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Wise Counsel?
You lock me in a room with no weapons
To fight the waiting lion.
I'd built a hasty tower of chairs
To reach the window,
You could have pulled me out
But you pushed me back
Saying,
"Find a ladder to reach this window."
And you wondered why I was clinging.
Then you pulled the chairs out
and s...
Tuesday 1st June 2021 10:06 am
Jumping The Gun
Just because I've learnt to swim underwater,
Doesn't mean I can live without breathing.
Just because I can walk on the surface,
Doesn't mean I can't slip and start sinking.
If I don't look in the mirror,
Doesn't mean my face has changed.
If I start at the beginning,
Still I have to reach the end.
Just because there is a meaning
Doesn't mean I understand (or know it).
Just because the...
Sunday 30th May 2021 2:37 pm
The Other Side
I was better off feeling dead
Than feeling alive.
I was better off feeling low
Than on this false height.
I was better afraid of the dark
Than afraid to open my eyes.
I was better afraid of cutting myself
Than scared to survive.
Friday 28th May 2021 9:05 am
Dreamscape - II (The Vase)
There was this precious vase that was my life.
It was a thing of beauty on a sacred shelf.
It had a purity and sense of truth.
It was a vessel of my love.
But now, I gaze at fragments strewn across my hearth.
How strange, since I can feel there's something else.
Yet, when I look down, I recognise that someone smashed it.
It must have slipped when I was cleaning.
I am sitting in the ...
Thursday 27th May 2021 4:49 am
Dreamscape - I (The Cloak)
It is a cloak that I sit on, covering the ground.
A cloak that no-one else can step on,
And it seems to span for miles like that.
Except that from the way I see it;
It ends a bare few inches away,
And it is sown rags,
And the torn edges are the end of my reality.
When I get lonely,
I cannot even pull it up to warm me
Because I am sitting in the middle.
Elsewhere, the ground seems real ...
Wednesday 26th May 2021 8:15 am
IMHO
We don't think you ought to do that.
"Tell me what to do!"
We don't think you should feel like that.
"Tell me what to feel!"
You should know that there's always a way forward.
"Show me where to go!"
You should be stronger than that.
"Show me how."
We've decided you can cope if you try.
"You don't know what it's l...
Tuesday 25th May 2021 4:27 am
Catatonia
Sometimes, there are more thoughts
Than words to speak them.
Sometimes there is more will to live,
Than to go on breathing.
These arms are almost too heavy to type.
Too heavy to move.
I don't know how to break out,
And I don't see _why_ I should break out.
It is cloudy, but I can just see people looking in;
And I can see those that gave up looking in.
And those that don't know how to...
Monday 24th May 2021 5:16 am
Combination
I am a sleepless night.
I am a taut balloon.
I am a punctured tyre.
I am a violin.
I am a broken cup.
I am an endless maze.
I am a lonely child.
And I am giving up.
There's a way to live.
There's a way to laugh.
There's a way to breathe.
There's a way to last.
There's a way to die.
There's a way to win.
There's a way to try.
There must be a way to give in.
Sunday 23rd May 2021 1:40 am
Allusion
If I am a monument;
I am out in all weathers.
They made me marble
So I would be cold in the sun,
Warm in the rain.
They made me on a pedestal
Because in their wisdom,
They knew it would be further to fall.
I am somewhere that no-one passes,
Because I am forgotten.
I am alone amongst pidgeons,
...
Saturday 22nd May 2021 9:41 am
The Modern Myth
No-one's happy with their life.
Someone, somewhere, was telling you stories.
No-one's happy.
If you are lucky, you'll do alright.
If you are lucky.
There's a way to be.
There's a way to cope.
Where's the God that's supposed to help us?
Where's the love that's meant to guide us?
Where's the hope?
No-one's meant to have it easy.
Someone, somewhere, must have been crazy!
Nothing's eas...
Friday 21st May 2021 2:52 am
Aftermath
And all the world is wondering what started it.
In the playground, they want to know whose fault it was.
Life goes on, and life goes on,
And don't you know it's fated?
And all the world wants to know who ended it.
In the theatre, they wonder what it 'felt' like.
Time goes on, and time goes on,
Don't you know that it's decided?
Life is hoping that you make it.
The time you spend, teari...
Thursday 20th May 2021 12:40 am
Merry-Go-Round
Everything goes round the same, my friend;
Turn any which way, but when you think you have passed it,
It's on the horizon again.
I can't tell you what you want to hear.
Or shall I pretend that it's all
As you'd like it to be.
You take a deep breath, thinking everything's clear,
But it only take...
Wednesday 19th May 2021 8:54 am
List For Santa-Claus
I just need someone to massage my mind.
