the golden ratio (2+2=5)
I spent the night of the crash speaking to Morpheus
Telling him how your bones rattled
Not like the psithurism of the trees in winter
But like a hessian sack full of river smooth rocks
Not tectonically, nothing as monumental
But like sticks brittle from frost
A personal earthquake
Marrowed pins pushing through your beautiful sack of organs
I told him how in the...
Monday 12th December 2016 3:14 pm
see, saw, seen, sworn
Red string draped across the bare branches of an acacia tree
Then pulled taut
The emasculation of kitchen scissors
She said 'sometimes it is beautiful just to survive'
Sometimes you give up on yourself
Just to keep up
But what does that really mean for our soul
Trapped in amber, staring out at the children playing in the park
The sun basting your tender frame with h...
Friday 9th December 2016 7:35 pm
though we kneel before you like a child
like a tantric paste daubed across the night sky
we danced. tracing sine waves like semaphore with
hateful eyes glistening under the dull bloom of the universe.
lids glued shut with sleepless shrapnel, lashes meeting tear
streaked cheeks. though we kneel before him like a child,
he does not hear our pleas. it took a lifetime, father, for us to raise
the white flag and kiss...
Wednesday 7th December 2016 12:36 pm
upon this tidal wave of young blood
My mind is a tomb where the gods sleep
To awaken in my dreams
Past and future blur in to the present
My hearts ink bleeds, staining the parchment of the days
It took my mother three days to evict me from her soft place
Aching for the blade to cut me out
Peeling the flesh from the sacred ground
An explosion of screaming guilt and bloody flesh
To lay roots at the foot...
Wednesday 30th November 2016 4:45 pm
take me to tokyo where the lights may blind me
I am smoking in bed and reading an article about
The human soul weighing the same as a cigarette
While my daily allowance of untapped clamor
Forms snow like crusts on the eggshell sheets
How do people keep it together in this world
When only sleep winds back the ball of yarn
That unravels slowly throughout the day
A wet thread of fatigue that snakes through my hous...
Wednesday 23rd November 2016 11:46 pm
a clenched fist full of your ribs, balaam, would mend the ways of many who are lost at sea
and so i spat
humanity?!
humanity is but a cleft palette
mutilating the angelic face of the earth
such cancer will not be irradiated with light
nor love will drown its feeble hive mind.
a sword! a sword!
diamond ricasso sharpened with hate
now watch me cleave from socket, rend
this vile wart that shocks the sirens light
and bury a mile high
the demons foul tha...
Wednesday 16th November 2016 10:56 pm
morning dew
[sweet little jenny]
her hair stands
erect[licked]
when kissing
when kissed
likethewind
blowsleaves
fromdripping
branches
not because
sheloveshim
but because
daddy spread her legs
in the dust of the
tool shed
a kissing
a kissing
(we all fall down)
he would
give her
all the shakes
Saturday 12th November 2016 8:53 pm
lay my neck on this block of wood but make it one clean swing
[i lay my head
on the chest
of
god]
[but i hear
[not a][ ]
[heartbeat]
forihave
[gone]
[so very
far]
but further
[further
i must go]
Friday 11th November 2016 9:43 pm
cracked
egg you are shot through with veins like a mother’s swollen teat
egg you are with feathered with mucus, like snot in a shell
egg you are a sparkling white albumen and a pallid, jaundiced yolk
whisked with cream and pepper you become a truffled cloud of disappointment
egg you are shit out, sat on, hatched or caught
will you be a mothers world or enrobed in cheap mayonnaise
perhaps...
Tuesday 1st November 2016 8:44 pm
alva, who is darkness
alva is who appears at midnight
with a mechanical needle one hundred metres long
sucking bleak black blood from the acne scars of mother
alva is here when i am alone and i lock my door
peeling crescent moons of rose red flesh
alva is the sin
that lets me think i can get away with it
the foolish pride
the gluttony
the decaying colostrum from your darkened nipples
alva ...
Wednesday 26th October 2016 12:31 pm
silt
its easier now with time to afford names to the neurosis that
i cast around you like piano wires, those that you simply laughed
off and those that edged into your flesh like pyracantha, strangling
the life from those people irresponsible enough to ask more than
my name. those that i held under the chill waters of my discontent,
bubbles rising like full stops from steel blue lips tha...
Sunday 23rd October 2016 2:43 pm
seasonal attraction disorder
take me in your autumn arms
for you are every photon
take me by the hand and
kiss me softly on my spring lips
for you are every leaf that ever fell
every berry that stained the prints
of shaking summer fingers
now...
lets drift around this wintered world together
and pretend no one ever told us
how much we were supposed to love.
