Beginning to End

 

I see myself in the mirror but in reality

Everything I am, love, hate, is staring back

There is someone there, I am her, she is me

We place hands together and the mirror begins to crack

 

Slowly our lips embrace and the glass busts

Now we are one and the thoughts weave

She sees me in her eyes to be the one she trusts

My emotions lie carelessly upon my sleeve

 

Time spent together seems imaginary

As if something from a dream

These feelings feel so hard to carry

Like a whole new experience it seems

 

Getting to know her is just remembering me

All the things I like, enjoy, feel for

Our thoughts feed off each other so easily

Every moment my entire body begs for more

 

The most beautiful smile shows her joy

The most beautiful hair shows her care

The most inviting eyes know how to toy

The perfect body I stare, how could I dare?

 

What am I to do with such a gift?

How should I show her how I feel?

The way she makes my heart lift

The way she makes love real

 

In every relationship there are certain sacrifices

In order to stay near her I have to go away

Being in her company is what suffices

There is no need for intimacy today

 

A good feeling flows through our hearts

We just want to run away together

For this moment is where it starts

Fate only knows if it will last forever

 

She thinks about love

She dreams about love

She aches for love

She stakes for love

 

So unique in her ways

She is more than ideal

She’s in my head each one of these days

An opposite thought I cannot steal

 

She looks in my eyes

Spiritually we connect

The feeling is the ultimate prize

For her the same I can only expect

 

For once in my life I feel truly appreciated

She thanks me for what I am doing for her

From my conscience I get congratulated

And I know her affection is pure

 

These are nervous moments

We know it’s safe here at home

It is such hard containment

But who knows where my hands will roam

 

I can’t get her eyes out of my head

Constantly they overwhelm my mind

They hold a message asking to be read

Asking in time, is love what she’ll find?

 

Still climbing up the impression tree

We become more comfortable

Times are now going more steady

And we are even more amiable

 

Bolts of sensations flow throughout my entire body

Day to day I lean either way

How does she do what she does to me?

I'm so attracted in every possible way

 

She travels back to a place not evaded

Back to where everyone knows her name

A taste of being separated

I wonder if she feels the same

 

Each day she’s away I crave her more

It’s nice to hear her voice on the phone

This aching in my heart is making it sore

But it’s a feeling I cannot condone

 

The time that she’s gone gives me time to reflect

She’s so unimaginably wonderful

Awesome in every aspect

Both inside and outside she’s beautiful

 

It feels so good knowing she feels like me

I see it in every smile and every blink of her eye

She’s opened me up to what I did not see

Now I'm so happy I could cry

 

Now my thoughts look to the future

I become warm every time I imagine us together

Could I end up with her?

Will it be us forever?

 

I'm seventeen thinking thirty

About kids, a house, a job

It’s too early to be settled

My life I mustn’t rob

 

Times roll on

Months now spent

Love in the dawn

Life is for rent

 

Careless emotions call for careless actions

I find she is dependent of me

Her superfluous fiery reactions

She’s reliant on my sympathy

 

Time is expensive

We’re both busy so much

Our needs become extensive

Be begin to lose touch

 

She needs me more than anything

How do I fulfill her desires?

My life’s so full of everything

I have no time to conspire

 

Feelings of depression

Her smile has faded

Sadness in succession

I’ve made her jaded

 

In every relationship there are certain difficulties

We are more comfortable with our criticisms

We begin to learn our hypocrisies

We begin to learn our egotisms

 

After time the spark weakens

The attraction is still there, although purely visceral

While away my longing strengthens

Then when together it’s conical

 

I can’t explain that feeling in the beginning

It’s so wonderful

It’s the only thing about life worth living

It’s the only thing that’s not plentiful

 

My heart has gone through enough

My mind has gone through enough

My body has gone through enough

My soul hasn’t gotten enough

 

This endless travel for love leaves a man deaf in the dark

Experience can only gain intelligence

Life never hits the mark

But love is its guidance

 

With shaky times occurring

An action she has to take

She can’t go on enduring

Her happiness she cannot fake

 

I support her every move

Even though I can’t be the one

From her heart I am removed

And sewn the stitches that can’t be undone

 

For me my life is turned

I notice time goes slow

My thoughts of love are burned

My heart warm from the ember’s glow

 

Her smile flashes in my mind

Her hair is everywhere

Her eyes are my imaginations design

Her body invisible to stare

 

It seemed so right

It felt so good

It was in my sight

I’d go back if I could

 

Her heart feels the pain

My heart feels the same

Together we were vain

But apart it’s a different game

 

So much we know of each other

How comfortable we are

No need for another lover

Because love is not that far

 

I look into a new dawn

Let life take me where I go

But it’s so hard moving on

I had so much, and I didn’t even know

 

Each passing day I crave her more

I stare at the phone

It really was love

Not something to condone

 

There’s nothing I can do

Only hope for the best

Look for someone new

Someone better than the rest

 

My life’s only just begun

In fact, I’m not even sure it has

Enough of this will keep me on the run

Until I hear my child call me dad

 

So much to see

I intend to do well

For love is within me

And the rest I will tell

 

 

                                    Jake Belmont 4-22-03