New Person
Hair in a low bun,
dressy shirt on,
new backpack on my shoulders.
The girl from yesterday is gone.
The girl from yesterday cried in public.
The girl from yesterday let the bullies get away.
The girl from yesterday let her depression
catch up with her.
But then tomorrow came.
Today I laced up my white converse
and put in my earbuds
as I made my trek over ...
Tuesday 11th December 2018 10:02 pm
Abuse
People have started to notice.
I look sad. Depressed, even.
Which prompts them to ask the dreaded question:
“Are you okay?”
I always reply with:
“Yeah.”
Or “I’m okay.”
Or “I’m fine.”
But those are lies.
I am not okay. I am not fine.
I need help. And I need it now.
I can’t get it though.
They say to talk to the guidance counselors.
Lets be serious....
Monday 10th December 2018 2:37 am
Suicide
The alarm bells screamed in my head.
A number 1 showed up to tell me
that I had a message from someone.
My friend had just sent me a screenshot of the chat
he’d had with our other friend.
My heart froze.
And then started smashing.
I’d just read her post about how
she wanted to end it.
She was going through some of the
same things I am.
But unlike me, she ...
Sunday 9th December 2018 3:59 pm
The Typical Girl is Not Me
They tell me it’s good to be different.
Embrace your differences!
No one will bully you for it.
No one will shun you.
Thats what they told me.
And then I realized the truth.
They lied to me (as usual)
about it.
Because the world is a dark, cruel place.
And to survive you have to be cruel.
To make it,
you have to fit in.
To fit in,
you have to be fak...
Sunday 9th December 2018 2:55 am
Trapped in Silence
While I walk through the
open hallways of my school,
I am trapped.
Yes, school feels like a cage
to most,
but for me it is different.
I am caged with the ‘popular’ kids,
the bullies,
the ones who throw things at me in the lunchroom
and talk behind my back.
They too say school is a cage.
But it’s different for me.
While they can speak,
i am forced ...
Saturday 8th December 2018 1:24 pm
Tears
They tell me to be happy.
They tell me that ‘no one sits alone’
that there’s ‘no bullying at this school!’
but I can tell you firsthand that that’s not true.
Not one bit.
At night,
I cry.
I cry myself a river, as they say
because I cannot cry any other time.
They will just tell me that I’m sad
or to cheer up
or the awful ‘what’s wrong?’
It just won’t do.
...Friday 7th December 2018 2:12 am
Life of Lies
As I walk down the sidewalk,
I wonder how many people
are as honest as they say.
They tell us to tell the truth.
That we won’t be punished for it.
That it’s always right to tell the truth.
But do they tell the truth?
I can’t help but wonder
if they are hypocrites.
Because no one can tell the truth all the time.
Even the most honest person
has told a litt...
Wednesday 5th December 2018 2:42 am
Fallible
Fallible,
what a word!
No one has a clue what it means
unless they look it up.
You see,
this word
is a wondrous word
for it most nearly means ‘imperfect.’
For example:
humans are fallible.
Its a true statement.
We are not perfect,
nor will ever be.
But we can try to be
the best person we can
to improve the lives of others.
Tuesday 4th December 2018 8:24 pm
Be Careful What You Do For Love
There’s a window.
The sun always shines through it.
On rainy days, there is always a light.
The sun shines through it whatever the weather.
When the curtains close, the light is gone.
But the curtain never closes.
Until one day some unsuspecting guy
closes it for his girlfriend.
The light is extinguished.
And so is the light in a little girl’s life.
Be careful...
Monday 3rd December 2018 9:18 pm
Many Miles
Many miles I have traveled.
The years go by.
As do the miles.
Whether it be moving
or soccer
or as simple as going to the grocery store.
They fly past me,
waving as they go by.
I’ve made so many memories,
both good and bad.
I’ve hated how fast the miles zoom past me.
I’ve loved it how I’ve already traveled so many
while so young.
It all depends on th...
Monday 3rd December 2018 2:32 am
The Small things
They tell us that the little things don’t matter.
That words can’t hurt us.
That we need to let go.
But what if the little things matter?
What if they play huge parts in our lives?
Because they do.
The little things make up vast portions of our lives.
Maybe that’s why some of us don’t let them go.
