6/24/21

Waiting for you all to appreciate me, you made me hate me

Missing out on all of who I am, breaking me down, as if I'm not of high demand, like I'm less than a man

Genuine and honest and pretty funny too

You all take a lot of me and try to put it into you

My outake greater than my intake and your intake greater than mine

But now I'm taking my power back

Well now I'm not missing out on who I am, beautiful and heartfelt. 

I make my own heart melt

From the Love God's given me, the epitome of me dieing and then coming back

My repurposed soul, he won't let me go, God plans my plans - this I know

I see no reason to see you, no reason to tell you that I know because you chose over and over to decide that you were letting me go

See I met a guy a couple of weeks ago who smiled and I sighed, for he set me at ease, and no he didn't make me weak in the knees - he helped me see me

And I don't think he will be back again and I hold minute hope that he ever takes the the time to study me in that light again

But I know outside of him, I am so special and delicate, just like a relic is

And see - whether God's plan is for him to choose me or not I know what I am and I know what I'm not

My worth holds outside of what his attention cannot and I know that the one who will Love me will seek and I will be sought

So I hold my confidence in being a Woman

Woman 

She is growing but she is coming

Woman: too strong to wait for your realization of her worth, too steady to let you bring her feet ungrounded from this Earth

Kiss my lips but careful how you do for they hold back and they will challenge you 

If you chose to move too fast, if you thought my face in your mind wouldn't last, if you chose not to take the time to honor woman's true divine

Delicately pick me like fruit off a vine

Step back in disgrace at how quickly you grew to Love my face, ask me to leave because you see and believe that there is more than just a story to hear and believe 

There is a Woman in me