Blog Entries by Twilbury Wist (2015)

This bad kid

good kid thing

I don't get

The bad kids want

to be good

The good kids want

to be bad

What the bad kids want

the good kids got

Except they don't understand

except maybe for

the want

What the good kids want

the bad kids got

Except they don't understand

Except maybe for

the need

And what you folks

don't get

however much

...

Thursday 27th August 2015 12:43 am

What those who know don't hear

Once upon a time

I sat on a mountain

Forgot to look

At the sky

Forgot to watch

My feet

Didn't see

The Lightning

Flash

Across the

Thought patterns

Which could have been

My mind

Didn't notice

Ideas take shape

As the rain

Made the grass

Grow

And the sounds

Which deafened

My ears

Went unheard

Because of

The noise

Inside

...

Sunday 5th July 2015 8:35 pm

~~Sometimes
The rainbows
Get cloudy
I got holes
In my soul
And my sins
Are dripping
All over
The floor
They say
The skeletons
Will rattle
Until
They drive you
Mad
They ain't seen
Nothing
Yet
At the bottom
Of this ocean
There are the bones
Of a killerless
Whale
Who ate a man
In the bible
But couldn't digest
And if you
Count its rings
You can tell
Its age
Or shoe size
...

Wednesday 17th June 2015 10:48 am

Happiness

~~Happiness
Is a funny thing
Indeed
If I may borrow
Your ear
For this moment
Answer me
This
If someone was
Happy
Would they need
To tell you
This was so
Would they need
To trumpet
Their emotions
Across
The webbed rainbow
Telling everyone
How happy
They were
Or would
Everyone know
They were happy
Thus making
The message
Futile
I might even
Go as far as
To say
That if y...

Friday 12th June 2015 10:06 am

Once

~~Once
I tried to teach
You something
Beautiful
But you were too
Intent
On your own
Rage
Too wrapped up
In your own
Anger
And problems
To listen
A queue
Of ideas and issues
Lined up
Inside your own head
Blocked your ears
And trumpeted
Their own
Noises
To drown out
All rational
Thought
At the end
Of it all
We were both
Left
Silently fuming
Facing the wall
And the lesso...

Thursday 11th June 2015 8:48 am

Tell it to the wind

Sometimes
You have to
Think things
And tell them
To the wind
Or dig a
Hole
Deep and wide
And shout
Into the earth
In the hope
That it might
Swallow up
Whatever it is
You need
To scream about
Before someone
Hears
And tries to
Turn
It back on
You
See
In reality
Every day
Is the same
The sun rises
The sun sets
And however much
It may feel
That this
Doesn't happen
Or it...

Wednesday 10th June 2015 10:54 am

The Party

You see my
Life
Full of
Rack and ruin
Full of
Quick jokes
And heart felt
Insults
Easy easy
Nothing to
Measure
Time off
The ball
Do you
See me
At my best
At my worst
When I'm
Easiest
When the niceness
Falls
Behind shades
Of
Whips
And quips
And people
Who don't care
So much
But care
The most of all
This is
The Big Dipper
This is
The ride of
Your life
This is when
...

Wednesday 13th May 2015 10:45 am

This Life

In your life
many people
may not think
much of you
Many people
may try
to impose
their way
and their values
instead of yours
Even your father
and your mother
will have different ideas
about the way
your seed should grow

If you hide
and shelter
within the shadows
of other people's ideas
if you are afraid to
walk out
on your own two feet
you must wilt
when the sun rises
an...

Friday 8th May 2015 9:15 am

Sandstorm

Time
Is a funny
Old thing
Dripping in
Sand
And paint
Covering
All those
Involved
In pasty flakes
Of the forgotten
The badly
Remembered
The curses
The bruises
The hidden
Sunshine
And grating
Of a life
Half lived
Half remembered
Shaking its
Salt pot
In light fisted
Anguish
This dust
In which
We live
In which we
Inhabit
Is soon
Lost
Amongst the
Cobwebs
And ashes
Of ...

Wednesday 18th March 2015 3:18 pm

The Machine gun of Despair

Lingering
He’s forgotten
Who he is
Troubles gathered
In shadows
He can’t see
The path
Struggling with
Any way at all
Wearing last week’s clothes
Creased and soiled
With all the problems
He’s been hiding from
And it’s getting worse
Ganging up on him
He’s battling the anger
And the rage
And he’s losing
His troubles
Wrapped in rags
Sit on cardboard
Taunting him
He’s lost
...

