Willpower and discipline,
have long been two of the 
most despised words in the 
english language to me.

What character flaw prevents  
the willpower and discipline
necessary to be the person
I imagine myself capable of being?

A half-lived life is heartbreaking.
There is no acceptable excuse, 
not age or disability.

Even people with no limbs 
live empowered lives 
built on willpower 
and discipline.

I curse this weakness within me. 
Yet, I see the fortress 
stored energy
has built around me. 

It protects me 
from vulnerability.
But does it really?

What my stout guardian 
fails to realize is, the same wall
that keeps others out, 
shuts me in. 

How I long to be free,
of this barren place with no
willpower and discipline. 

I want to feel again, 
but fear it may be 
too late.

So, I put all my passion
in words and warnings 
for those willing
to learn from my mistakes.

Willpower and discipline
can be your worst enemy
or best friend. 

With each pregnant moment, 
you decide which pain wins,
the pain of willpower and discipline
or the pain of loneliness and regret.

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