Maybe that’s why we won’t let them go,
no matter how hard we try.
...Sunday 2nd December 2018 3:12 pm
Moods
Help me.
The darkness is closing in,
sucking all the light out.
Wiping out my hopes,
my dreams,
and replacing them with sorrow and sadness.
The darkness is suffocating.
It’s choking me with tears
and regrets and apologies.
It’s tormenting me with the things I did wrong
or I thought I did wrong.
Save me.
I want someone to take my hand.
Give me a flashligh...
Sunday 2nd December 2018 2:08 am
Thin ice
A girl is trapped on a lake
that has been frozen over.
The ice is thin,
and shatters easily.
The ice all around her is broken into pieces
and cracked so much that it was hard to find
the way they fit together.
The girl balances precariously
on a small piece of unbroken ice.
But if the piece breaks,
she either dies by her own hand
or falls into to abyss of in...
Wednesday 3rd October 2018 2:58 am
Hope has been lost
Hope has been lost.
It has disappeared from life as I know it.
The sad songs you hear on the radio make me cry.
I have given up on trying to beat back the demons that live inside.
I have tried in vain to hold onto the hope,
to tell myself that it is all
going to go uphill from here.
But it never does.
I tried to hide it at first,
but I realized that I needed help....
Wednesday 3rd October 2018 2:51 am
Midnight
The clock strikes midnight,
but I don’t see it.
I am too busy inside of my own world to care.
The clock takes me all the way to around two in the morning.
But i still do not care.
The connections to the real world are
just too hard to put down.
I feel filled,
Yet still empty.
I feel joy,
but hollow sadness at the same time.
I am reflecting on the things I...
Saturday 29th September 2018 6:59 am
Portrait of a Café
The last drops of the sweet tea
in the bottom of the glass
seem to have a message.
Telling me to go refill it, most likely.
But it also shows me a work of art.
The dregs of the glass are hidden under the ice,
much like how our true selves are hidden under
those people we pretend to be.
Every day a new lie
to tell them.
Every day a new lie told
to you.
...
Friday 28th September 2018 9:22 pm
The Common Person’s Way of Thinking
We all hide scars
underneath the tough skin we have formed.
We all have flaws,
but we choose not to tell.
To wait for them to reveal themselves.
We all have hopes and dreams,
but we say they’re stupid and that
we’re never going to achieve them.
This is the common person.
And their way of thinking.
We are all guilty of it.
Friday 28th September 2018 9:14 pm
Meditation Gardens and butterflies
A tree.
Flowers.
The clouds.
A bench.
Soft, green grass.
A far off castle is visible from the top of the tree.
A girl sits cross-legged,
in deep meditation.
She feels the world turning upside down.
And then silence.
She slowly opens her eyes.
My meditation garden,
she thinks.
She gets up and goes to look through the viewports into her mind.
Tha...
Friday 28th September 2018 11:51 am
The ups and downs of life
As she mills about the streets,
Millicent the cat watches lives unfold.
Joy fills a boy’s face as he receives a note from a girl.
A girl wilts at the sight of a boy talking with another girl.
She watches as lives are created,
a girl begins her journey into the world of a writer,
and destroyed,
a boy commits suicide because of the pains of life.
She knows everyone in town,
...Thursday 27th September 2018 8:31 pm
Fallen Stars
if I had a star in the sky for everything I’ve done wrong,
the sky would be filled with them.
I’ve messed so many things up,
killed too many opportunities,
but hey,
we’re all fallen stars.
We fall for a reason.
I’m still not sure what mine is,
but it has something to do with writing.
I want all you other fallen stars to know,
we are all amazing the way we are.
I...
Wednesday 26th September 2018 9:46 pm
Hotel Grandeur
As I stand on the balcony,
i stare at the world
or at least the tiny part of it that I can see.
The hotel is grand,
a truely magnificent display
and I feel small just in the lobby.
I feel out of place amid the happy tourists
ready to have fun for the rest of the day
and tomorrow.
I wish I could say the same,
but this is a one-night stop
at the hotel of my dreams.
...Saturday 22nd September 2018 1:33 am
Bonfires (Part 2 of Wonder and Worry)
Staring at the dregs of her glass,
wondering whether the world will change
like the little girl said.
