WAITING FOR YOU WAS LIKE WAITING FOR DEAD GRASS TO GROW

DAY AFTER DAY SLIPPING DEEPER INTO THIS UNKNOWN

EVEN WHEN YOU FINALLY SHOWED UP I FORCED YOU AWAY LIKE A RAGING UNDERTOW

SWEPT OUT TO SEE LEAVING ME EXHAUSTED, BREATHLESS, SILENTLY SCREAMING NO NO NO

I WASN’T READY FOR THE LOVE YOU PRESENTED TO ME

WRAPPED WITH A BOW SO BEAUTIFULLY

I ADMITTEDLY TRIED SABOTAGING THIS WITH MY BEHAVIORS, NEVER FAVORABLE

WHY DOES HE LOOK AT ME LIKE I'M A WALKING ANGEL?

WHEN ALL I CAN SEE IN THE MIRROR IS THE DEVIL AND A SOCIETAL LABEL?

YOU KNEW I WOULD COME BACK EVERY TIME MY ROCKING HORSE BECAME STABLE

OUR FIRST DATE I ATE WITH CHOPSTICKS AT THE HIBACHI TABLE

TOOK ME FOR A WALK ON THE BEACH, THE MOON WAS UNBELIEVABLE

STOPPED ME DEAD IN MY TRACKS JUST TO SAY I WANT TO ADMIRE YOU, YOU’RE BEAUTIFUL

YOU CAN BREATHE NOW, EVERYTHING IS FINE. YOU’RE SAFE HERE MY LOVE, IT'S JUST YOU AND I

I BEGGED AND PLEADED FOR YOU TO TURN OFF THE LIGHTS.

MAKE IT COMPLETELY DARK LIKE THIS LIFE I'VE BEEN LIVING, A HIDEOUS LIE.

YOU DIDN’T WAIVER, LIGHTS ON CLOTHES OFF INDULGING IN EVERYTHING THAT MAKES ME CRY

TOOK YOUR TIME, KISSED MY LIPS AS I DRIFTED OFF INTO A NEW REALM

WHAT IS THIS FEELING, IS THIS CALM OR IS THIS HELL?

MY MIND WENT SILENT FOR THE FIRST TIME IN YEARS

MY BODY IGNITED LIKE THROWING A LIT MATCH INTO A BURNING OIL FIELD

YOUR SOFT KISSES SERENADED MY BODY ONE AFTER THE OTHER

THINKING IS THIS WHAT I'VE BEEN MISSING, SUBMISSION TO MY LOVER

YOU WATCHED AS I DROWNED IN ECSTASY MENTALLY AND PHYSICALLY

YOU KNEW I WAS HOOKED WHEN I OPENED MY EYES AND WE MET SPIRITUALLY

YOUR WAIT WAS OVER YOU KNEW YOU FINALLY SAVED ME

I'LL LOVE HER UNTIL SHE LOVES HERSELF AGAIN, THAT’S WHAT YOUR GREEN EYES TELLS ME

I DON’T KNOW WHAT KIND OF DARK ARTS MAGIC YOU’VE JUST INTRODUCED ME TO

BUT I KNOW I DON’T WANT TO RUN AWAY FROM IT ANYMORE, I JUST WANT TO BE NEXT TO YOU

Written September 2018