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Single Malt Tears


Hi all, I blogged this poem at the end of last month, removed it and then re-worked it from a different perspective and painfully gave birth to 'Single Malt Rain' - for some reason I did not feel comfortable with the original piece. With some recommendation I removed the last two verses, so here goes again. I would love to know what anyone thinks of this, the original version as compared to 'Single Malt Rain'. Was originally titled '.....and nobody knows.....' Thanks all, nicky x



She cries.
              This woman.
                                 All alone.
Her head by the phone, her bloody nose.
She cries.
               This woman.
                                  For stories untold.
Finds refuge in Oblivion. It numbs the Pain.


She cries.
               This woman.
                                  All alone.
With aching heart, and head by the phone.
Single malt rain
                         slides down
                                           her face
numbness etched with pain for all to trace.


She cries.
               This woman.
                                  All alone.
Her weary body, her head by the phone.
Muffled sobs,
                     of fear
                               and pain,
and Nothingness, she's going insane.


She hides.
                This woman.
                                   All alone.
From the world, and her stories untold.
She hides.
                This woman.
                                   Hides her grief.
Patiently awaiting her final relief.


She cried.
               This woman.
                                  For far too long.
Afraid to speak out, tell the world "It's wrong!".
She cried.
               This woman.
                                  Single Malt Tears.
Of bitterness, not hope, for too many Years.

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Cynthia Buell Thomas

Sun 18th Oct 2009 17:33

It's Sunday, Nicky, and this has been up since Thursday. Can I, too, be honest? I think your 'end bit' shown to Mr. Mellor. is very good. I don't believe you have yet captured your intent without confusion. This reads, for me, at a level of writing far beneath your ability. I find some lines and words mundane. To trip rhythmically over a line like 'her face ...numbness etched with pain for all to trace' is not good. It is a great sentence, but too wordy for that poetic line. How many times can you use 'pain' before it becomes useless, especially since it was personified by a capital letter at the beginning. The woman's 'stories' almost become uninteresting; everybody has 'stories' and most people do not drown in alcohol. I believe your 'heroine' loses reader sympathy. If you want reader empathy for her, be more precise about what she fears and why she cannot get help. A bleeding nose has more causes than physical abuse.
I think this idea was better with the other characters, the three-person angle: the watcher, the watched, and the sense of the narrator.
I'm feeling very brave to write this, but it has been needling me.

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Cate Greenlees

Fri 16th Oct 2009 17:26

A deeply touching portrayal of abuse and abject despair.
I like the lay out of this Nicky, the break up of the lines indicates to me the womans inability to structure her life, and the helplessness of being unable to change it.
It`s not an easy read but one that makes you take note and think.
Cate xx

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Fri 16th Oct 2009 11:22

Hi Nicky,
i think this is a stunning portrayal of loneliness and not wanting others to know and see it's there.
It's heart rending and very true for so many women and men too.
Personally i prefer this version.
I don't know if you cut and pasted this in or wrote it out on the sites facility but i'd like to see a bit more spacing between the lines after the word ''alone''. Obviously it's only my opinion. :-)

Janet.x

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Francine

Fri 16th Oct 2009 00:33

I have read both and they are so different!

This one for me has so much more feeling to it...
The repetition of 'She cries. This woman. All alone.' reinforces that.
You can feel her anguish...

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Tommy Carroll

Fri 16th Oct 2009 00:11

Nicky: I suppose...The 'woman' is central to the poem physicaly and emotionaly. And a 'line' can be drawn centraly that regardless of which way 'she' turns (faces) she is trapped, by the events she endures and the shape imposed upon her by the structure of the poem. An inventive and thoughtful rendering: puts you 'in a terrible place'.Tommy

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Nichola Burrows

Thu 15th Oct 2009 20:06

Hi Steve, interesting, this was the original poem that I wrote years ago, blogged first, then removed it and reworked it, from the perspective of the watcher. There was an 'end bit' too which I took off - I have sent it to you.
Maybe I could develop the 'end bit' and collate them as a series of three poems - the 'watched', the 'watcher' and 'the other'. I don't know, all ideas welcome.

the 'end bit'

They cry. When they realise.
the terrible secrets that she had to hide.
Rain mingled tears, splash down their face
of loss and regret for all to trace.

And he cries, this man, all alone.
An empty bottle propped by the headstone.
A Single Malt tear, slides down his face.
Regret and torment for all to trace.

.........and nobody knows..........

nicky x

steve mellor

Thu 15th Oct 2009 19:52

Hi Nicky
I know you were recommended to shorten the original, but I liked the feel of that original, where the onlooker felt guilt at watching the woman, whilst admitting the almost hypnotic effect of watching.
I wonder if there is still just a little space that could accommodate these feelings?
Or is that another poem perhaps?

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