Tuesday 18th October 2016 8:22 pm
when a dog returns to consume its own vomit, it does so through choice and not hunger
at its best it is a glass over a candle,
blinkered, immediate. we are not past
or future, just anchored now, gripped
just tight enough to finger-paint lust
on bony shoulders, just a couple more
scratches to blame on the cat, our
wrists reddened by weekend revelry.
how stale it felt on a rainy wednesday
but still you had read online that it
helped, that it might make you ...
Sunday 16th October 2016 7:04 pm
all we ever wanted was everything
a man is placing silver coins on the eyes of his friend
who died in the night, a lonely wind blown into his mouth and through his marrow
and now the sulphurous glare of our greatest ally sends life through infinity
as it will until the teeth of our society are smashed from our gums
by the bayonet of impotence and jealousy that is the human race
and even then she will shine until the...
Friday 14th October 2016 4:31 pm
fabric
boiling waves of deep sine wave bass –
flick the back of my eyes like the tip of a tongue
a butterfly-and im sweating through my socks
and im shedding my cells like midnight snakeskin
now you are walking slowly through a strobe light
you seem not to move at all
there/gone/there/gone
and you are my friend
and you are my friend
and you are my friend
and y...
Thursday 13th October 2016 11:34 am
mechanism
sometimes it takes the form of a pocket watch
or a shard of glass
we both saw him place the noose around her neck
a choker too tight with diamonds
nails bitten low enough to bleed
a sliver of blood blooming at the tip
placed softly like a crustless sandwich between pale chapped lips
tang of iron and medium rare steak puddles of it now
walk softly, softly t...
Monday 10th October 2016 2:07 pm
eleuthoromania
sometimes we just had to run
our eyes would meet across the bedroom floor
your leg would be twitching
mine would too
that nagging, lactic vibration just below the knees
when fathers thunder could be heard above the radio
despite the volume being so high that all that came out was white noise
sometimes we just had to run
run across the yard
with hollywood rain lashing in ...
Thursday 6th October 2016 1:03 pm
opiate rapture in e-minor
when darkness fell at last
the stars fell too
descending from heaven like so many glistening eyes
the gospel told us we would ascend to heaven
but the truth was contradictory
the heavens came to us
on that freezing cold night in late November
with our breath like dragons, our hands clammy despite the loss of feeling
we stood surrounded by countless burning candles
a brig...
Tuesday 4th October 2016 11:42 am
i took you to the brightest places on earth so that i could see who you truly are
blue mountains, australia: there is more light here than dark, space is milky, pop and wheeze
i suspect you have been sleeping with my sister, my brother
svalbard: aurora borealis paints feathers of jade on a rich tapestry of pitch black
did she scream for you like she did for me
kalahari desert, early morning: sand melts to glass melts to water melts the eyes
a trillion billion pan...
Sunday 2nd October 2016 12:01 am
one step beyond
you spent so long in that obsidian chamber
that you named each worm of light that crept in
named them based on the complexity of the pattern
that exploded behind your eyelids
for to open your eyes and view them would be blinding
this one is paul
a single line pulsing oranges and blues
next cronos
a ring of white heat around a pale, milky ball
once a week heimdallr struck...
Wednesday 28th September 2016 2:52 pm
little nightmares
bolt the door
mummy is in bed
with faberge eggs
with diamond rings
daddy is at work
his yarn slowly unravelling
in the stained armchair
let golden birds
flitter flutter
let rockets
shoot sparks
to the moon
let the wise old owl
take you by the hand
scrunch up your eyes
don’t let the tears out
if mummy calls
turn up the volume
if daddy screams
...Tuesday 27th September 2016 10:07 am
so kiss me, hold me and eat me
i would be good for eating
it started innocently enough
a bite of the lower lip
stretched just that touch too far
a nibble on the neck that left a muted firework of blood blisters for the rest of the day
the teeth marks you left in my index finger as i explored your mouth
you would be good for eating
it shifted so subtly that we barely noticed
like the gradually d...
Monday 26th September 2016 1:29 pm
anhedonia
he inhabits the tenuous dead space where
ampersands float beyond blinking spots of
daylight, lost in whorls of third eye blindness.
he is blasted new from fractious nerve
endings that shoot a thousand tiny deaths
through elements, through cosmic notes
lifted from the songbook of infinite night.
he whispers barbs like crude missiles tipped
with toxicities, hemlock ...
