The research is mixed
We hold them until the joy
Runs out of their faces
And they give up
Any notion of escape
Once broken
They walk around timidly
Mouthing what we drill into them
Without too much stuttering
A few are more difficult
To break we defer to
The more experienced amongst us
To show us the advanced techniques
Of course we are constantly
Monitored so any sign of sympathy
From us...
Thursday 27th December 2018 4:18 pm
Nudes
Nudes
you insisted
we’d visit your nudes
time ran out
we got back to work
they were something
you carried with you
snapshot thumbnails
looked very good
I tried to impress you
with sculpture
you squealed something
like approval
If we ever get back
to that room
where the atmosphere
felt like freedom
lines curve throu...
Wednesday 26th December 2018 10:00 pm
Comfortable
Comfortable
we live at the bottom
of a shaky structure
it’s stable here
winds are softer
sun shines
over the clouds
stress dissolves
under water
if everyone's a winner
then we're losers
take off your pretensions
get comfortable
it only hurts
a little at first
then you find that
brilliant freedom
we live outside...
Tuesday 25th December 2018 1:27 am
Your Blue Period
one day everyone will say
this was your best work
the images, fire
all devices worked
desperation
crept under our skin
from your mouth we heard
what we could not have dreamt
you were distraught;
violent with friends
now It all seems charming
we’ve seen other things
We think of you framed by time
the current self is a story
we don't really understand;
you're still writing
Tuesday 18th December 2018 1:27 am
Academia
Academia
Looking for higher ground
None to be found
Just that rotting corpse
In the library
How you wanted fame
You'd settle for a name
Extended by letters
And small salary
Researching drinking habits
Of that syphilis-infested idiot
You mark quality time
With his descendants
Citing your lover's work
She won't touch you with a fork
...Monday 17th December 2018 1:56 am
What if tomorrow comes?
they’ll feel overdressed
for sure
inserting privileges
where there aren’t any more
a mess
some will continue
like they’ve always done
in less interesting times
there’ll be those prone to act
cosplay apocalypse
retinues of disappointed men
shooting themselves up
as in your favorite horror movie
one will survive
with a mixture
of ...
Tuesday 11th December 2018 1:15 am
Tonight
tonight
been mostly faking it
the few times I’ve been real
I think you know
I’m shocked
by my own ignorance
as much as by
the happiness of others
I hear the circulation in my ears
look at the stars and wonder
if I’ll have time to read
all the books I’ve bought
Sunday 9th December 2018 5:58 pm
This Winter
this winter
in his life
you search for meaning
in his life
something is written
you couldn’t read
when he was breathing
in his absence
you take the silence
wrapping it around you
like a childhood scarf
Sunday 9th December 2018 12:38 am
The war on people
The war on people
a big part of us
needs to know
when the shit comes down
a tiny part of us
had it so good
it'd kill out of boredom
an invisible part
feels like
It's not attached to the body
and would willingly
replace salvation
with stark appraisals
just to
feel
something new
Saturday 8th December 2018 8:09 pm
Dual Diagnoses
Dual Diagnoses
funding criteria stipulates
two co-occurring conditions
efforts made to match
couples based on algorithms
proven to yield results ranging from
“satisfied” to “vaguely disappointed”
as an agency our mandate
stipulates that we provide
a “minimum baseline of well-being”
interpreted as meaning providing:
a childhood wi...
Thursday 6th December 2018 9:21 pm
I become more difficult
I become more difficult
Is it the end of the world
Or am I having a bad day
There comes a point
When things merge
And I just let things
Trail off
With my beliefs
That much more tightly held
Occasionally
Someone will come along
And validate
Most of what I’ve said
But in general
I become more difficult
It’s something
I’ve grown to accept
Wednesday 5th December 2018 8:03 pm
XXX
XXX
The exes come one by one
Bearing memories wrapped in the present
After a few drinks they insist on
Chronologies you can’t remember
Their eyes start to twitch as you
Attempt to stoke dying embers
To the night they proclaim
Their judgements you were
An asshole and
They’ll never forgive it
And then you make out
With razor blades between your teeth
Sunday 25th November 2018 3:07 pm
The Distant Sofa
The distant sofa
Since you’ve left
Everything’s wet
I hold my breath
As the door swings open
I swim to the fridge
Pulling the spaghetti off my chest
I pretend to have an appetite
Downing my portion
Making it
To the distant sofa
Hyperventilating
Cousteau drama
I tell myself I’ll be rescued soon
Then drown in the bedroom
Rescued by an alarm
And a government job
...
