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Fruits of over-thoughtfulness and secret espers
“Fruits of over-thoughtfulness”
Even to my best of friends,
I couldn't talk.
Because of the thought,
They might;
Walk,
While I sulk.
I rather stitch My mouth,
Than to disturb,
the only person, I want
To converse with.
I am not solo,
Have solitude got my
Back, when tired;
As all my plans got,
back-fired.
What if all my companions...
Wednesday 30th October 2024 2:48 pm
Laments of imagination
"The laments of imagination”
Everytime and every-other time,
I duelled with my life on- line,
Against those “worst-case scenarios”;
I created for the better
for mine.
We always gone,
Toe-to-toe,
Each other's best foe.
“nah, I will win and give it a run”,
I thought to myself.
While anxiety made me stun,
I got stung ,
And created a new river to run;
Wi...
Wednesday 30th October 2024 2:38 pm
Scenarios
Every night i lie in bed
dozen scenarios in my head
thinkin bout how and what and when and where
every night you'll find me there
in my head
my secret place
in my mind
my safest space
all those things i never find
confidence?
i'd rather hide
brave enough? not the case
but in my mind
my safest space
i can be what i cannot
i can ...
Sunday 5th May 2024 7:35 am
Hidden
The master behind my own downfall,
A slave to my eerie thoughts.
Wondering if I can break free and stand tall.
The side they never talk about in sports.
The minds weathered to achieve anything,
But fear clouds my judgement.
Disappointment builds up and the storm starts readying,
Now caught up in the cyclone of my own cynical thinking.
Tuesday 23rd March 2021 6:58 am
Overthinker
cling-clangs against my brain
feign solutions but they’re all the same
feasts for frantic fissions
unbridled, undeniably out of
control
the drug I’ve always craved
but can’t do a thing other than
think
did I say it wrong?
did they hear me right?
I’m sure of it
So unsure of it
I may be wrong
maybe all is well
...
Wednesday 25th November 2020 7:30 pm
I don't mind
I don’t know where I’m coming from
and I don’t know where I’m going
if I don’t know this
what do I know then?
driven by insecurity
my mind tries to fill the void inside
searching for something that is real
getting trapped in the web
running in a wheel
make up your mind
and let the shit flow through
what’s important will stick around you
holding on to s...
Saturday 25th July 2020 8:27 am
The Overthinker in Me
They say I'm a bit too much,
too much of everything.
Sometimes too caring and sometimes too irritating.
So here I am, under the constant worry,
'What if this is too much?'
So busy going around in my own head,
That I forget relations have to be maintained with the heart.
I'm afraid I don't know what I desire or deserve.
Is it wrong to anticipate a love of the same intensity,
or is it jus...
Saturday 30th May 2020 12:09 pm
Do You Ever Also?
Do you ever feel like you're the protagonist of a book?
Where the ending is constantly being rewritten and you're just waiting for the day that it's finally gone through all the edits and gets published?
But what happens if it's a novel that has 7 parts?
You might never even get to read the last written words or get to the final chapter of what you thought was your
"perfect ending."
...Monday 24th February 2020 8:35 am
harakiri.
Sometimes I over drink.
Oops I mean overthink.
Ah fuck it, it's the same damn thing.
I over pour my glass leaving no room for coke.
The voice repeating in my head of the last words you spoke.
You ask why I'm self destructive but the truth is I dont know.
I'm starting to think that the devil is a lie.
The only evil we see is what we bury inside.
I'm going to lose to myself, it's only a ...
Sunday 20th January 2019 12:47 am
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