Fear of Love.

 

I love you and I really do care. 

I hear those words now and it makes me so scared.

How do you respond to the words you have always longed to hear, 

When at first hearing they just fill you with dreaded fear.

 

How do you know how to love if you have never been loved. 

Is love just a wishful feeling or a gift from above.

Is love a commitment to sharing with someone else everything. 

How do you do that when your feelings you have spent your whole life protecting.

 

Love is handing over your heart and well-being to a stranger for them to take care of, 

How can you do that if you're still hiding from the past.

Love is to care support and protect another human being. 

How do you do that when you have spent your whole life just surviving.

 

To receive true love is accepting you are worth loving.

How can you do that if you are riddled with self-loathing.

Am I worthy of true love I really don't know. 

I guess I will have to try and embrace it and see how it goes.

 

Nataiella (2012)