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In Case I Lose This Fight
I almost killed myself tonight,
I ran out of reasons to live and reasons to fight.
Each day is a battle just to survive,
How is it that I am expected to thrive?
The loneliness in this house is overbearing,
I feel like a fool for even caring.
All I need is to be loved and feel wanted,
But my reality is the opposite while my brain is haunted.
Nothing I say or do wil...
Friday 15th March 2024 1:43 am
A fight to survive
Seeing the beautiful sky,
From my dead eyes.
Wondering the beauty in the holy night,
Dark was the only colour which helps me to hide.
Hiding my sadness my sorrows my fear my cries,
Trying my best to keep the face with smile.
My hobbies,my joy, my emotions were becoming day by day a bit fewer,
Now I am just existing in the world, can't even face myself in the mirror.
...
Monday 7th September 2020 6:58 pm
For Hunter
I wish I could hide away from the rest of the world in your arms
bury my face in your chest only coming back up to kiss your kneck
Sometimes I miss the way you wouldn't call be by my name, but
instead called me beautiful
You swore to me late at night that I was your soulmate
but being soulmates wouldn't be enough to save you from your one true love
the drugs and the booze
the...
Monday 18th February 2019 8:33 am
Pseudologia Fantastica.
Tell me again how fire is dangerous
As you're standing there playing with matches
You strike the sulfur that would ultimately end us
You beg me not to leave but you push me away
I never know what you'll be feeling today
Tell me how you love me but cause me dismay
I know that you're trying I see it in your eyes
The first time I learned not only your mouth can tell lies
Say I give you li...
Wednesday 8th August 2018 3:09 pm
This Boy
Much like my father this boy that I have intriguingly clung to does not have any appreciation for my existence much less my helpless soul.
I feel like the caring down syndrome child that begs his alcoholic of a father to love him yet the only thing he has spoken is how unmanageable the poor child is.
I am very lost and also heartbroken, I am the dirty tile in the corner of the kitchen that i...
Tuesday 13th February 2018 12:07 am
The Marked Ones
The Marked Ones
Icicles stab like swords through my heart,
Enemies terrorize my mind,
Sanity slipping from the whole and the parts,
Time is elapsing,
Panic starts,
The dream of salvation is lost in the storm,
Ugly dark angels beg to be born,
Uncage the black beast,
Unholiest sworn,
Warriors come running from distant lands,
Strength and composure ripp...
Thursday 23rd June 2016 4:13 pm
From the past to the present
Cold as ice or as hot as fire
Words to hurt or to inspire
Loneliness fades into nothingness
Beauty that leaves us helpless
Seeing the possibilities
Planning the journeys
Believing life will not expire
As love does not retire
A solo can be beautifully strong
Duets are also a wonderful song
Choosing who you will be
Not a choice to take lightly
The r...
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