The Art of Changing
I'mma start giving positivity out like Oprah
So you can sit down
And do nothing with your life
But I'm going to change the world
I don't regret anything
To regret means
That you didn't learn anything
From that problem
I've been in this dark gloomy glaze for too long
Stop being scared of change
So let's start over again see the world
I've become too comfortable
With being depress...
Friday 29th December 2017 1:00 pm
12/28/16
How can I fight anymore
I'm breathing slowly
Letting myself fade into the hopelessness
My eyes are full of tears
Can you stop the convulsing
I'm shaking like a leaf in a storm
This is my lowest point in my life
I took the bottle of pills
I'm pushing my bad heart to the point
I told myself if I live through this
I'll stop my self destruct ways
The lights are blinking off and on
M...
Thursday 28th December 2017 11:37 am
Finite
I'm not too sure who I am anymore
After all I when through this year
I've been thinking maybe I'm better off alone
I'm better off alone
For I don't hurt anyone
It's still under my skin that I hurt her
I'd give it all away
Just to tell her I'm sorry
Heaven can't handle me
And hell don't want me
I'm praying to find my place
The darkness is all around me
Everyone has someone to...
Thursday 28th December 2017 6:03 am
Man in the Mirror
Don't go
Just don't go yet
I'm not going to sit here
And pretend that it's going to be easy
You have two choices you can stay here
Revel in the past or become a better human
Prove to the whole goddamn world
That you're not weak anymore
Your whole life has been controlled by a knife
But you're not that weak are you
Because if you were you would already gave up
To the malicious tho...
Wednesday 27th December 2017 1:17 am
Ouija
Ouija we are here
Under the bridge
Where death lays
The spirit smirk
Three lies they will tell you
But being dead is what they all want
Summon 1
Summon 2
Summon 3
Ouija we are here
Some of us walk in flesh
Goodbye will knot happen tonight
Only hanging men will be
The laughter you will hear
Blood curdling sounds
Coming from the board with words on it
It's so cute the why ...
Tuesday 26th December 2017 9:05 am
Words of The Waiting Man
I've always been impatient my whole life
When it comes to her I just want to wait
Honestly I don't want anyone else
I want her good and bad
I told you that I would
Always keep you safe
I would fight for you
I prefer waiting around for her
So don't tell me to stop
I don't care if it never happens again
Just as long as you know that I love you
Monday 25th December 2017 6:58 am
Morning Coffee
I'm uncomfortably honest
With the words in my head
So open up tonight
For they can hold you tomorrow
It's a dreadful life
And everyone's just looking out for their self
My pessimistic ways is pouring out tonight
Can the spoiled brat please shut up
About how his mom
Won't buy him that new cell phone
His sounding quite petty
Why can't just being alive
Be enough for everyone
...
Sunday 24th December 2017 5:20 am
Stay For Awhile
Mutilate the words out of your mouth
You received my attention
When you kiss me with your mesmerizing lips
But the days are going considerably darker
You deserve a breeze that can make you breath
Do we really own the time that we give ourselves
Or is it just a cosmic experience
I felt life in that little kiss
That's been more than a year now
I was never scared to die
But then I met y...
Friday 22nd December 2017 11:02 am
Disconnection
I have to occupy my brain
For that way the voices can't reach me
I hear the rumbling of them everywhere I go
I beg for quietness
I know I'll never get it
Maybe the voices are right though
I was just born to be alone
Disconnection, disconnection
How long until this pain is over
Cause I miss her
I can't leave her all alone
I always want to try to live for her
Wait has long as a can...
Friday 22nd December 2017 7:16 am
5 days
My actions didn't have bad intentions to them
When I found out I hurt you
I cried for two days and I tried to make you understand
I would never mean to hurt you
You mean the world to me
I haven't slept in 5 days now
I haven't ate in 5 days
Knowing I hurt you makes me want to die
Don't tell me to move on when I hurt you like this
Could you kill me
I would apologize for hurting ...
Tuesday 19th December 2017 9:19 pm
Untitled
Broken all alone
But he deserves it all for hurting her
I truly believe that he's a monster now
He's no better than anyone else
Who's hurt her in her childhood
So as the blood runs
Let it seep until it's all over
Death is all he deserves now
How could he do this to her
I'm sorry I hope this make you feel better
I'll keep the blood running
Until it's all gone
How much has to ...
Sunday 17th December 2017 12:02 pm
I'm Kind of Drunk
I'm starting to feel that my mother was right
I'm nothing more then a mess up
She should have had an abortion
Even when I'm trying to do the right thing
I find a way to mess that up
The value of my worth is nothing
The value of my worth is nothing
I don't deserve to be loved
I deserve to be hated
For letting my demons win
I think the sadness never ends
I'm drunk again
Writing this ...
Sunday 17th December 2017 4:35 am
One Side of A Coin
How can you fill a cup with liquor
When you can't fill
Your head up with positive thoughts
I'm not trying to put you down
It's just the only thing I see
The only thing I see
Is a human in pain trying to put a bandage
On a wound that is too deep
I've never walked a mile in you’re shoes
But I could see that you're in pain a mile away
So when will you help yourself
The pain is k...
