Is there a poem or song to describe the melancholy that washes over me, unexpectedly? 

 

One to suppress or express, dark desires 

to put myself first, at all costs. 

 

Let my needy family

fend for themselves,

 

betray those that have betrayed me, 

including my own body. 

 

Throw my arms up in despair,

one more time, 

 

or... 

 

take a deep breath, 

close my eyes,

 

dream of a time

life was sublime,  

 

transfer serenity 

into this cancerous moment, 

 

to heal my soul,

and revive my shine.