Sunday 25th September 2016 4:30 pm
the moon
no one ever thinks about the moon
how it must feel staring down at the earth
watching us love and fuck and destroy each other
premium tickets to an exhibition of annihilation
if the moon could talk
i think it would say
when the carrion picks the carcass clean
the blood that drips from his beak is always red
Saturday 24th September 2016 12:58 pm
snowflake 3
a tiny flake
your lips
fell to earth
whispered
then kissed my hot cheek
you smelt like heaven
and dissolved as we met
i dissolved when we met
a fragile alliance
like a snowflake
a moment in time
a tear rolled down my cheek
a tear in time and space
Friday 23rd September 2016 1:05 pm
snowflake 2
virgin flakes land soft explode on the tongue
the taste of promise of something beginning
and ending in an instant then pooling behind
the painted smiles of children.
and what are we but footprints in the snow
laid deep and resonant by crunching soles
a thousand tiny guides to the end times
then slate wiped by fresh fall.
Thursday 22nd September 2016 4:04 pm
snowflake
even under a microscope
snowflakes keep their magical shape
like charms cut from paper by smooth,
shaky hands during december.
if you are a snowflake i envy you
because i am trembling just below
the surface,
a ripple of pure light that burst forth
from god, has struck the morning dew
and now has no idea where to shine.
Wednesday 21st September 2016 1:13 pm
endgame
clouds like beautiful silk breeze against the cobalt sky
we walk through a field of dandelions
as time flows around us
quiet little monsters crawl over our skin
last week i saw him
like dirt trapped under a fingernail
your hands are sweaty
you are nervous
i turn to you and smile
everything turns to dust eventually
Tuesday 20th September 2016 11:20 am
klittra
in the time of leif ericson
from roughly hewn granite
a bright white elk struck forth
arrows jutting from its neck like needles
soft fur caked with blood
through smoke and fire that stung the mizzling sky
it opened its crackling mouth
muzzle appeared from muzzle
teeth gnashed at lip
tongues wrenched free, swallowed whole
and such a child was born that was both light a...
Sunday 18th September 2016 12:33 pm
the man that swallowed the sky
my mother used to tell me the tale
of the man who swallowed the sky
she said long ago there was a boy
whose life was spent in wanting
who looked for his answers at the bottom of a bottle
but found nothing of any use
so he looked elsewhere
in the prick of a needle
the haunt of serotonin
tobacco and gold
he consumed it all but found no relief
so he ate a girls heart
...Friday 16th September 2016 12:44 pm
the churning of the ocean of milk
south of the ruins of angkor wat
where nature long ago struck back at mankind
a fat white man wrings the heat from his t-shirt
while a 14 year old girl paces next to him
swollen with new life and heavy with shame
the roots spread through her temple
at night he dines in hotel bars
sweats in to his cold beer
while his bride lies in a darkened room
tears long ago ...
Thursday 15th September 2016 4:52 pm
liquid gold
the girl with galaxies in her veins
sits weeping in her bathroom
she casts a line down the drain
hopes to find her memories
memories of pyramid spices in marrakesh
of turmeric in bangladesh
of cayenne and bright green coffee beans
memories of the man with the tiny opal box
of the darkened rooms and double vision
pavements turn to gold and eyes turn milky
there is...
Wednesday 14th September 2016 12:39 pm
lemonade
with my shaking finger
i trace your ribs like mountains
i drink in the birdsong
lick the spit from your tongue
the calmest i ever felt
was when i reached for your hand
now the hate turns me on
like you never could
if this was war
our cities would be rubble
our eyes would sting with the dust of the fallen
our tears would feather the dirt
there is a...
Tuesday 13th September 2016 7:42 am
infinity
i tried to tell you how i felt about the universe
how i was overcome with the immensity of it
how i would wake up in the morning
with a vacuum between my heart and my gut
an empty space where my bravery should be
what is my motivation for this scene?
you are afraid
what am i afraid of?
of your own power
i don’t understand
don’t you believe in infinity?
so...
Sunday 11th September 2016 1:01 pm
dont know when but a day is gonna come
on tuesday we became the sky
pulled the clouds over our faces like shrouds
poured out vitriol from our mouths, the sun
took the silver sliver of the moon in to our arms and struck the hearts of our enemies
on wednesday we became the earth
tore clumps of sod and soil from the wounded land
used trees as spears, rocks as bullets
hurled tectonic plates, sent smashing against the w...
Saturday 10th September 2016 11:58 am
oh dear oh dear
upon opening the meat, venison, i smelt the blood,
a thick, violet paste, rancid like glue
as i dropped the cubes into the searing copper pan
I saw the maggots pop and crisp like discarded fingernails
some exploding entirely in the heat
still more maggots came then
searching for the moments between my bones
under the leather of my skin, sucking the marrow from my cartilage
...
