I will remember

my faults and my flaws

my wrongs and my failures.

I will remember 

the people who stood by me

the ones who didn’t leave.

i will remember

how they hurt me

how they knocked me down.

i will remember 

the sorrow that haunts me

the one that follows me everywhere.

But most of all,

 I remember her.

the way she used her sarcasm and wit like I do.

the way that she never gave up hope.

how brave she was.

how broken she was.

the way everybody cut her down.

the way she left.

the way she is there,

like a lingering memory.

a picture in my head.

I remember the way

that we cannot meet

and that it is impossible for us to spread our wings.

i remember.