Thursday 12th March 2015 8:26 am

His brain

Ticks over

A waterfall

Of emotions

In a crumpled suit

Knowing this

And that

And the other

Without having

Any idea

Which way

Is up

He pulls

The plug

Empties the sink

Drains the dregs

And the loose leaves

Of his table

This is

No way to be

He thinks

As he

Performs

The ever tumbling

Somersaults

That his li...

Tuesday 10th March 2015 11:46 pm

Hamelin

The buildings
The sky
The people
Were grey
Reflecting
From the grey puddles
Of grey water
An orange glow
Gave
A glimmer of hope
The answer to everyone's
Dreams
The cause
Of all
Their nightmares
Offering
In equal measures
Salvation
And misery
A hypnotic
And hypocritical
Calling
That none could resist
Judge and jury
Hangman and kingmaker
It purred
With
Vindictive
Delight
...

Tuesday 10th March 2015 1:35 pm

Small World

And the cold

comes again

And sometimes

it is forever

winter

And sun

or no sun

you can't warm

your bones

and you can't change

your past

your present

or even

your future

Sometimes

you can't change

your life

You live it

You lived it

And sometimes

though you've managed

before

you don't survive

the avalanche

dressed ...

Tuesday 3rd March 2015 10:59 pm

Pointless

Sometimes

There are

No words

We get swallowed up

Gobbled down

Pretend everything

Is ok

And that

It's not us

Who have buried

Our heads

But that

The world

Has somehow

Miraculously

Improved itself

And then

A man is killed

No one in particular

Just any man

An ordinary man

Or woman

It matters not

To the dead

And a yo...

Monday 2nd March 2015 11:50 pm

Don't lose your head

I was thinking about
being bad
I was thinking about
not fitting
I was thinking about
who I am
But none of this
Is about anger
Although maybe
I do have a rage
with the world
And if I'm
none of these things
Am I nothing

I think maybe
I see it as a game
As not real
But I don't really see it
As winning or losing
And I don't really like
People very much
Or this life
It doesn't m...

Monday 23rd February 2015 1:36 pm

The laughing man

In the corner

You know

He who you

Pretend

Was hiding

In the shadows

Do you

Hear him

Can you feel

His rattle

Through your

bones

Do you see him

When the lights

Are out

And the dreams

Are done

His ivory

Washed out

Hair

His tomb stone

Teeth

Marking

Everything

You should not

Have done

Don't think

...

Saturday 21st February 2015 11:09 pm

How many

Of you

Looked out

Of the window

Tonight

How many

Heard the traffic

Saw the thin

Sliver of a moon

Reflected twice

In the window

How many

Saw the houses

Full of life

And death

How many

Saw the failing

Light

And the lone star

Sitting

Watching

And the wisps

Of cloud

And the one

Grey cloud

Hanging

In the dist...

Saturday 21st February 2015 6:31 pm

camp fire

I sat

With the elders

With their

Fire

Of then

We chewed

The fat

And the day

Told stories

Of how it was

And things

To come

They shared their

World

And I

Took

Time

To listen

But their time

Passed

And still

I am here

And we don't

Sit

Around a fire

Anymore

Or even

A table

And the world

They shared

Was...

Tuesday 17th February 2015 10:38 pm

spinning wheel

I follow

Only my

Shadow

As she walks

Through

The murky

Depths

Flowing within

And without me

Inside and out

Of this world

We both

Half inherit

Half inhabit

And I suppose

At times

She is

My guide

And I hers

As much

As anyone

Can guide anything

Through these

Cold and endless

Corridors

And the sun

And the l...

Tuesday 17th February 2015 12:03 am

The returned

They twisted her

From iron

And how she thrashed

For she was

Not from this world

And was more

Reluctant

To return

Than they gave

Her credit for

They scarred

And burned her

A warning

To the spirit world

A warning

To all

Who might try

To come back

And she screamed

Her silence

And her anger

But it was they

Who would not

...

Monday 16th February 2015 11:25 pm

The magic frog

He didn't quite
Know how
It happened
He was doing
Whatever it is
That gnomes do
Fishing
Or singing
Or drinking
Or laughing
And there was
A flash
Or a splash
Or a croak
And that was it
The world changed
Or at least
His world changed
And his face
Was squashed
As if pressed
Against glass
And he couldn't move
His arms or legs
And there he was
Preserved forever
Inside a log
A...

Tuesday 10th February 2015 8:42 am

Roll up roll up

There's always a queue
At the gates of
Hell
You'd think folk
Wouldn't be
In such a
Rush
To get burnt
But there they are
Pushing and shoving
As they do
Worried by what
They might be
Missing
Not realising
They're lining up
For the furnace
And the flames
These fools
Their blood
Boils hot
And the ice
Inside their heads
Stops them
Thinking straight
Or even
Sideways
And they'l...