Oh, but these neurons are aching.
I just need someone to drag me up out of this life
Where I am dying.
I just need a hand while I find my feet,
But one that won't hurt me.
I just need a body to hold in the night,
But one that won't scare me.
I just need someone to cradle my thoughts,
Keep Baby from crying.
I just need someone to show me that th...
Tuesday 18th May 2021 5:15 am
Prophecy
And time goes on, my friend,
Your wounds that never heal,
Will grow an ugly face,
Your troubles never end.
And life goes on and on...
Your dreams that never came,
Will haunt you as you wake,
Your broken heart won't mend.
And I say
howl at the wind.
run with the river.
drift with the clouds.
burn with the fever.
...
Monday 17th May 2021 6:37 am
So Really And Truly Crazy
My mind is screaming for this pain to stop.
You say I am cold, but I am burning up
Inside.
There is so much noise I'm surprised you can't hear.
It is creeping through my skin.
Dripping, with the sweat, from my hair.
How can I think of anything else?
The mind reels to this deafening pulse.
And I am near to breaking.
Thinking of taking the quickest way out,
And then you say I should stop...
Saturday 15th May 2021 10:13 am
The Grind
Life is wearing me down, yeah
But you know that.
Life is fooling me around.
But what of that, yeah, what of that?
Didn't anyone say I was special.
No-one said life was gonna be fun.
Guess sometimes you just make assumptions.
Guess sometimes you just get it wrong.
Life is passing me by, now
But you know that.
Life is wondering why.
But what of that, now,...
Friday 14th May 2021 3:47 am
Chicken Licken
Everything is going wrong.
Or everything went so wrong
I can't tell
If it stopped and I didn't notice,
And I can't tell
The problem.
Everything is just nothing now.
Or everything was so much nothing,
I can't see
That there's any difference now,
And I can't see
Solutions.
Everything is tumbling down,
Or everything is built...
Tuesday 11th May 2021 3:31 am
Deadlock
If you are going to kill yourself
Someone is going to find you.
Do you want that?
You are trying to die, I might wish you success,
But for what?
So you don't like it how it is,
Do you think anyone does?
But it is better to change, than destroy...
Oh my god, I can't carry on like this.
Not each day the same same thing!
You want me to wait,
...
Monday 10th May 2021 8:20 am
Taken From Me
I'm the one that's trying to tell you:-
This is all there ever will be.
Nothing you can say
Can change a thing,
I know everything about me.
Don't waste your time and
Don't waste your breath.
You think you want to help, but I
Know that's an empty threat.
I am the one, trying to show you:-
I live everything extreme.
Now you think I am being
Too hard on you, but
Cut me and I bleed.
Sunday 9th May 2021 7:23 am
Desperate Prayer
These bloodless wounds will never heal.
Pray,
"Father Time, save me."
I grow so weak as the not-blood spills.
Pray,
"Mother Nature, cure me."
Brother wind,
Sister rain,
Rock me. Wash me. Make me clean again.
Saturday 8th May 2021 10:23 am
Screams Of A Spoilt Child
There is no time for the pillow to dry,
There is no hope, that's why I cry.
There is no future for all I see.
There are no perks,
To being me.
I would talk to myself if I had anything to say
I would comfort myself, did I think there was a way
To stay sane.
But what to believe?
All I can hear are the scr...
Friday 7th May 2021 7:56 am
Real Lows And Artificial Highs
There reaches that point
When you reach for the pills.
The things that you won't
The world thinks that you will.
The waiting for freedom
Is not soon enough.
The paying for wisdom
Is costing too much.
And there's nothing left.
Thursday 6th May 2021 3:58 am
The Hardest Tears
It is time to introduce a new sub-theme in Love's Tempest - depression. Undoubtedly the upcoming depression poems are intricately related to most of the prior themes in Love's Tempest, but there's space to ponder that perhaps through self-love alone, depression is always related to Love's Tempest. I don't know if that is true as I haven't experienced every type or every cause of depression that th...
Tuesday 4th May 2021 9:10 am
Careless Breeze
I stood beneath a whispering tree
Upon a windy day
Singing into the careless breeze
My cares they blew away.
Then finally I clearly heard
What nature did avow
And I could see the sun at last
Beyond the leafy boughs.
Yes, finally I clearly hear
What nature does avow
And I can see the sun at last
Beyond the leafy boughs.
Wednesday 13th January 2021 11:33 am
I Am A Phoenix (Welcome The Phoenix)
I've been burned
And risen again
Proud of my new coat
Of feathers
I've been burned again
And risen
Proud of my new coat of feathers
And unafraid of fire.
Wednesday 6th January 2021 1:50 am
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