the golden ratio (2+2=5)
I spent the night of the crash speaking to Morpheus
Telling him how your bones rattled
Not like the psithurism of the trees in winter
But like a hessian sack full of river smooth rocks
Not tectonically, nothing as monumental
But like sticks brittle from frost
A personal earthquake
Marrowed pins pushing through your beautiful sack of organs
I told him how in the...
Monday 12th December 2016 3:14 pm
see, saw, seen, sworn
Red string draped across the bare branches of an acacia tree
Then pulled taut
The emasculation of kitchen scissors
She said 'sometimes it is beautiful just to survive'
Sometimes you give up on yourself
Just to keep up
But what does that really mean for our soul
Trapped in amber, staring out at the children playing in the park
The sun basting your tender frame with h...
Friday 9th December 2016 7:35 pm
though we kneel before you like a child
like a tantric paste daubed across the night sky
we danced. tracing sine waves like semaphore with
hateful eyes glistening under the dull bloom of the universe.
lids glued shut with sleepless shrapnel, lashes meeting tear
streaked cheeks. though we kneel before him like a child,
he does not hear our pleas. it took a lifetime, father, for us to raise
the white flag and kiss...
Wednesday 7th December 2016 12:36 pm
upon this tidal wave of young blood
My mind is a tomb where the gods sleep
To awaken in my dreams
Past and future blur in to the present
My hearts ink bleeds, staining the parchment of the days
It took my mother three days to evict me from her soft place
Aching for the blade to cut me out
Peeling the flesh from the sacred ground
An explosion of screaming guilt and bloody flesh
To lay roots at the foot...
Wednesday 30th November 2016 4:45 pm
take me to tokyo where the lights may blind me
I am smoking in bed and reading an article about
The human soul weighing the same as a cigarette
While my daily allowance of untapped clamor
Forms snow like crusts on the eggshell sheets
How do people keep it together in this world
When only sleep winds back the ball of yarn
That unravels slowly throughout the day
A wet thread of fatigue that snakes through my hous...
Wednesday 23rd November 2016 11:46 pm
a clenched fist full of your ribs, balaam, would mend the ways of many who are lost at sea
and so i spat
humanity?!
humanity is but a cleft palette
mutilating the angelic face of the earth
such cancer will not be irradiated with light
nor love will drown its feeble hive mind.
a sword! a sword!
diamond ricasso sharpened with hate
now watch me cleave from socket, rend
this vile wart that shocks the sirens light
and bury a mile high
the demons foul tha...
Wednesday 16th November 2016 10:56 pm
morning dew
[sweet little jenny]
her hair stands
erect[licked]
when kissing
when kissed
likethewind
blowsleaves
fromdripping
branches
not because
sheloveshim
but because
daddy spread her legs
in the dust of the
tool shed
a kissing
a kissing
(we all fall down)
he would
give her
all the shakes
Saturday 12th November 2016 8:53 pm
lay my neck on this block of wood but make it one clean swing
[i lay my head
on the chest
of
god]
[but i hear
[not a][ ]
[heartbeat]
forihave
[gone]
[so very
far]
but further
[further
i must go]
Friday 11th November 2016 9:43 pm
cracked
egg you are shot through with veins like a mother’s swollen teat
egg you are with feathered with mucus, like snot in a shell
egg you are a sparkling white albumen and a pallid, jaundiced yolk
whisked with cream and pepper you become a truffled cloud of disappointment
egg you are shit out, sat on, hatched or caught
will you be a mothers world or enrobed in cheap mayonnaise
perhaps...
Tuesday 1st November 2016 8:44 pm
alva, who is darkness
alva is who appears at midnight
with a mechanical needle one hundred metres long
sucking bleak black blood from the acne scars of mother
alva is here when i am alone and i lock my door
peeling crescent moons of rose red flesh
alva is the sin
that lets me think i can get away with it
the foolish pride
the gluttony
the decaying colostrum from your darkened nipples
alva ...