Monday 9th February 2015 2:52 pm

magicat

Sometimes

I watch

The cat

Turn into

A bag

It's the strangest

Thing

And I don't know

How she does

It

No smoke or mirrors

No slight of hand

One minute

A cat

The next a bag

Sometimes

I watch

The bag

And no matter

How hard it

Tries

It cannot turn

Itself

Into a cat

Or anything else

For that matter

Once

...

Thursday 5th February 2015 11:49 pm

night crawlers

Black out

Night shutter

They come

They always come

Shaking and rattling

The creatures

Of your soul

Eating your mind

Growing

On your thoughts

This darkness

It's not spent

Yet

And those

Who wait

For the dawn

Shivering

In the shadows

Are the ghosts

Of the dusk

This life

Thrives

On candles

Flickering

Gently

Slowly

Eat...

Tuesday 3rd February 2015 11:37 pm

Raheem

There's a duck
In the shadows
But he's breaking out
Slowly
His boots are heavy
His legs are tired
His wings are
Damaged
Though his mind
Is intent
And he stares
Silently
At the world
Around
His wooden beak
Snaps
Occasionally
For he is lost
In thought
Or maybe
He has lost
His thoughts
He has travelled
Great distances
Though has no
Idea
Where he came from
Or if he is
Going...

Friday 30th January 2015 9:47 am

Hide and seek

Sometimes

You've played your

Hand

Used your best

Cards

And all

Your

Silly little tricks

You've howled

To the sky

Sold your soul

More than

Once

And you stand

Again

Before the forest

Searching for

Rainbows

Amongst

The shadows

The wolves

Have eaten

All your

Breadcrumbs

And you lost

Your way home

A long time ago

...

Monday 26th January 2015 11:23 pm

The world turned

Black and grey

When they forgot

About the magic

So there's no

Colour

Anymore

Some claim

To see it

In their dreams

In the shadows

But it's just

Wishful

Thinking

Pennies

Cast into

That never ending

Well

There's a troll

Sitting

Under the ocean

Catching everyone's

Wishes

And getting fat

On mis-sold

Dre...

Monday 26th January 2015 9:41 am

Tree fellers

They cut down

The trees

They do

And don't

See the wood

It's simple

I think

For me

Don't cut down

What doesn't

Need

To die

Don't not ask

A question

Because

Of something inside

Ask

And you'll know

Don't ask

And kill yourself

Silently

Inside

This time

This place

It's not

So difficult

Be open

...

Sunday 25th January 2015 1:45 pm

The forest

Sometimes

I feel

Like an old tree

There are

Scratches in

My bark

Life

Memories

Scars

And parts of me

Are twisted

By the wind

By the rain

By the process

Of living

And I try

You know

To stand tall

Watch all

That's behind me

And not think

Too much

About the bits

That lie

Ahead

Or the axe

That will swing

One way

Or...

Tuesday 20th January 2015 11:30 pm

The fair ground

Nothing

Is ever

Lost

Most things

Are just

Waiting patiently

In the corner

To be

Found

And the dust

Gathers

And the spiders

Crawl

And the cover

The precious

With careful

Webs

And spin

The world

Along

Often

We are

Too quick

To jump

Too impatient

To call on

The inevitable

Which always

Will happen

Anyway

...

Tuesday 20th January 2015 8:34 pm

swarm

And the flies
Are always
The first
To arrive
Out of thin air
They sense
The fruit
The rot
And the decay
They thrive
More human
Than humans
They don't pretend
That this isn't
What
They are
And they share
Their disease
Willingly
They spread
Their germs
Blind in a drunken
Delight to succeed
They attack
Our eyes
Our mouths
Our food
Pesky black dots
No intention
Or ambition
...

Monday 19th January 2015 2:38 pm

Cave people

Intrigue and

Disappointment

Are all the same

To me

Logs burning

On the fire

Smoking out

Sanity

Crying to

The rain

Once it was

Not so troublesome

This hunting

Gathering

At least

That's what they claim

From the warmth

They did not make

And the food

They did not

Kill

It was easier

To die

Back then

With no idea

And n...

Saturday 17th January 2015 12:28 pm

Paper dolls

Soft skin

Or

A sharp tongue

Blurred vision

Or

The clarity

Of the blind

Apparently

We will

Wash

You

We will

Clean you

Until

There is

Nothing left

No skin

No bones

No worth

And

No value

And you can

Argue

All you like

Put yourself

In the dock

Ring me

From

Long ago

And far away

Just tell me

One thing ...