The woman thinks about what she said.
The girl has proven to be a knowledgeable
person, wiser than most of the people her age and
above.
But what will it take?
The woman is a lowly photographer
for the local paper.
She only took the photos at this meeting.
But ...
Tuesday 18th September 2018 2:14 am
Photography
Capture the moment
in a single photograph.
Keep the memory
of a loved one
in a framed picture on your nightstand.
Take a beautiful picture
of scenery or people.
Freeze the world and time
for just one second.
A fleeting moment
of stolen elegance
and beauty.
Take a photograph.
It lasts longer.
Sunday 16th September 2018 3:13 am
Shards
Jeans in the right drawer.
Shorts in the left one.
Soni was unpacking her life for the seventh time
in sixteen years.
It was close to midnight,
but she wanted to get it done now
or else she’d never finish.
Her eyes drooped and
she fought the tiredness.
But it won and she was soon
passed out on the mattress on the floor that
served as her bed.
She was soon dre...
Tuesday 11th September 2018 10:29 pm
Tell me what you think
Tell me what you think of my words,
my poems,
the stories I create.
Tell me what you think of my wit,
my worlds I make,
the way I write.
Tell me what you think I do well,
could do better,
give me another outlook on my writing.
Tell me what you think because
your opinions matter.
They help me realize how well I write,
what I do well,
what I did or wrote wrong...
Tuesday 11th September 2018 8:52 pm
Corrections have been made
I have realized my wrongs and
am now trying to right them.
My head was foggy when I wrote that the future was female.
It’s actually going to be a joint effort,
both male and female and
everyone in between.
I have seen the universe from a different angle,
and I can see my mistakes better.
Some I still cannot solve,
I have no idea what to do and what I did.
But thos...
Tuesday 11th September 2018 8:32 pm
born to do something
In, out.
In, out.
I calmed my breathing.
I righted my head.
I pieced together my thoughts and read.
But I couldn’t focus.
I had the urge to write.
About what?
I had no idea.
I have the night to myself.
So I thought about my worst-case scenarios.
And the events that had happened in the past few days.
Discrimination.
Racism.
Sexism.
ARGH!!
I wanted t...
Tuesday 11th September 2018 2:52 am
the future is female
We are strong.
We are smart.
We are brave.
We are hope.
We are bold.
We are dedicated.
We aren’t appreciated for who we are.
We can do so much more than they limit us to.
We can prove everyone wrong.
We are mighty warriors.
Women can do anything men can.
We can write songs and poems and books
and make changes to history for the better.
We can love things th...
Monday 10th September 2018 4:31 am
My hopeless love
I need help.
seriously.
The teacher said to meditate.
focus on one thing.
close your eyes if you want.
i sat like she did.
cross-legged,
hands on ankles,
back straight,
and calm.
I pictured her.
Her face.
Her eyes.
Her smile.
After, I sighed and felt depressed.
I always feel depressed.
She helps.
But when I realize she’s imaginary,
I wilt li...
Saturday 8th September 2018 4:34 am
i remember
I will remember
my faults and my flaws
my wrongs and my failures.
I will remember
the people who stood by me
the ones who didn’t leave.
i will remember
how they hurt me
how they knocked me down.
i will remember
the sorrow that haunts me
the one that follows me everywhere.
But most of all,
I remember her.
the way she used her sarcasm and wit like I do.
...Sunday 2nd September 2018 6:35 am
When i fall
When I fall, I fall hard.
when I cry, I cry in secret.
i hide so much from everyone.
i lie to so many people.
I pretend that I’m not hurt or damaged, but I am.
and even I know that.
i live in worlds I design to escape the torture of reality.
i take up sanctuary in the world of fandom.
i have very few friends.
Real and temporary.
i don’t trust anyone, yet I’m too trus...
Sunday 2nd September 2018 6:26 am
Haunted
As I type, I cry.
I cry a river of tears,
enough to drown the whole world in.
I thought I had cried enough.
I thought that they’d already killed all of my favorite characters
I thought everyone had already left.
The sky is stormy and you cannot see the stars.
Just like me.
My stars have been hidden by the dark cloud of
depression and death.
Even in giant crowds of...
Thursday 30th August 2018 3:04 am
Spiderwebs
The glistening strands of the pearly web
glitter in the sunrise.