Wednesday 21st November 2018 11:46 am
Prayers
Prayers
Goddess of Monday hiding my keys
rearranging all my memories
got me counting reasons I work
searching for quarters in a drawer
tease me with sex
tease me with vacations
I still can’t stand
your fluorescence
I’ll be forever under your spell
I’ll never retire with this pension plan
you’ve got me running you’ve got me
panting for the bx12
Monday 19th November 2018 11:49 am
better
better
everything you
use
eat throw away
neglect
treat
decide
encounter
try
bother
are you better for it
does it make you
last longer
help more people
make someone feel
safer
happier
beautiful
shouldn’t that
be the measure
shouldn’t that
be what we’re all after
I look at how much
I t...
Friday 16th November 2018 12:43 am
The Remission
The Remission
At the financial district mixer
Where the white women
In line discuss how they
Never have sex on the
Second date despite
The cost of the meal
I’d be remiss if I didn’t
Spend my evening talking
To the Dominican hustler
About end of the world
Scenarios in Costa Rica
Wednesday 14th November 2018 11:45 am
When do you think you are?
When do you think you are?
on the bed eyes on ceiling
accountant in head flips a coin for morning
heartbeat synchs to a bus schedule
desires like cream in the styrofoam
recite the mantra check the window
porn on the phone overdraft notices
she suggests another vacation
a sickday dream of emigration
lunch feels a way
to dreams clouding...
Sunday 11th November 2018 3:27 pm
Loaded
impulse control
do you read me
impulse control
we’re going down
surrounded by sirens
the entire mission's lost
schooled against temptation
fighting an invisible enemy
bigger than our desires
we bow down at her feet
she’s the night
we submit our tiny lives
for that feeling
of certainty
we haven’t been able to fin...
Friday 9th November 2018 11:06 pm
The Kinks
the middle school history teacher
feels like she’s losing her mind
covering the state test in roomsfull
of kids who can’t see why
we have to speak english
the president’s insane
what’s the point of all these
meaningless names and dates
the middle school history teacher’s
got two of her own two hours away
in the middle class suburb inherited
from the ...
Thursday 1st November 2018 1:29 am
Slow motion collision
slow-motion collision
glimpse of you in the distance
signs warning of traffic conditions
swerving to avoid pedestrians
glasses hooked on the tail fin
bodies with velocity taken
pulling at it seams like we’re children
without a seat inspection
we’re meat for vultures circling
arms reach out to trace
for something to embrace
mouths start to shake
...
Wednesday 31st October 2018 11:09 am
short-range missive
short-range missive
As the environmental
economic political
continue to deteriorate
I mysteriously find
what I need
to maintain my emotional
stability available to me
direct with free
two-day shipping
Saturday 20th October 2018 1:38 am
What it isn’t
I don’t know what sex is
I watch the dogs jump
Their pupils tiny points
Students carve
Fertility signs on desks
Pensioners regret
Things that went unsaid
Athletes stretch
Before a competition
But I don’t know what sex is
My mind goes blank
Before running adolescent fixations
Like a GIF loop
With strange proportions
You call my name
Like ...
Thursday 18th October 2018 1:46 pm
On the label
We're not here to talk
About love
Only extinction
How poetry
Makes sense of
Banalities
And seals
Our frustrations
In stasis
Validating our
Domestic arrangements
Humming along
To this beautiful
Ecocide we fit in
We’re not here
For our comfort
Thursday 18th October 2018 12:29 am
At The Poetry Factory
they're a bunch of lazy assholes
quality control is low
they sleep on the day shift
waiting for inspiration to hit
a man pulls on a wire
and a pen descends on a line
the minimum is a page a day
now they're striking for lower wages
they say the poverty
helps the soul
keeps their patrons
on a roll
one guy worked a triple shift
th...
