1Our walls

 

Trapped in these four walls

Wallowing in self-despair

Suffering from my latest falls

Let my mind and body repair

 

Not a thought for anyone else

Never offering to lend a hand

My mind only focused on myself

Not sure how much more I can withstand

 

How to move myself forward

How to re-establish respectability

Stop doing the things that are untoward

Proving my ongoing fallibility

 

Trying to find the energy to move

Escape the cell that is my mind

Attempt to get back into the groove

Be helpful, useful and kind

 

Appreciate the kindness shown to me

Stop taking everything for granted

Swamped with drowning self-pity

Prove I really once was talented.

 

2.Drowning my sorrows

 

So, you think I just went down

To let all my sorrows drown

But that’s not it, not at all

I’ve been speaking to people also in free-fall

 

The guy re-diagnosed with Liver cancer

No real available drug enhancer

Still cheerful with a witty line

But not a cat, no lives of nine

 

See and hear all the sorrows of others

See the wreckage of those once lovers

Acknowledge just what alcohol can do

Yes indeed, it can happen to you

 

Well, I only went down for one

Yes, I do know I’m a disappointing son

But I need to see life, feel the vibe

And sadly the more I do, the more I imbibe

 

But I’m looking and hearing real life

Lives cut open with a razor sharp knife

Some self-inflicted that’s for sure

But others, you just wish they had more

 

So, whilst I only went down for one

I’m listening to people whose life has gone

Can only try and cheer them up

Say ‘Cheers’ and have another sup.

 

Depressing really, the stories you hear

Expressing everything I know or fear

But they just carry on without a worry

They won’t be giving up and dying in a hurry

 

I really did just pop-out for one

Wasn’t expecting to get so far gone

It wasn’t all about the beer

But I’m walking home shedding a tear.