Saturday 17th January 2015 12:18 pm

The march of the living dead

There was a
Man made of
Sand
Once upon a time
And a heart
Made of gold
Or maybe
I've got
That wrong
And there was
A woman
Made of gold
And a heart
Made of sand
There was a beat
Ticking away
Pounding
At the rock
Begging
For the wave
To break
And a bottle
Of blood
Pretending
To be wine
That never emptied
Day after day
No matter
How much
They bled
Or
What for
And the p...

Friday 16th January 2015 1:58 pm

count down

And the office
Of the mind
Is full of clowns
Of long forgotten
Dreams
There is chaos
In there
Fighting
The restrictions
Of imposed
Order
And the guests
To the tea party
Are all
Late
Or mad
And some of them
Are yet
To exist
So what is it
We are supposed
To do
From our
Padded cells
Polish them
Because that's
What shows
We care
Buy a new suit
And a top hat
Revisit the pa...

Tuesday 13th January 2015 11:36 am

The perfect murder

You killed

Someone

Once

You know you

Did

Though you locked

It away

In

Your mind

A long way

Away

A long

Time ago

And sometimes

Your dreams

Haunt you

You hear shovel

Hitting sand

Crunching gravel

You hear

The whispers

Of youth

Spurring you

On

And it's your

Little secret

Along with

Your mates

And you think

...

Tuesday 13th January 2015 12:13 am

Inside out

Awkwardness and anger

The sense of

The great unjust

What is it

About

This world

And what we let

It do to us

That lurking animal

Within

Must come

From somewhere

From without

Surely

The cause

Of all

The fire

And the ice

The steel

And the puddles

Cannot simply

Be

Inside

Each of us

Surely

Our actions

Cannot be

Ou...

Monday 12th January 2015 8:35 pm

Like monkeys in the rain

Sometimes

There is

A line

And you don't

Know what it

Means

Whilst at

The same time

Understanding it

Perfectly

And it is

Lines like these

That we

Should puzzle over

Unpick

Turn around

Dissect

Chew upon

And rebuild

It is lines

Like these

Which are

Carousels

In our brains

Helter-skelters

In our minds

This is the oi...

Monday 12th January 2015 12:04 am

castles that bounce

You want

To know

The drop

But you

Don't want

To fall

To feel

To think

And you want

This

To be real

But you

Don't want

To feel

The pain

You don't

Want

To wake up

To grow up

To forget

That you can't

Wear

Daisy chains

Forever

You can hide

In a bottle

At the end

Of a pipe

It will

Serve you well

Because on...

Sunday 11th January 2015 12:43 am

Marbles

When he lost

His mind

There were

A couple of things

He kept hold of

A dice with

No numbers

But two colours

Blue and white

And though he

Knew

This was

Of some

Significance

He could remember

It not

And an anchor

Tied to a piece

Of cord

Which seemed

To fit around

His wrist

Though he was

Not one

To wear bracelets

Ne...

Thursday 8th January 2015 12:08 am

Lying Eyes

Searching

Eyes

For meaning

I think

I used to

Do that

Once

Maybe I thought

I would glimpse

The hidden

Soul

Maybe I thought

I would see

Understanding

I think

I wanted

To catch

The past

The present

And the

Future

A shadow

Of the thing

That they

Call love

Or maybe

I was just

Chasing

My own

Security

Sinc...

Tuesday 6th January 2015 12:04 am

Truth and Lies

So

What did you

Learn

With all

Your weight

And your

Misery

Nothing

To you

Was new

You said

You'd seen it all

Before and

You knew best

And nothing

Need change

Were you

Secretly smiling

Beneath your frown

Was it all

Really

A massive

Joke

Or was that

Sadness and fear

Real

Tell me one thing

If you will

When you t...

Monday 5th January 2015 11:18 am

half an eye

Only ever

Stay half

In this world

Keep one foot

Somewhere else

That's the thing

That stops

The crazy paving

Shattering

The tiny

Patterns

That you thought

Made any sense

Of the shadows

You pretended

Weren't there

In the grey corners

Of your mind

Keep one eye

Focused

On the shaded

Other place

That might have

Been

And migh...

Saturday 3rd January 2015 7:16 pm

plug hole

You thought

You had it

All

Held it

Momentarily

A secret whisper

Hidden behind

Someone else's

Universe

A tiny key

A tiny lock

A click

And a turn

But it went

Before

It was a clear

Picture

In your mind

Punctured

And you turn

Up the music

To hide

The hiss

Of escaping air

Of leaking

Life

But you can't

Stop the fl...