Con-man
I learned to swallow my pride
With no intention of protecting you
Only to shield myself from You
To spare myself of your lies
If we replayed your every move
It would unveil who you actually are
You're a pro at faking love
But you're a con-man at heart
You can't camouflage yourself from me
I am your truth teller
You've soaked your hand in red paint
While d...
Tuesday 8th August 2023 1:09 am
Talking walls
If my walls could talk
they would tell me a story of a girl who lost herself chasing a dream that was never meant for her
If my walls could talk
they would plead with me to stop crying over people who never valued me
If my walls could talk
they would ask me to stop melting into my bed, to stop letting the world eat me alive
If my walls could talk
they wou...
Tuesday 8th August 2023 12:16 am
No Peace
Stop searching for peace where peace does not exist
From people who expect, take, and insist
In the arms of those stealing your yes’s
With all these yes’s your life is full of messes
You give and give, and what do you take?
Is there anything left on the dinner plate?
There’s nothing left to give you gave yourself away
“You’re so kind and generous” That’s what you want them to ...
Friday 16th June 2023 12:12 am
Protecting my Peace
I pay high prices to learn my lessons
That others manage to grasp in seconds
I always choose others before myself
Putting them on the very top shelf
I question the lack of a smile on my face
Is it lost? Did I misplace?
When will I protect my peace?
I want to own it, not lease
I sold my tranquility to the first in line
Can't grow a backbone, not even a spi...
Saturday 10th June 2023 3:22 pm
Life lessons
Sometimes a simple hello
Is a lesson waiting to happen
Since I'm ignorant about the future
I said a few extra words
You were so beautiful and divine
Delicious like the summer sun
I had to know your name
Hello was not enough
One word changed my world
One word sealed the deal
Shortly, my smile shifted to tears
My worth diminished as well
You’re a test I was desig...
Thursday 27th April 2023 6:07 am
Lioness
You are a baby calf
Just learning to walk
Dreaming of running free
Wanting to be a lioness
But not just any kind
You were meant to lead
If only you believe
Non of that fake bravado
Show the world true bravery
Be the one people talk about
Be the one people fear
Be the one people won’t cross
Let them hear your roars from miles away
You are a lioness meant to s...
Saturday 8th April 2023 1:59 am
First Place
You always came in first place
I was the runner up
To my own life
I thought your win was mine
But you kept it for yourself
Showing the world how you made it
All on your own you said
Forgetting I held your hand to the top
You let me go
When I was no longer needed
Soon you’ll watch
When I win with someone else
When we climb to the top
Together hand in hand
...
Friday 7th April 2023 6:11 am
Skipping Meals
Sometimes I skip my meals
To weigh less than my heavy mind
Sometimes I skip my meals
Because sleep is more delicious
Sometimes I skip my meals
To sink into my bed
Sometimes I skip my meals
Because I want to drift away
Sometimes I skip my meals
To forget every hour
Sometimes I skip my meals
Because I yearn to skip all my days
Thursday 6th April 2023 7:20 am
Tissues
I collect tissues
The way some do books
I collect tissues
To feel how pain looks
I collect tissues
Every time I close the door
I collect tissues
I don’t even know what for
I collect tissues
Inside my jacket pockets
I collect tissues
To whip my eye sockets
I collect tissues
Every time I speak your name
I collect tissues
All the times I was to blame
...Wednesday 5th April 2023 7:01 pm
Someone New
I think I’m ready now
To finally see someone new
To finally forget about you
To finally move on with life
I need someone who listens
Someone who doesn’t talk over me
Someone who’ll love me back
Someone I can count on
I’m finally seeing me
The girl we both left behind
The girl who deserves so much more
The girl who wants to be her own world
I’ll l...
Wednesday 5th April 2023 10:17 am
No One Understands
Many of my poems are about him
Because I want people to know
What it’s like to love him
It’s like eating sweet fruit
Ripest from the season
If I had to share it with one person
I would only take one bite
And give the rest to my lover
Because I convinced myself
His happiness was mine
No one understands what he meant to me
There are no words in the world
To expres...
Tuesday 28th March 2023 2:38 am
Bipolar Episode
I find myself on top of a cliff
The night is cold and dark
I wonder why I forgot to wear a sweater
I wonder why I’m even here
They say you must talk yourself off the cliff
Take deep breaths and move backward
Think about what drove you here
And why you need to go back home
As I look around I see no car
I never drove myself here
I wasn’t in the driver’s sea...
Saturday 25th March 2023 5:16 am
Loving You Not Me
Loving you is a basic routine
Loving myself is a broken machine
Loving you is a sunny day
Loving myself is dismay
Loving you is pure as a child
Loving myself is remembering I never smiled
Loving you is no stress
Loving myself is hopeless
Loving you is learning to grow
Loving myself is death row
Loving you is feeling safe in your arms
Loving myself is fire...
Saturday 25th March 2023 2:37 am
Moral Compass
I have morals since I’m not tempted by sin
Those who lack them
Eat their sins as if they're starving
They say one by one greed devours all
But I know the veracity, I carry it in my heart
Im not enticed by the chaos people create
I know I’m on the righteous path
I have morals some days a week
I was a pure soul until I met you
You are temptation and beautiful in every...
