I’m prettiest when you take advantage of me

When you hold my limp body in your overbearing arms

I’m charming when you have power over me

When you profit off my soreness

 

I’m foul when I think of myself

When I don’t comply with your needs

I’m awful when I stand up for myself

When I demand respect from you

 

I’m beautiful when I shed tears of anguish 

When I wet the pages in my journal

I’m desirable when I say no or stop

When I try to push you off me 

 

I’m ugliest when I’m confident

When you can’t break me

I’m unpleasant when I speak my mind

When I catch your lies seeping in 

 

I’m gorgeous when I listen to your commands

When I nod my head and don't make a sound 

I’m adorable when you can control me

When I’m your sacred prize 

 

I’m grotesque when I want to be loved

When I want to be held

I’m hideous when I beg for more

When I try to walk away

 

I’m attractive when I come back every time

When I’m trapped in your web

I’m alluring when I let you do anything to me

When I don’t question your motives

 

I’m disgusting when I find better

When I leave you high and dry

I’m frightening when I know my worth

At last, I'm prettiest when I learn to love myself