The Dead Wife
Assured me everything was ok
That he was a great leader
That scientists were wrong
We could live for the day
So radiant so confident
Said if you wanted to be rich
You just had to pray
I believed in her love
Opposites attract
They say
Never having time to read
Laughing in the face of experts
It was only a cold she said
When ...
Thursday 31st December 2020 11:19 am
I'd like to thank the academy
I’ve given giving
up a lot of thought
and have decided
I’m not that tough
to face the thought
of failure every day
not that hanging in
has been a thrill
there are in fact
a lot of people I could kill
but I’d have to deal
with that reflection
masochism saves me
the sweet pain of failure
the interior narrator
laughing at...
Wednesday 30th December 2020 1:52 am
Life Tricks
I have limited empathy
I feel it first
Then I feel you through me
And I can’t remember a thing
Just a feeling of excitement
In vertiginous moments
How is it that
You remember
everything I’ve said
Every promise
in the heat of passion
Every doubt mouthed in bed
Lacking your crucial component
I want to feel it again
Life tricks us like tha...
Tuesday 29th December 2020 12:46 pm
Your Autobiography
Writing your autobiography
I gloss over the way we met
I’ve edited your childhood
Down to a sentence
And I’ve taken some liberties
With your mid-life crisis
Which you’re about to have
If you’ve got no objections
Tomorrow we go to press
We’ve already sold out
The first run of one
and I’m suddenly
having it withdrawn
Monday 28th December 2020 9:25 pm
Patterns
We see patterns
We feel patterns
We believe in patterns
Everywhere
Survival mechanisms
Part of our evolution
We make inferences
Draw conclusions
And when we’re wrong
And we fall apart
We rearrange them
All over again
Taken in profile
We resemble
A slow orgasm
Stretched over a lifespan
Monday 28th December 2020 2:41 pm
My tiny theatre
I love my problems
I’ve created every one of them
I want you to star in them
I’ll direct from my chair
There’ll be a big drama
With a really tiny budget
I’ve finished the soundtrack
Now on to special effects
Choose your own costumes
I’ll need to approve them
Could you give me a hand
Erecting the set
It might seem hopeless
But I’m rewritin...
Sunday 27th December 2020 4:20 pm
Attention
Now that you’ve got my attention
What do you want with it
You want me to buy something
Then you’ll regret it
As if we could face this longing
And then move away from it
Somehow transcending a hunger
We’ve always taken for granted
Now that you’ve captured my interest
How will you keep it
You know that it accelerates
And you have to feed it
Did I happen to mention
It ha...
Saturday 26th December 2020 3:07 pm
Have you seen me lately?
Been looking for myself
Everywhere
Have you seen me
I found myself with you
But that was a while ago
I really don’t know
What I’ve been
Up to since
Do you remember
What I looked like
How I tasted and felt
If you’ve seen me lately
Give me a call
As I’m lonely
Missing us both
Friday 25th December 2020 12:16 am
That dude's eating all the food
seems to know someone
smiling at the hostess
not moving from the punch
cornering cupcakes
nodding in approval
snorting news relayed
hoovering removal
fish, ham, and cake
stranger at the party’s
swallowing your body
aiming righteous anger
between various legs
everything obsessing him
coughing on your napkin
avoiding certain traps...
Thursday 24th December 2020 8:52 pm
That time everything worked
we had our health
without the wealth
just enough to
wiggle around
there was a plan
we believed in
it even had its own
theme song
and we knew it then
it couldn’t stop anything
we were just silent and cautious
as we crept around our lives
and we see it now
try to recapture it somehow
touching ourselves
clo...
Tuesday 22nd December 2020 1:05 am
Adventure
dream about turning it off
think about getting up
fantasies become elaborate
as the mirror moves away
sweat you know nothing about
dreaming in the supermarket
words in advertisements
start to call your name
adventure adventure
waiting for you
giving up security
is all you have to do
adventure adventure
embracing your fears
...
Sunday 29th November 2020 2:14 pm
Your Cult
joined your cult
liked the food
the guy droned on
in that stupid costume
but the dance segment
I could feel it too
who needs freedom
feeling that good
elation obvious
words symbolic
couldn’t take it serious
that’s why we fell for it
joined your cult
after you left
felt emptiness
some regret
but I got promoted
and many rec...
