Blog Entries by Lisa Milligan

Gently you trace the tear
down my cheek
my pain mirrored
in the confusion in your eyes
not understanding what you’ve done
again
still
but wanting to

Words like barriers between us
we take turns offering apologies
reassurances
arms pulling each other close
losing myself
in your warm hard body against mine
as we both try to deny
the fences between us

...

Love Loss Confusion Letting Go

Friday 26th August 2011 6:38 pm

Color

One only need look

at God’s handiwork to see

all colors in all forms

can’t possibly thrive

separately

Photography by Lisa Milligan

Friday 19th August 2011 9:22 pm

The Patient

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"I am a patient" I whisper in my head
and I should be treated like one
please take care of me
as I lie in this bed
with my insides burning
scared to death of this disease
my bones ache
I tremble and sweat
and cry as I stare out the window at the parking garage
where my car is parked, waiting for me to escape this nightmare
I wish I could say I'm here because I'm brave
but ...

Tuesday 16th August 2011 6:48 pm

addiction suffering pain stigma indignity

Fidelity

Lemon brightness in my eyes

to warmer climes in winter he flies

it’s in his nature to choose his wife

instinctively choosing to mate for life

fidelity causes some men to flinch

they could learn a thing or two from

my finch

Photography by Lisa Milligan

Tuesday 16th August 2011 5:04 pm

fidelity humor

Waiting For A Star To Fall

Star

Diamonds strewn across black velvet sky

Starfish scattered along the shore

Star shaped maple leaves flutter and fly

Star flakes of snow in the winter's roar

I miss you so much wherever you are

All I ever wanted was to be your

Star

Photography by Lisa Milligan

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Monday 15th August 2011 3:13 pm

rejection love longing star

Pink Tulips

Two lips
soft pink and parted
waiting, saved just for you

Two hands
getting things started
knowing just what to do

Two souls
trust is rewarded
to both, joyful and new

Two hearts
no longer guarded
pledge to always be true

Tulips
bride in a garden
making one out of two

Photography by Lisa Milligan

Friday 12th August 2011 2:56 pm

Absolution

I let the pussy go today; he scratched me to get away

I told him to take the tool with him

Because it would prick me instead of helping me

I took the arrows out of my back

There are bits of stone left behind from the arrowheads

But I don’t feel them anymore

I took my four small bottles of Holy Water

And gave them to people who respect me

T...

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Wednesday 21st April 2010 12:10 am

Sugar, Spice and Everything Nice

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"You must understand, your behavior is hurting your children."
I sat confused, expecting the psychiatrist to blame me
the trouble making teenager, the problem in the family
but he was directing his comments at my mother

Back at home in my room
I could feel my father as he walked in
and threw a piece of paper next to me on the bed
"Maybe it would be better for all of you if I we...

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Sunday 18th April 2010 3:32 pm

Cassie

Cassie came to me

damaged and afraid

“just let me hide in this corner”

it was like she prayed

“I’ll be fine if left alone

with food and water

to survive”

I’m not sure she wanted

to even be alive

I forced my love on her

for I wouldn’t settle for this

forced gentle caresses

warm hugs and a kiss

though I knew

she couldn’t be expec...

Thursday 15th April 2010 11:54 am

Die Sonne (The Sun)

We see the sun shine every morning

she brings light and hope and happiness

and love to the world

she nurtures and warms us

and makes this world a cheerful place

But then the night descends

and we don’t see what happens to the sun

does she get extinguished by a malevolent entity

that robs her of everything she is

is she slowly covered over

to b...

Sunday 11th April 2010 11:31 pm

Waves Crash

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Waves crash, warm sand

Gold ring, your hand

I can't stay

Away from you

But I know my place

You held my shaking body

Remorse etched in your face

You know you’re not where you belong

But when you’re here

You belong to me

I can't make it go away

Not with the wine or the others

Or the lies I tell myself

About how I'm just lonely

An...

Thursday 8th April 2010 12:12 pm

My Father's Arm

I was dreaming…

“…I remember as a little girl

I would hold tight to my father’s arm

and he would swing me up high in the air.

