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Time Again Once More

Time Again Once More.

 

The old man is lying uncomfortably in the hospital bed.

An array of odd, shaped pillows laying around his head.

You make your way very carefully over to him.

Trying your best not to knock all the cables from the machines.

You sit down by him and quietly say hello.

He gazes at you but who you are he doesn't really know.

 

He tries to murmur something, but you don't understand.

You mumble in return something so he thinks you can.

Its saddening you deeply to see him like this.

On the hope that he is not in too much pain is all you can really wish.

You know these are the last moments of a proud man's life.

Hard working intelligent man overloaded with pride.

 

Someone you wished you really had a chance to get to properly know.

But for various reasons your relationship sometimes ebbed and sometimes flowed.

You took his frail hand and talked hoping some of it he understood.

If you could turn all the clocks back and start again you would.

You have 1000 regrets that you try so hard to explain.

But if you were both being honest, your both just as much to blame.

 

This man made a decision that affected the whole of your life.

It was cold and callous for an adult to put all the blame on a child.

But somehow, it's you who's been riddled with guilt ever since.

On numerous occasions taking you to the very brink.

Time is limited and slowly running out and you need to make a move.

You end by saying some nice things and you try to lighten the mood.

 

You tell him you love him with tears in your eyes.

Maybe it was your imagination, but you thought you saw a little smile.

You stand and lean over kissing gently on the head.

Rearrange the blankets, check he is comfy in his bed.

You take a deep breath and walk slowly towards the door.

And your final wish is that you and he could have your time again once more.

 

Nataiella 1979.

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TobaniNataiella

Fri 8th Nov 2024 11:48

Thank you Larisa for the like.

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TobaniNataiella

Tue 5th Nov 2024 22:26

Thank you Tom for the comment and Thank you Nigel for the like.

TOM MERTON

Tue 5th Nov 2024 12:20

Cheers for the brilliant hard work Tobani. 👍

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TobaniNataiella

Tue 5th Nov 2024 11:13

Thank you David for the comment and like, i might well give that a go and see what comes out on the paper.

Thank you Tom for the like.

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David RL Moore

Tue 5th Nov 2024 08:12

Reflecting on this and the young person you were when you wrote it, it might be interesting for you to write a piece reflecting upon how you feel now.

I read my teenage poems occasionally and it's interesting to see my early thoughts and how they have changed and develop over time.

David

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TobaniNataiella

Tue 5th Nov 2024 00:23

I wrote this when i was 16 after spending 2 days at my Grandads bedside before he passed away. we had a very difficult and troubled relationship throughout my childhood, and sadly never made our peace.

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