Saturday 28th November 2020 2:34 pm
Teaching a kid to read
out of the corporate
funded educational base
between unaccounted for minutes
on my paycheck
I sometimes get to do what
I’m supposed to
when not shoveling
meaningless dreck
I’ve been teaching a kid to read
using basic flash cards
twenty minutes at a time
it’s not really that hard
it takes a lot of patience
particularly as a kid
if ...
Friday 20th November 2020 8:27 pm
My sick sense
I wanna have a world together
That we build forever
I wanna agree on what’s true
Baby, I just wanna make sense to you
I know you see things different
it’s what gets to me
Sometimes I feel you love to argue
Just to generate heat
But we need to establish premises
We need to get real
So much hangs in the balance
When we agree to dis...
Sunday 15th November 2020 2:34 pm
You left the meeting
You left the meeting
turned off the laptop took off the tie
burned the notes went outside
into a car drove out of town
passing people I went further on
until colors filled my eyes
forest greens blue seas and skies
forgot my name why I came
then decided I had to stay
you left the meeting
with a taste in your mouth
scent you remember
when you were y...
Saturday 14th November 2020 1:32 pm
Different Countries
Dunno how I ever lived there
Dunno why I ever wore that
Dunno what I was doing with you
But I don’t feel like I regret it
Can’t believe I’d eat that everyday
Can’t remember feelings I had
Don’t recall ever saying that
Can’t remember that photograph
You’d just have to ask my previous self
I haven’t seen him around lately
You’d have to go back
I wouldn’t r...
Wednesday 11th November 2020 2:22 pm
Moi???
I work with crazy people
I’m surrounded by crazy people
I love crazy people
I hang on to myself
I don’t feel more than equal
I don’t think they’re superior
I admire them for letting it out
While I have stomach trouble
I was told I think too much
But I feel like It’s just enough
To hold on to what I’ve got
And navigate this future
Tuesday 10th November 2020 4:28 pm
Moving Situations and Overheard Conversations
Tell me how to feel
I lost it years ago
And I’m concerned
I’m offensive
It’s the nature of generations
To articulate a rage
and then swallow it as they engage
Economically
I’m not feeling anything
In particular
Just kick me
If I do something wrong
Sunday 8th November 2020 8:57 pm
Review of "Pocket Blues"
I'm very superficial and live on stuff like this to get me through the week:
Friday 6th November 2020 2:30 pm
half-fascists
I live in a community
of half-fascists
under a hippie exterior
is hirohito sipping tea
I ponder cutting my mustache
into a hitler
but settle for
a bearded khomeni
by day I work with
the poor and downtrodden
by night I mock them
mercilessly
and my favorite thing
to do with you
miss holier-than-thou
isn’t appropriate to divulge
in a...
Friday 6th November 2020 11:57 am
Browsing History
We keep our better selves
In the back room
Promising them they’ll debut soon
We just gotta take care of
Something pressing that might
Require unorthodox methods
We tell her we love her
We even post her picture
She doesn’t know however
About our
Browsing
Histories
Wednesday 4th November 2020 12:48 pm
Twinkie Defense
I live on false hopes
They help me cope
I don’t have to know
Until it’s too late
By then I’ve measured
The depth of my fall
Thickness of the walls
I congratulate myself
For being so young
And dumb
And holding out
For nothing at all
I wear my heart on my sleeve
Where it can breathe
And the memories walk
Right through me
Without lea...
Sunday 1st November 2020 11:26 am
The Negotiation
even in the cruelest pain
she kept her sense of style
until they put in the catheter
she kept her dresses organized
while he was dying on a battlefield
he was thinking about that night
when his dreams came true
under a different moonlight
hostages with terrorists
come to an understanding about holidays
children with parents
compromise on ho...
Saturday 31st October 2020 12:50 pm
Your Role
You stand for this
It’s what your life is
It’s just your role
You’ll fight for it
With your last breath
Even if you’re wrong
How you need
The world to make sense
How you feel
You’re at the center of it
As planets revolve
And species evolve
You’re a stone
She was probably right
About that fight last night
Now she’s gone
And yo...