Although I would be screaming with glee

I could still hear his deep chuckles…”

I wonder what it would have felt like to be precious to my parents

and to have felt cherished by them.

I wonder what it would have felt like t...

Monday 5th April 2010 12:07 pm

Forget

The way you looked at me...

Warm brown eyes shining across a blue tiled table

The warmth of your hand

The fragrant smell of grass and rain

I watched your lips with longing

A smile like diamonds in my eyes

A smile I'll have to forget

A story with no beginning...or end

Just a look on my face no one understands

I will never forget your beautiful face

...

Thursday 1st April 2010 5:17 pm

I Thought White Was Beautiful

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Kneeling in the grass

he sits back on his feet

sunlight glinting

in his blonde hair

and surveys his garden

he plucks and pulls out

all the weeds and grass

and the things

that shouldn't be there

throwing them in a pile

He gazes slowly along

the tiny blooms

of beautiful dark colors

burgundy alyssum

sapphire blue lobelia

dark red ...

Tuesday 30th March 2010 12:43 pm

Bye Mommy [Lyrics]

She said when I was born that all her dreams came true

But there was one dream that fell apart that day

She vowed he let her down for the final time

Without a backward glance she packed us up and walked away

I was just a baby when she left me in daycare

Didn't understand what bills were or the debts she had to pay

As I held her tight, she stroked my head and held me clos...

Friday 26th March 2010 1:15 pm

The Missing Piece

She has always loved jigsaw puzzles

as far back as he can remember

she gets at least one a year

and leaves it on the kitchen table until it's done

she gets the 1000 piece puzzles now

her latest one is of lighthouses

They talk a lot on the phone

he started college this year

she loves to hear about his day

anything, everything he does

it doesn't matte...

Tuesday 23rd March 2010 8:54 pm

Quotations

My baby, my baby!

Why didn't you put that away, he could have picked it up to drink it. It's poison!"

she yelled at me.
It was a bottle of some kind of cleanser, I can't remember what.

I was six.

I remember vividly my mother sitting on the steps with my 2-year-old brother in her lap. She was holding him close and rocking him back and forth, with his head against her shoulde...

Monday 22nd March 2010 10:56 am

The Cape

Child un-nurtured
innocent confusion
hurt by idolized parents
maybe an accident
a mistake
that started a family

But to him, I'm a hero

Hurt and angry adolescent
surviving on the streets
same old story
fell in with the wrong crowd
too much drink
too many trysts
a bed for two but
a playground for many

But to him, I'm a hero

Self ...

Friday 19th March 2010 8:03 pm

Heartfire

I want to be in love

I never thought I’d say that

I’ve spent years building walls around me

put my heart in armor

kept my head full of cynical disdain

sent my body into hibernation

hid my soul where no one could find it

But now I want the whole smash

flowers when he comes to the door

champagne and candlelight

a bed with rumpled sheets

instead of...

Thursday 18th March 2010 2:34 pm

The Ultimate Sacrifice

Because of you
we can get up every morning
and go to work
run errands at lunch time
drive through McDonald’s
fill up our gas tanks
and make it back to work
just in time

Because of you
we don’t have houses
we have homes
where we walk through the door
the dog jumps on us
as do our children
we hug our spouses
and smell dinner cooking

Because of you
we have art...

Tuesday 16th March 2010 10:57 am

Though The Demons Are Waiting [Lyrics]

You tell yourself
you've put it all in the past
where it can't hurt you anymore
standing outside the window aghast
thinking about how the ones
who should have loved you the most
and kept you warm and dry
sent you out into the cold
where you became a ghost
you watch wistfully at the window
as the snow starts to fall
at the fireplace inside home that glows
and you wish you...

Sunday 14th March 2010 6:24 pm

Beauty

Running as fast as I can
heart pounding
I can feel his wings beating
by the wind swirling around me
my lynx instincts are alive
as I try to escape this hungry bird
but I’m no match for his cunning
speed or strength

My breath rasping and out of energy
I know I’ve lost this race
as his claws slice through my body
I am his to devour
hidden wide eyes peer
through leaves...