The gentle breeze makes it sway from side to side,
just like the leaves on the tree.
If you rip the web,
you rip long hours of hard work.
I guess I can relate to this.
But it doesn’t stop me from accidentally destroying
them anyway.
The lies they told spun me a web.
One that shines in the sunlight.
...Tuesday 28th August 2018 11:49 am
The Lies They Tell
The lies that they tell you make so much sense.
You have no choice but to believe them.
They tell you what seems like the truth,
A pretty twisted version of it.
We lie all the time.
Everyone has.
No one is safe from the world.
The lies haunt you day and night.
You wonder whether it's right.
They don't care for anything but themselves,
and the lies take advantage of th...
Tuesday 7th August 2018 5:37 pm
A Friendship Divided By Land and Sea (Literally)
The water is up over her head.
No sound can get through the barrier of liquid.
Cienna finds herself with a choice.
Stay here in her underwater paradise,
or go back to the torture of life above.
No, i cannot. Never again.
No more of the pain the sunny days and happy people bring.
None of the agony the families bring about when they look at her with pity.
So sad, they say, th...
Sunday 1st July 2018 9:15 pm
Nightmares
Lem runs through the jungle,
cold and scared.
The snake and the tiger come near.
The snake is huge,
a threatening figure.
As is the ferocious tiger.
Lem is frozen
as they come near.
Frozen in place by his very fear.
Run! Run! his mind screams.
But he cannot move.
Right as the tiger and snake reach him,
he jolts awake.
The nightmares plague him.
The d...
Sunday 1st July 2018 9:07 pm
Storms and Sorrows
He stands in the rain
soaked to the skin
wondering where in the world she has been.
A girl sits on the floor,
leaning on a cabinet,
writing a letter to someone she knows probably won't read it.
She's safe inside,
he's out in the rain.
He walks away,
willing to try another day.
She walks out into the storm,
not wanting those inside to see her cry.
She does a lot...
Friday 29th June 2018 9:44 pm
Alone in Her Agony
Bella feels like she's drowning
in a sea of sorrow.
She feels like she's suffocating
in all her pain.
She feels her eardrums
shattering with yells.
She feels her soul
turn circles in her body.
Some see the pain
etched on her face,
but do they do anything about it?
The answer is no,
she is left to her agony.
She walks the streets in silence
while the wo...
Thursday 28th June 2018 2:44 pm
Think
Think about the times your actions
never made the thing that you intended happen.
Think about your actions
that you did
that lead to what happened today.
Think about your future,
the things to come.
Your past
and the things you did.
See, unlike some,
you have a chance
to turn your wrongs around.
Thursday 28th June 2018 2:38 pm
Forbidden Love (Part 1)
If I follow you into the darkness of the night,
can I trust you to tell me it's alright?
If I run away with you and don't look back,
can I count on you to cut me some slack?
That's what Larissa thinks as she watches Sam sleep,
so peaceful and gentle.
His eyes open a peep.
"Larissa..." he says, eyes full of love.
"Sam, I would do anything for you." she replies,
making up...
Tuesday 12th June 2018 11:22 pm
Wonder and Worry
The children are all tucked in,
Mother's said goodnight,
turned out the light,
and closed the door.
Almost immediately,
three are asleep.
But the oldest lies awake,
mind working away.
She thinks about storms
and horns
and babies born.
Her brow furrows
as she thinks,
whar have we done?
There's too much death,
suffering,
hunger,
war,
depression,
...Monday 28th May 2018 9:38 pm
Lemons and Lemonade
Life gives you lemons,
you make lemonade.
But where do you get
all the sugar for
mine?
Monday 28th May 2018 9:28 pm
Shells
Shells are everywhere
on the beach.
Conch shells,
clam shells,
random fragments
of once full, beautiful shells
all scattered on the sand.
I wish they weren't so plentiful.
They keep getting under my feet.
Monday 28th May 2018 9:27 pm
Bird
A little bird floats up,
high into the air.
Going up,
up,
up,
to who knows where.
I watch,
I wait,
to see where it's going.
I hope in my heart
it knows what it's doing.
Monday 28th May 2018 9:25 pm
Light
Light
pierces the darkness.