Wednesday 26th October 2016 12:31 pm
silt
its easier now with time to afford names to the neurosis that
i cast around you like piano wires, those that you simply laughed
off and those that edged into your flesh like pyracantha, strangling
the life from those people irresponsible enough to ask more than
my name. those that i held under the chill waters of my discontent,
bubbles rising like full stops from steel blue lips tha...
Sunday 23rd October 2016 2:43 pm
seasonal attraction disorder
take me in your autumn arms
for you are every photon
take me by the hand and
kiss me softly on my spring lips
for you are every leaf that ever fell
every berry that stained the prints
of shaking summer fingers
now...
lets drift around this wintered world together
and pretend no one ever told us
how much we were supposed to love.
Tuesday 18th October 2016 8:22 pm
when a dog returns to consume its own vomit, it does so through choice and not hunger
at its best it is a glass over a candle,
blinkered, immediate. we are not past
or future, just anchored now, gripped
just tight enough to finger-paint lust
on bony shoulders, just a couple more
scratches to blame on the cat, our
wrists reddened by weekend revelry.
how stale it felt on a rainy wednesday
but still you had read online that it
helped, that it might make you ...
Sunday 16th October 2016 7:04 pm
all we ever wanted was everything
a man is placing silver coins on the eyes of his friend
who died in the night, a lonely wind blown into his mouth and through his marrow
and now the sulphurous glare of our greatest ally sends life through infinity
as it will until the teeth of our society are smashed from our gums
by the bayonet of impotence and jealousy that is the human race
and even then she will shine until the...
Friday 14th October 2016 4:31 pm
fabric
boiling waves of deep sine wave bass –
flick the back of my eyes like the tip of a tongue
a butterfly-and im sweating through my socks
and im shedding my cells like midnight snakeskin
now you are walking slowly through a strobe light
you seem not to move at all
there/gone/there/gone
and you are my friend
and you are my friend
and you are my friend
and y...
Thursday 13th October 2016 11:34 am
mechanism
sometimes it takes the form of a pocket watch
or a shard of glass
we both saw him place the noose around her neck
a choker too tight with diamonds
nails bitten low enough to bleed
a sliver of blood blooming at the tip
placed softly like a crustless sandwich between pale chapped lips
tang of iron and medium rare steak puddles of it now
walk softly, softly t...
Monday 10th October 2016 2:07 pm
eleuthoromania
sometimes we just had to run
our eyes would meet across the bedroom floor
your leg would be twitching
mine would too
that nagging, lactic vibration just below the knees
when fathers thunder could be heard above the radio
despite the volume being so high that all that came out was white noise
sometimes we just had to run
run across the yard
with hollywood rain lashing in ...
Thursday 6th October 2016 1:03 pm
opiate rapture in e-minor
when darkness fell at last
the stars fell too
descending from heaven like so many glistening eyes
the gospel told us we would ascend to heaven
but the truth was contradictory
the heavens came to us
on that freezing cold night in late November
with our breath like dragons, our hands clammy despite the loss of feeling
we stood surrounded by countless burning candles
a brig...
Tuesday 4th October 2016 11:42 am
i took you to the brightest places on earth so that i could see who you truly are
blue mountains, australia: there is more light here than dark, space is milky, pop and wheeze
i suspect you have been sleeping with my sister, my brother
svalbard: aurora borealis paints feathers of jade on a rich tapestry of pitch black
did she scream for you like she did for me
kalahari desert, early morning: sand melts to glass melts to water melts the eyes
a trillion billion pan...
Sunday 2nd October 2016 12:01 am
one step beyond
you spent so long in that obsidian chamber
that you named each worm of light that crept in
named them based on the complexity of the pattern
that exploded behind your eyelids
for to open your eyes and view them would be blinding
this one is paul
a single line pulsing oranges and blues
next cronos
a ring of white heat around a pale, milky ball
once a week heimdallr struck...
Wednesday 28th September 2016 2:52 pm
little nightmares
bolt the door
mummy is in bed
with faberge eggs
with diamond rings
daddy is at work
his yarn slowly unravelling
in the stained armchair
let golden birds
flitter flutter
let rockets
shoot sparks
to the moon
let the wise old owl
take you by the hand
scrunch up your eyes
don’t let the tears out
if mummy calls
turn up the volume
if daddy screams
...Tuesday 27th September 2016 10:07 am
so kiss me, hold me and eat me
i would be good for eating
it started innocently enough
a bite of the lower lip
stretched just that touch too far
a nibble on the neck that left a muted firework of blood blisters for the rest of the day
the teeth marks you left in my index finger as i explored your mouth
you would be good for eating
it shifted so subtly that we barely noticed
like the gradually d...