Friday 9th September 2016 6:14 pm
the man stood in the corner of the room
what happens in your dream she asks
me on a day at a time i do not know
and i cannot speak i am just terrified,
terrified of him, the man from my past who
is now stood in the corner of the room
fading into the shadow of the filing cabinet
like a detuned radio and he stinks, oh god
he stinks like a summers waste bin and again
she asks me what is wrong and i turn to her
a...
Friday 9th September 2016 11:32 am
dunes
the sand lies within us just beneath the surface
but no one will find it not customs officials
or surgeons or cheap state psychologists
searching for photographs of smothered children
the sand we keep within us we draw it in
deep breath in and if we are lucky the fire
in our hearts is strong enough to melt it
into the glass that we use in our later years
to stare at our nei...
Thursday 8th September 2016 2:56 pm
basquiat
you never appreciated basquiat
i felt for you
you told me you only saw a childs scrawling
a cry for attention from a petulant teen
a mentally challenged adult hastily daubing a canvas
before the voices overwhelmed him
before the stench of the shit in the world got too much to bear
the tendrils of emetic despair wafting through the grate
in his run down bathroom
cartoon l...
Tuesday 6th September 2016 1:08 pm
lime
as a fire burns within me i sit in a hut
with a white eyed woman/milk-eyed/like marbles sunk into lips of bruised
fat/hair like rust on silk/each strand disintegrating in loops and leaves
in the solid breeze flowing from somewhere far eastern
and dangerous/where horns are ground for impotence and kaffir
lime leaves scent the air like the perfume of an elderly lady with
...
Monday 5th September 2016 2:58 pm
another day, another gin
the gap between the
platform and the train
he boards each night to
travel home was nothing
compared to the gap
between him and his family
Monday 5th September 2016 2:09 pm
cloak
my name is the sound
that you make late at night
the scream stuck
behind eyes glazed with sleep
fingernails riven
scraping oak boards
the shield of the moon
shuts down at my touch
a mystic
a savage
i come
Friday 2nd September 2016 3:50 pm
dirge
in veils of black crepe silk she rose
each night to tempt my tongue
a phoenix in mourning
at the window a whisper
a gap so small
the nursery lies empty
Thursday 1st September 2016 12:10 pm
ode to amy watson
in school you were a goddess to me
i dreamt of kissing your feet
you were the first girl to make me erupt
to coax out my seed
to transform a clueless boy in to one in tune with his body
but we never spoke
in college you were fading
the albatross of popularity sagged around your love bitten neck
the skirts became shorter to ensure the eyes remained fixed
while i...
Friday 26th August 2016 4:57 pm
daysleeper
by day we feast on sweaty mediocrity
hunched over keyboards dripping with seed
a thousand lovely ants shackled by sin
but the night is ours to wander
to stand under the colossal slate sky
our souls alive and burning like the first flame
brought to life by flint and tinder
we float up through roofs and windows
and set our minds free in the vastness of conscience
Thursday 25th August 2016 9:14 pm
the rabbit
i first encountered death at midnight
stumbling through the creaking pines
needles crackling under my bare feet
there lay the fallen rabbit, lit by the moon
its fur matted and stomach bloated
finally, i met death before my parents
could cut me off and sanitise the area
i poked and prodded with a stick purloined
from the tree where my urine was drying
and uncovered its si...
Wednesday 24th August 2016 7:34 pm
fallout
look straight at the sun when it is snowing.
see each flake flecked and fanged with fire.
at last this is not mere frozen rain, but skin,
human skin falling, in strips and patches, air
cloying with the stench of rubber and carbon.
iodine stains the fingers brown as hair sheds
from scalps thick grit with dust and detritus
Tuesday 23rd August 2016 12:56 pm
after we realised we were nothing we became everything
meeting someone between the hours of 2am and 5am
is different to meeting them during the day.
you speak to them in hushed tones, share the moment with them,
the idea that you are the only people left on earth,
the only people special enough to be up at this time,
a time whenever everyone else is deep in slumber
and you are left to appreciate how the world keeps tur...
Monday 22nd August 2016 10:34 pm
sewage
spitting on the carpet
waiting for the day to fade
allow the vomit to dry on the wall
so much easier to clean that way
push the chunks down the sink
through the little holes
to the nether realm
the place where the rats live
perhaps they will enjoy last nights dinner
perhaps they will enjoy the blood
the flat coca cola
matted fur and mangy teeth
i can hear them c...
Friday 19th August 2016 8:50 pm
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