Tuesday 21st March 2023 11:21 pm
I Belong To...
I belong to empty pages and unwritten stories
I belong on the top self you haven’t visited in months
I belong under the bed, collecting dust
I belong to no one
I belong to ignorance when I won’t accept the truth
I belong to love maybe once or twice a year
I belong to tears when mom tells me I’m just like dad
I belong to no one
I belong to you only in the middle of...
Friday 10th March 2023 2:19 am
This is Bipolar
It’s the same each morning
My body never gets a warning
My mind is fresh and full of life
I think I’ll be happy, I actually might
I’m on top of the world, you can’t bring me down
Try all you want, I’m never touching the ground
I live in euphoria, I’m not coming home
Don’t try calling me, I’m not answering the phone
I’m heavily addicted to this lifestyle
Everyone wants me...
Thursday 9th March 2023 9:51 pm
Never Meant To Be
I'm aware I write too many poems about you
You’re my muse when I sing the blues
I know I cry myself to sleep at night
Knowing that you made me endure torment out of spite
Your ego was so heightened
And your grip on my spirit made me frightened
You controlled my every emotion
You made our lives a colossal commotion
I desperately wanted to breathe in tranquility
...
Wednesday 8th March 2023 12:09 am
Dear Love
I’ll swim back to my sanity for you
I’ll search the globe for the pieces of the puzzle to my mind
I’ll discover the last piece in your hands
Eagerly awaiting your arrival
I’ll endure the cold to keep you warm on frigid evenings
I’ll bargain myself for your comfort
I’ll rip out my heart to make yours bigger
And go to war with whoever tries to break it
I’ll heal mys...
Monday 6th March 2023 5:42 pm
Prettiest
I’m prettiest when you take advantage of me
When you hold my limp body in your overbearing arms
I’m charming when you have power over me
When you profit off my soreness
I’m foul when I think of myself
When I don’t comply with your needs
I’m awful when I stand up for myself
When I demand respect from you
I’m beautiful when I shed tears of anguish
When I wet the...
Sunday 5th March 2023 5:46 pm
Poor Minded
I carry a few coins in my sweater pocket
I can’t afford much, especially not to lose
Life is too expensive but all I have are pennies
I used to be rich, however, I traded it in for a moment of silence
Working day and night, I'm still short to live in peace
Others have it easy; they have it all and more
They give me their 2 cents as if I know how to listen
Listening to ins...
Friday 3rd March 2023 2:21 am
Not Love
I remember the very next day
you didn’t look at me the same anymore
The expression on your face changed when you looked over at me
Should’ve known then that you loved me less
Each passing day, you took away a piece of your love
You chipped away at your own heart
Gathered your love for me and left it by the door
In a perfect box for me to open
One foot in, one foot out
Yo...
Friday 3rd March 2023 2:20 am
Sugar and Salt
Some days you are salt
some days you are sugar
some days you are kind
and some days you pretend to be
to some it may look the same
but I can tell just by your smell
I have to taste the salt
so I can get the sweet
I'll endure a thousand days of salt
to taste a single grain of sugar again
you used to feed me desserts
and now all I get is bitter
Saturday 15th October 2022 6:04 pm
Guilt
I feel guilt for crying
when you have more pain
you cry for your mother
and I cry because of mine
you cry for a lost home
and I cry for a broken one
your tears fall for your dead siblings
and I cry because I fight with mine
you scream at the men around you
and I can't look them in the eye
you were taken away as a child
and I never was one
together we...
Friday 14th October 2022 12:59 am
Past and future
I deep dive into the past
and swim toward the future
I crave memories that do not exist
I crave what may become
I don't live here anymore
traveling back in time
and jumping much ahead
no wonder why I'm barely surviving
I have no home here
My mind is lost in the then and when
Saturday 8th October 2022 1:36 pm
Predator
I know the lies you speak
do you think they make me weak?
I know all the stories you will tell
imaging me under your spell
I know where your eyes will go
I'll look away and you'll get a show
you make devious plans in your mind
don't worry, I know your kind
Few hours in, your hands on my arm
no one the in the room sees any harm
telling jokes and memories from th...
Saturday 8th October 2022 1:25 pm
Woman enough
Am I woman enough for you?
with my tiny fingers and toes
with my wrinkled school uniform
and my braided hair with red bows
am I woman enough for you?
with my empty lunchbox
and mitch match socks
when a smile that covered my face
and three missing teeth
am I woman enough for you?
with my shoes smaller than your palm
when I was less than half your size
...Saturday 8th October 2022 8:07 am
Noise
It's all background noise
then why do I hear you from a mile away?
like the voice in my head
like my morning alarm
like an image on my wall
oh, why do you torment me?
why do you desire to lay in my bed?
to crawl inside my veins
to whisper my name
and scream yours
when will you leave?
so i can finally breath
Saturday 8th October 2022 7:58 am
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