Mental Illness
I keep thinking of my better half
Do you think insanity is a curse
Cause it's all I have left
It makes sense
The voices are non-stop now
Telling me I've done all I can do
So end it all and join them
But I know if I keep ripping my skin open
And getting just a second of sanity
Cleanse myself from the voices
I'll want to wait for her
So I'll do that
I'm sorry this isn't a form of a poem
I don't have any clever line to write down for you
All I have is this mental illness
It may be my curse but I'll make it a blessing
It can't own me all my life
It makes sense
The voices are non-stop now
Telling me I've done all I can do
So end it all and join them
All day I thought that they've been right
But in this cleansing second
I see that they were wrong
And all life has value
Or is that just a false idea that I've learned
I'm sorry this isn't a form of a poem
I don't have any clever line to write down for you
All I have is this mental illness
I'm sorry but I know I do not know you
Give you these burdens that I carry
I've decided to just sit here and wait for her
In this throne of scars that have made for her
So do not look at me right now
So I am a lion that is weak and waiting on the girl he loves
M.C. Newberry
Mon 4th Dec 2017 17:08
Facing our demons is never easy and will always be a hard
path to take. But the negativity is but one facet of our
"self" and it is possible to use the rest to actively fight
against them. If the tide seems overwhelming then build
up the sea wall that can be used in defence. For every incursion let there be a throwing back. The mind will find
a way when "given the office" to act. Master and servant
are reversible roles in dealing with the downsides of
thought and will change when helped via positive reaction.
Hang in there.