Winter is the best time to die

Who wants to go when the children scream on the beach

and the sun is high in the sky

who in their right mind wishes to take their leave

when there is happiness and laughter

and picnics and sand

but perhaps you are not in your 'right' mind

whatever that is.

Can any of us be in our right minds living like this?

No winter is the time to go with a hard frost

and dark nights

and sullen gloom

All the people with Seasonal Affective Disorder

can attend your funeral with your permission of course

but you will not be there

your soul, your essence will be elsewhere

I don't like the idea of cremation or burial

in case you are not dead.

What if the GP and Health Visitor were wrong?

What if you wake up as the coffin enters the flames?

Bummer eh?

But you've wanted to be gone a while now haven't you?

Saying that life is for the young

and that you are taking up valuable space.

You were the one who looked after the dying

and witnessed death at the birth of the NHS. 

Hang on a bit please,

just wait until winter

when Santa can take away your body

or the shoppers can step over you in the January Sales.

I know that it's going to happen.

It's bollocks to say that you don't fear death.

It's the culmination of an unfulfilled life.