Friday 30th October 2020 11:42 am
Hairline Cracks
Just enough space
Not to move
Just enough money
Not to quit
Just enough love
Not to leave
Just enough time
Not to think
About your container
Its color and shape
Smoothness and thickness
Size and weight
Your container
What if it breaks
You start to notice
Hairline cracks
You think about
Everything said
You think about
What y...
Thursday 29th October 2020 11:08 am
Tarof
a nation in your pockets
an ideology to go
go set up anywhere you’ll see
your ideas remain remote
you came at a delicate time
shedding skin twice at night
she couldn’t stand your ideas
you were off; it was real
how you love to smoke
how you love to talk
how your ancestors would recognize
a lot of your tarof
a very elabor...
Thursday 29th October 2020 1:31 am
The middle-aged uneducated white-american male
we could give them
say, South Dakota
pave it over
drop bologna
they could pretend
to live off the land
form tribes
attempt civilization
we could wait until
it freezes over
metal cassettes
recorded over
send in a fleet
of lifestyle counselors
bags of wheat
albums of photos
and run them through
t...
Tuesday 20th October 2020 10:14 pm
Clarification
Just to be clear
Every poem I write
Whether about
An old man on a train
Children dying
In a war zone
Or the most distant star
In the sky
Is about you
Monday 19th October 2020 4:59 pm
I woke up wanting this
I woke up wanting this
it was as clear as day
nothing else mattered
the feeling remains
hunger subsided
worries dropped away
clock needles divided
night turned to day
I think you were there
it was hard to tell
as we moved in concert
with everything else
out of the trance I broke down
I sewed myself up
I just need to get to that...
Sunday 18th October 2020 3:47 pm
The Confidence Trick
You look like you’re moving
Got that feeling that
Everything’s happening
But I know you too well
You don’t know what you’re doing
Confidence is seductive
It seems like you have your bearings
But I hear your insides all night
Sounds like you’re booming
Maybe somebody loved you too much
Maybe you took that ball and you run
But weather’s getting cold
...Friday 16th October 2020 1:49 pm
My Project
My Project
you’re my project
something to protect
infused with a logic
I don’t understand
I give you my best stuff
it becomes transformed
you return me something
I never thought of before
I give you my attention
I don’t get it all back
I get the feeling I suspect
I’m your project as well
Monday 12th October 2020 12:29 am
Terrible
I was terrible
I know this now
because you’ve told me
I don’t know
what I was thinking
but as you’ve won the present
I have to accept
the terms of
surrender
I do, however
reserve the right
to create new memories
Sunday 11th October 2020 6:08 pm
The Female Form
chasing that line
your entire life
entangled surrounded
from all sides
cat with a laser
closer then disappears
while you’ve been
inside the entire time
the distance makes
things delicious
you feel a weakness
from a certain perspective
the female form
rules your mind
you can only forget about it
for seconds at a time
the femal...
Sunday 11th October 2020 4:26 pm
God Responds
I get a lot of prayers from people
who are like,
“Can you give me that one
again; I think I can handle it now”
Or “if I just had a bit more talent
here I could make it”
Or even, “I wanna redo
this decade”
And I don’t know how they
read my silences
but if they just looked around
maybe they’d see how
ridiculous they sound
...
Friday 9th October 2020 3:58 pm
Carbon Dating 2
Please tell me about America
I like hearing the news from you
When it comes with your accent
It seems somehow more unreal
And maybe less painful
I can see the plot points clearer
I notice the elapsed timer
I pay less attention to the actors
And I'll tell you about faraway
Where we can be together
Where imaginations save us
Until things get ...
Saturday 3rd October 2020 2:35 pm
The Burden
The Burden
My parents gave me
Shit-tons of kindness
I got so much of it
I can’t monetize it
I mostly just
Give it away
Sometimes I use it up
With difficult people
Sometimes on a Tuesday
I go through three packs
But there’s so much left
That I’ve been dropping it off
In places over the years
Other people get into it
And I go back
And it’s still there
Thursday 1st October 2020 4:59 pm
What the book wants
What The Book Wants
when you put it down
you’re far from done
thoughts demand action
demanding blood
you could read another
but you’d just move deeper
as you search for signs
of literacy in the world
They stir up the memories
Rearrange the thoughts
I don’t think they resonate
Unless they touch on love
And then it spills out of you...