Wednesday 6th December 2017 5:20 am
Mental Illness
I keep thinking of my better half
Do you think insanity is a curse
Cause it's all I have left
It makes sense
The voices are non-stop now
Telling me I've done all I can do
So end it all and join them
But I know if I keep ripping my skin open
And getting just a second of sanity
Cleanse myself from the voices
I'll want to wait for her
So I'll do that
I'm sorry this isn't a fo...
Saturday 2nd December 2017 6:59 am
Sweetest of Places
I guess them cigarettes just caught up to you
You watch me grow up into a man
Thank you for not letting my mom adopt me out
I know things won't be the same without you
Can you not go yet
I know it's selfish to ask you to stay
But you always cared
I just wanted to thank you for that
I don't know what to do right now
This water just keeps pouring out of my eyes
And I don't know how t...
Wednesday 22nd November 2017 5:31 am
My Birthday Wish
On my birthday I used my only wish on you
Cause your what takes my breath away
So one day I hope you find your way back to me
So I hope you sleep well
Because I've never seen anyone smile like you
Just seeing my face you light up like a Christmas tree
So who in the hell are you trying to events
Cause I've been sitting in this chair
Just trying to make you understand that I love you
...
Monday 20th November 2017 10:04 am
The Waiting Man
A man told me if you can wait for love
Then you truly love them
Well a year has past by now
I can say I love her even more now
The waiting man will wait
At the waiting Tower
Just to stop time to
Hold her one more time
I don't need a promise to do this
It always been willingly
I know all good things are worth waiting for
So why wouldn't I wait for her
She made me the happiest I...
Wednesday 15th November 2017 4:47 am
Letter To April
Please let me sink
Into my anxiety
Where I belong
I know your gone forever
I'll never see your face again
You will be going where I can't go
I'm sorry my love
I miss you everyday and I've tried to let go
But I feel like that isn't right
After all you took my innocence away and I took yours
That night still means the world to me
Yes I did found a new girl
I give her your title
...
Sunday 12th November 2017 9:54 am
Not Alone
You don't have to decay
Little firefly didn't I tell you
I love you and only you
Your never alone I'll always be here
I don't want to live like this
I'm a mess without you here
You don't have to be alone
You don't have to be alone
Them pills they have me on
Doesn't help my heart
When I know you're trapped in the dark
I'd die for the thought of conversations with you
You d...
Wednesday 8th November 2017 7:41 am
Good Morning Sunshine
Nowadays I don't ever want to wake up
I'm just an old habit
I don't own anyone apology
For the suicidal thoughts you put in my mind
I'm better off a sleep why the rain dopes
Alcohol is all I need
Who needs a chaser
When I'm chasing all these ghosts
I'm unattached to everyone around me
All my friends are addicted to something
Well I'm too busy cutting out the problem
I'm getting c...
Tuesday 7th November 2017 1:21 am
Forever Girl
Baby I don't want to be your fast one
I want to be your last one
I want to heel them scars
I just want to show you what a good man is
Cause all them boy around
Only sees you a piece of ass
I know that's knot what you want to hear
Baby your my only girl
I want to be your last one
I want to heel them scars
I want to make feel like a goddess
Forever is a long time but I'll fight...
Wednesday 1st November 2017 9:23 am
Promises
This isn't healthy at all
I miss you so badly
So didn't you want to runaway with me
Didn't you promise me that you wouldn't date my friends
Or was that a lie, cause I'm starting to think that you lie
How could you tell me that cheesy line
That I'm too good for you
How could you hurt me like this
Did you really love me
So didn't you want to runaway with me
...Monday 23rd October 2017 10:07 am
Self-Destruction
My reality is fading into a blank space
If it was up to me self-destruction
Wouldn't be our only hope
But we all know this the end of it all
My existence is fading into time
Did you feel?
Did you feel the blood?
Did you feel the eternal sadness growing?
How far until we hit bone?
Can you fill the hole in your heart
How long has it been like this?
How many minutes have when by in th...
Wednesday 6th September 2017 7:52 am
Secrets
As my bitterroots tingle around my feet
I slowly embrace salt water rushing down my throat
like the secrets I could not keep
So unaware with my consequences
My secrets impaled me with all of its force
As the blood flows out can I hold your hand
So I can feel something overwhelming
As my bitterroots tingle around my waist
I slowly embrace that this is the end
li...
Saturday 19th August 2017 4:13 am
Vivid Colors
Do you remember all the vivid colors
Pouring from your pores
That night we made love on your mother's couch
Or was I color blind with the thought of you loving me
I know you've been painting
This family portrait for way too long
So can I undress all your insecurities
And show you that you're beautifully fantastic
I just wish I could touch without pricking my finger
...
Friday 18th August 2017 11:58 pm
Prove Us All Wrong
Now we're seeing your true colors
We thought you were the happiest kid
You prove us all wrong
You prove us all wrong
You prove us all wrong
With roses burning out your ears
The porch swing break the night
You prove us all wrong that you could fly
But all in the wrong ways
Now Waters falling from my eyes
I heard what them girls were saying about you
If onl...
Friday 18th August 2017 11:18 pm
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