Dominoes
A grammar school education
didn’t spare me British Leyland;
post-continental drift saw me slip
into the pits of Birmingham
onto the slow track my path
should’ve been turning from.
Just a temporary shift - like the duppies
and the muppets had sniffed
before their brains became flaccid
and got caught up in the gears
in which night and day were plaited.
Everything was automatic –
but you had to be there
and punch yourself in and out
as mini-avatars descended from the stars
for the trim and spit and polish
of the bodies draped in homage
over exterior, interior and bonnet.
The rattle of chains ran through our veins
and coloured men grey, moulded them
to the rhythm of the track,
to the drag of the magnet.
I was the relief man, the filler-in.
When you were in need of a fag or crap,
or your nervous breakdown was nigh,
I’d take your part for 5 or 10 minutes
or the remainder of your life.
Some say we struck for higher pay,
to further aspirations or promote a revolution.
More likely, self-preservation: the fear of three stops up,
the barmy house that locked and bolted nuts;
it must have seeped through our Unconscious
when we stumbled out the pubs every evening
and weekend, where we supped
to bring on oblivion.
A vacation from automation,
a finger off the button.
Dominoes at dinnertimes
with young Rastas and old Jamaicans;
I and I in Brummie accents,
learning a fresh language of duppies,
Zion and mashin’, smashing down the spots
as if daring the machine to reawaken.
My missus started packing me pizzas
and quiches and they’d roll their eyes
in jealousy and wonder, slap me on the shoulder
and assure me that it wouldn’t last.
The day I told them I was quitting
to do Psychiatric Nursing
I could see the buzz run up the track,
the assembly line silenced and stopped
and the shop rocked with laughter.
We’ll catch you later, they roared,
catch you later three stops up.
I don’t come past that often
the ruins of The Austin
and the vanished asylum.
There’s barely a pub left open in Longbridge,
though the streets are swollen
with cars and drunks and madmen.
Long gone the duppies and dominoes falling.
Laura Taylor
Fri 2nd Mar 2012 11:07
Good piece - love the detail in it, the hopes, the almost non-aspiration...the desperation. I know that reaction too...faced the same when I told everyone I was giving up my job to go to university, in my late 20s. Contemptuous disbelief and a pressure to not do it, even though I was ready to cut my wrists if I didn't use my mind.