Thursday 1st October 2020 2:07 am
Sugar Smacks
Under her skin
She dreams of violence
Punching her boss
Drowning her co-workers
The most tragic headlines
Pale in comparison
With her balsamic
Idylls
Where to put all this
As it burrows deeper into
Her waking thoughts
Past her jokey edges
She thinks somehow
Her mind’s preparing her
For the earth’s future
Or the next election
Monday 28th September 2020 2:47 pm
Exactly
what you fail to understand
takes you by the hand
slaps you repeatedly
until the animal in you learns
he started to repeat himself
pulling attention away from the work
raising questions about his private life things never considered
his popularity expanded greatly
he bought a suite of identical suits
working his entire life to get here
now he wanted to torch the room
Monday 28th September 2020 1:17 pm
The Work
Ignoring biology
Laughing at the gravity
You worship obscure ideas
Moving deeper afield
The day comes down like rain
Without stopping to wipe your face
You climb the steps to the space
To start from zero again
Relying on changing thoughts
Firing on pure impulse
The work takes on a form
Then you take it apart
It tells you when you’ve had enough
You’re left feeling spent and undo...
Monday 28th September 2020 11:46 am
Don't Grow Up
Our dreams get angry with us
“How come we’re not part of the plan?”
“None of this political maneuvering
between the chair and the bed.”
Our dreams screaming at us
from everything heard and said
“I can’t believe this-don’t let
your heart get bought by your head.”
And the body moves
calls a timeout
Wining and dining
And sleeping it of...
Sunday 27th September 2020 8:44 pm
The Crazy Teacher
Looks like they’re on crack
Dresses like the circus
Talks five times too fast
Probably escaped from prison
Frequently with coffee
Screaming now singing
Showing videos and cartoons
In hot water with administration
You wouldn’t work with them
But you’re in a union
Sorry- I wasn’t talking about them
I was describing you
Monday 21st September 2020 2:45 pm
Brazil
I lived in Salvador, Bahia for 18 months in the early 00's. It changed my life. A bunch of songs I wrote then have been remixed and are now on streaming sites. You can click the link if you're curious:
Sunday 20th September 2020 9:09 pm
I'm Crysexual
I cry for my students
cry for their parents
cry for the species
I haven’t even heard of yet
I cry for the ignorant
cry for the intelligent
cry for the rich
I cry for the cognizant
I take all these tears
I fill a polluted ocean
and start to swim
towards that distant horizon
Saturday 19th September 2020 9:59 pm
Meeting Her Needs
she stood on the platform
with a chest and two bags
there was an enormous man
next to her about double my size
I came up to meet her
I kissed her and shook his hand
she said, “These are my needs.
I go everywhere with him”
I told her I had a small place
I wasn’t expecting a third
she told me not to worry
he was vegetarian and mute
we heade...
Sunday 13th September 2020 5:44 pm
Coming Soon
under the civil surface
there’s a beast in a cage
filled with rage
chained to a million formalities
despite decades of
domestication
centuries of education
it hungers for a new reckoning
some well-intentioned fool
bends the rules
and is lucky to get away
in just one piece
other reformers
have become pot-boilers
lacking only a pi...
Saturday 12th September 2020 2:02 pm
What does freedom mean to you?
walk into the room silently
don’t talk
take your assigned seat
and pull out your notebook
copy what’s on the board
I’m putting the timer on
for three minutes
answer the quick write
“What does freedom mean to you?”
in your own words
I’m coming around with my stamper
to check your homework
be ready to share
if anyone talks
you’ll be sta...
Friday 11th September 2020 12:47 pm
Who killed whom?
she knew
it wasn’t a suicide
he dared match his wits
with hers
she burned
him alive
she turned herself
in involuntarily
she knew
she wouldn't carry him
not with his
heavy sides
Saturday 5th September 2020 4:36 pm
What the book wants
when you put it down
you’re far from done
thoughts demand action
demanding blood
you could read another
but you’d just move deeper
as you search for signs
of literacy in the world
Thursday 3rd September 2020 12:41 pm
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