Wednesday 17th October 2018 12:28 am
The Leaving Man
seducing you with arrogance
walking backwards into plans
swallowing you with a laugh
here comes the leaving man
has that something else
you just don’t understand
representing everything you hate
that’s what draws you in
curiosity mixed with disgust
cracks the recipe when it’s heated up
fatalism with a dark hand
blood and muscle un...
Tuesday 16th October 2018 12:02 am
Placeholder
Placeholder
remembering when things were great
thanking heavens pinching yourself
subsequent times haven't added up
at least you've got a reference for what you lost
placeholder on the table
dog ear in the novel
post-it on the refrigerator
late night moan of lost love
much as you feel you can go back
each time you escape into a different ...
Monday 15th October 2018 3:56 am
emergency romance
as we’re burning things down to a crisp
I gotta tell you you look fantastic
vacuuming up the last chip
wondering what you’re doing this weekend
we could go watch the fireworks
spread all over the entire world
arrive late to this horror show
that started many millennia ago
go ride the last elephant
watch the tides rise until
dive th...
Sunday 7th October 2018 1:02 pm
memories are new
I look for my father in the eyes of men
sometimes I see him everywhere
sometimes he’s hidden
behind decisions
I don’t fully understand
even as an adult
I feel myself move like my father
touching my belly and smiling
at people for no reason
just passing on the memetic energy
my mother’s absence remains however
a tear in the fa...
Friday 5th October 2018 12:56 am
Intimacy
We climbed together
Higher and higher
Until the air was too thin
For heavy things
Like clothes
Attitudes and moods
And when we reached
The top we were
Surprised to find
Nothing
Not a drop of
Moisture
Both of us swallowed
By a gigantic
Whole
Wednesday 3rd October 2018 1:48 pm
Dark Matters
Dark Matters
You just want to
make love to Trump and May
to take them
into your arms
And persuade them
there’s something better
It’s been a long struggle
fruitless mostly
the darker part of you considers
if things wouldn’t truly be better
if you stared into
the apocalypse
And met it with the presence
of a tiny death
Tuesday 2nd October 2018 2:53 pm
closeted struggle
closeted struggle
in the war against stuff
we’ve lost a lot of ground
(the poetry anthology
doesn’t count)
three boxes came yesterday
with nowhere to go
that was six square feet
excluding the cardboard
your retail therapy
has been put on hold
after six consecutive trips
to the large parcel window
the post office all...
Sunday 30th September 2018 9:01 pm
false beginners
heart don’t learn
it can’t grow back
one dumb animal
threatening attack
it’s slash and burn
obvious traps
baiting mouths
tying hands
living without learning
earning while burning
telling ourselves
they’re losers and winners
crying for mothers
we’re false beginners
play things over
slow things down
can’t get over the shock
the shock o...
Sunday 30th September 2018 2:06 am
horror films
been given the wrong script
flipped to the wrong page
I’d never say those things
situations don’t play that way
course I’m a professional
do the work I get paid
some people consider it art
more than some I’d say
but I don’t play monsters
must be a mistake
have a heroic profile
I’m known in the biz
I don’t play monsters
are you sure this is right
I’d like to thin...
Saturday 29th September 2018 1:46 pm
The next thing
This next thing
I keep squeezing the app
Waiting for the world to change
Like worry beads or rosaries
I put the pressure right there
I run my thumb
Over the writers’ names
Maybe a comma will budge
And that will be the start of things
I tell myself
I have some agency left
I make the white man flash
when I cross the street
I console myself
I can’t be so lonely
Imagi...
