Bemused and Confused

 

I am so hurt and completely confused

Walking around, dazed and bemused

Once again, I trusted and cared

Private feelings I did share

My heart opens, like it has never before

Now I am lying on the floor

I gave everything I had

It was all good and no bad

I loved like there’s no tomorrow

Now I am filled with pain and sorrow

I was patient to the hilt

No matter how much anger was spilt

I listened and advised

And now I don’t feel as wise

I supported through thick and thin

Through the shouting and the whispering

I cared with no agenda

I was always there to defend her

I planned around her thoughts and wishes

Completely trusting and not suspicious

I believed in the words she said

All those thoughts, she put in my head

Made me feel like I was so special

Now I am like a flower with no petals

Told me she had never loved like this

Us to always be together was her wish

She said I gave her what she never had

That I made her happy and never sad

For the first time, she was treated good

To care for me for life, she said she would

At last, someone filled her heart

And there was no way we would ever part

She promised she would never hurt me

Oh, it was all said, so convincingly

I fell for the charm and the looks

I never completely read the book

She has left and walked away

Leaving me on my own and here to stay

So, if all the above is so true

Why am I bemused and confused?

 

Nataiella (2006)