dead

Or, in the ground with my head

 

What a coward, the inner me screams...

Must we go through this again, forever it seems...

When will it be too much

When will you fight back...

Or is it not courage, but brains that you lack...

 

Get up, do something 

Stop letting this happen to you...

YOU ARE WORTH IT, YOU MATTER

Believe it, it's true...

Fuck shame

Fuck guilt 

Fuck fear

And your fucking parents too...

 

Fuck the pain

It's only energy 

Transform it and expend...

Bring all this seemingly endless misery 

to a fucking end

 

Don't be so hard on yourself 

All this was done to you...

You had no control over it

Look at it this way

What is your purpose

What have you come here to do...

 

You are fighting back

Taking control...

Actively changing the narrative 

Putting pen to paper, writing a new scroll...

 

Be proud of yourself

and what you've achieved...

You did the hard part,

YOU SURVIVED 

it's time to be healed.

 

 

(PSYCHOBABBLING)