Thursday 27th September 2018 11:49 am
Next Weekend
it’s not ponies and unicorns in that moment
she enters his dual screens
it’s the smell of months of meals in front of the tv
thirty years ago on a school trip to Italy
nicknames thrown from dead uncles
the sound of the go-betweens
all cut under the blade of her life
she could ponder the silence
at least until she sees him again
Wednesday 26th September 2018 12:19 pm
crossing the renovated district
I hate them
as much as I
resemble them
when I face them
I make inferences
about shining packages
micro-aggressions
suggesting mid-life
disappointments
expectations
selective
compassions
we take it out
on ourselves
in inner conversations
until hostilities
bend into furtive
acts of public charity
Tuesday 25th September 2018 1:51 am
blog review of "Transportation"
https://dancingaboutarchitecture.info/2018/09/23/transportation-bob-gaulke-reviewed-by-dave-franklin/
Sunday 23rd September 2018 3:38 pm
go hire a team of liars
go hire a team of liars
what we have to tell ourselves
and tell others and then repeat
for years
just to get up to make a living
that’s a funny phrase
when you think about
how much of everything
we do isn’t much helping
anything grow naturally
lying is hard work
and leads to other
health issues
conditions masked
and unmasked
...Saturday 22nd September 2018 11:05 pm
The happiness of others
in the rush of senses
heat of moments
in young ambitions
on wheels of commerce
fleets of feeling
ping our sonar
pushing emotions
beyond borders
into the happiness of others
what we discover
in looks of couples
in historical novels
in the happiness of others
pressing our desires
into shapes
we struggle to handle
other people
invade our dreaming
with hands and mout...
Wednesday 19th September 2018 7:11 pm
O, Lve
love lies in pieces
half of it at home
big part with you
rest, out the door
landing on billboard posters
taken with exhaust
of a fleet distribution network
interstate trailer trucks
particles on people I work with
particles with strangers in pain
molecules on pornography
quarks within the city state
what's the use of gathering it
pu...
Monday 17th September 2018 11:48 pm
Habits Change
he never had nervous ticks;
he wasn’t Zizek
lately he’d been getting
into the habit of choking himself
it wasn’t a fetish; that he’d checked
rather it came after
a series of bodily warnings
that he was coming out of himself
he started pruning hairs
in strange places
he started to sweat
on the top of his head
he had to shave now
almost...
Monday 17th September 2018 2:18 am
face of god
live your life
in a deep state of uncertainty
nightly
slaughtered by a thousand
doubts lined up
in artillery squadrons
on the furrows
of the brow
hormones
echo through the morning
ricocheting
through plumbing
search for survivors
won’t be called off for another eight hours
still time left
to get in and ou...
Sunday 16th September 2018 4:52 pm
mouthfeel
what we crave
everything we make
what's baking us hungry
minds can't stop eating
replayed again and again
meals in miniature form
no need to explain
know the taste when you taste it
somebody loved you too much
they couldn't get enough
an empty stomach
full of disappointments
three directions at once
always out to lunch
trinity screa...
Saturday 15th September 2018 4:48 pm
Survival, Carolina
understand
the nature of things
when everything is
flailing around your head
survival
might depend
on a flashlight
loaf of bread
arrogance of man
splayed for all to see
saints sinners flung toys
on a sandless beach
tragedy feels
satisfying somehow
when we lose everything
but raw bleeding love
Saturday 15th September 2018 1:31 am
cheap watches
cheap watches
we met on this poetry blog
her work needed work
mine didn’t stop her
from telling me what to throw out
cutting adverbs
until we were throwing
knapsacks
against lamps
pants against
the glass
moments laid out
in cheap watches
red lines against black
sensing satisfaction
furtive at best
when ...
Thursday 13th September 2018 9:24 pm
Professionals
you play the game desperately
desperately is how you play it
with the luck of a beginner
and the fatalism of an expert
at any moment you could surprise us
with a brilliant move
at any moment you could quit
with an expression that stops us cold
we tell stories about you
we're telling them about ourselves
ripping a hole through our myths
you'...
Thursday 13th September 2018 12:47 am
Hiding Out
I wanna crawl into you
the world is too cruel
Into a ball into your fur
make that tick-tock stop for good
you’ve got a calm
I could never achieve
I’ve got anxieties
you’d never believe
they wait for me
outside your door
I could give you all
my energy
you could take it
turn it into heat
burning through this life
...Tuesday 11th September 2018 11:07 pm
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