It shines like a star,
like the sun.
I wish it would go away.
It's giving me a headache.
Monday 28th May 2018 9:20 pm
Pretending
Pretending what I do
doesn't hurt.
Pretending who I am isn't
broken.
Pretending that I don't need help
when I need it most.
Pretending like I have everything
I'll ever need.
Pretending that my life's
not a mess.
Pretending like I have
a place in society.
Pretending like I
belong.
Pretending like my life
is good when really,
it's anything but.
...
Monday 28th May 2018 9:17 pm
The world around you
Gray, gray,
A gray, blue, day.
It shines in my mind like a star.
It rains and rains all day and night
Just like how I feel at the moment.
Take a look at the world around you.
What does it look like?
School shootings,
Hungry children,
War and fighting,
Day after day
After day after day.
What I see is awful.
I watch in silence.
I read the views of other...
Saturday 26th May 2018 9:19 pm
Follow in the Footsteps
Follow in the footsteps
of those who lived before.
Follow in the footsteps of your
relatives and family.
Follow in the footsteps of your
best friends.
But what if you choose
not to?
Saturday 26th May 2018 9:05 pm
To Start Over
If you could take
just one step
backwards,
would you take
it?
To take back all
the things
you said
and did
wrong?
To make up with
the people you
fought with?
To take the chances you left
behind?
To solve the problems
you didn't fix?
To make your past ideas
a reality?
Would you take that
chance?
Saturday 26th May 2018 8:57 pm
Swim Part 2
Goggles snapped on,
towel gone,
I dive into
the endless blue.
Bubbles rise
up and
break on
the surface
when I let out
a breath.
Tossing beach balls,
breathless from
laughing.
I twirl around,
soaked from
the water.
A thousand
pool noodle fights,
dodgeball games,
volleyball fails,
and bubbles later,
I emerge from
the pool.
Dre...
Friday 25th May 2018 10:23 pm
Swim Part 1
Children laugh.
Children splash
in the endless blue
of the pool.
Splish!
Splash!
Kids leap in,
performing
their elaborate
jumps and
dives for
the parents.
They scream
with delight
as they are
hit with
water.
One rides and
alligator.
Another waves
a pool noodle.
Others just
swim.
Friday 25th May 2018 10:19 pm
Lies
They get you
into messes
you cannot
fix.
They allow
you to get
away with
whatever you did
wrong.
Lies can be
good.
Lies can be
bad.
Lies end up
throwing you
under the
bus.
When all
seems lost,
one thing comes
to save you.
The
truth.
Friday 25th May 2018 10:15 pm
Tape
Tape
holds things
together
after
they've fallen apart.
Prolonged existence
for those
cherished objects that
you love.
Tape notebooks.
tape pages
in books.
Tape relationships
and seat cushions
and folders
and everything else.
Tape solves
everything.
Friday 25th May 2018 10:13 pm
the Fence
The fence
between
you and
her
separates you
indefinetly.
The fence
connects
the two yards
from one end
to the other.
The fence
has holes
and loose boards
for your spying
pleasure.
A fence
is a
wonderous thing.
Friday 25th May 2018 10:10 pm
Bridges
Build,
build,
build a
bridge
to people
you don't
know.
Burn,
burn,
burn the
bridge to
old friends
you forgot.
Now you
can start
anew.
No more
bridges for
you.
Friday 25th May 2018 10:08 pm
Words
Small words
cn make
big things.
Ripples in
a lake.
Food on
a plate.
Anything
you could
imagine.
So let
the words
out.
Watch them
work their
magic
right in
front of
you.
Friday 25th May 2018 10:05 pm
Ashes
Ashes, ashes,
we all fall
down,
down,
down,
into the land
of no return.
Mwah ha ha!
There
is
no
return.
Friday 25th May 2018 10:02 pm
Fall
Falling,
falling,
through the sky.
The stars
wink at me
as I pass
them by.
Whizzing past those
cumulus clouds,
cirrus,
stratus,
and so much more.
I can
make it.
Or so I
think.
Friday 25th May 2018 12:42 am
Puzzle Pieces
My life
is a puzzle.
Different pieces
fit together,
others don't.
But in the end,
they all fit
and make
me.
Friday 25th May 2018 12:40 am
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