Monday 26th September 2016 1:29 pm
anhedonia
he inhabits the tenuous dead space where
ampersands float beyond blinking spots of
daylight, lost in whorls of third eye blindness.
he is blasted new from fractious nerve
endings that shoot a thousand tiny deaths
through elements, through cosmic notes
lifted from the songbook of infinite night.
he whispers barbs like crude missiles tipped
with toxicities, hemlock ...
Sunday 25th September 2016 4:30 pm
the moon
no one ever thinks about the moon
how it must feel staring down at the earth
watching us love and fuck and destroy each other
premium tickets to an exhibition of annihilation
if the moon could talk
i think it would say
when the carrion picks the carcass clean
the blood that drips from his beak is always red
Saturday 24th September 2016 12:58 pm
snowflake 3
a tiny flake
your lips
fell to earth
whispered
then kissed my hot cheek
you smelt like heaven
and dissolved as we met
i dissolved when we met
a fragile alliance
like a snowflake
a moment in time
a tear rolled down my cheek
a tear in time and space
Friday 23rd September 2016 1:05 pm
snowflake 2
virgin flakes land soft explode on the tongue
the taste of promise of something beginning
and ending in an instant then pooling behind
the painted smiles of children.
and what are we but footprints in the snow
laid deep and resonant by crunching soles
a thousand tiny guides to the end times
then slate wiped by fresh fall.
Thursday 22nd September 2016 4:04 pm
snowflake
even under a microscope
snowflakes keep their magical shape
like charms cut from paper by smooth,
shaky hands during december.
if you are a snowflake i envy you
because i am trembling just below
the surface,
a ripple of pure light that burst forth
from god, has struck the morning dew
and now has no idea where to shine.
Wednesday 21st September 2016 1:13 pm
endgame
clouds like beautiful silk breeze against the cobalt sky
we walk through a field of dandelions
as time flows around us
quiet little monsters crawl over our skin
last week i saw him
like dirt trapped under a fingernail
your hands are sweaty
you are nervous
i turn to you and smile
everything turns to dust eventually
Tuesday 20th September 2016 11:20 am
klittra
in the time of leif ericson
from roughly hewn granite
a bright white elk struck forth
arrows jutting from its neck like needles
soft fur caked with blood
through smoke and fire that stung the mizzling sky
it opened its crackling mouth
muzzle appeared from muzzle
teeth gnashed at lip
tongues wrenched free, swallowed whole
and such a child was born that was both light a...
Sunday 18th September 2016 12:33 pm
the man that swallowed the sky
my mother used to tell me the tale
of the man who swallowed the sky
she said long ago there was a boy
whose life was spent in wanting
who looked for his answers at the bottom of a bottle
but found nothing of any use
so he looked elsewhere
in the prick of a needle
the haunt of serotonin
tobacco and gold
he consumed it all but found no relief
so he ate a girls heart
...Friday 16th September 2016 12:44 pm
the churning of the ocean of milk
south of the ruins of angkor wat
where nature long ago struck back at mankind
a fat white man wrings the heat from his t-shirt
while a 14 year old girl paces next to him
swollen with new life and heavy with shame
the roots spread through her temple
at night he dines in hotel bars
sweats in to his cold beer
while his bride lies in a darkened room
tears long ago ...
Thursday 15th September 2016 4:52 pm
liquid gold
the girl with galaxies in her veins
sits weeping in her bathroom
she casts a line down the drain
hopes to find her memories
memories of pyramid spices in marrakesh
of turmeric in bangladesh
of cayenne and bright green coffee beans
memories of the man with the tiny opal box
of the darkened rooms and double vision
pavements turn to gold and eyes turn milky
there is...
Wednesday 14th September 2016 12:39 pm
lemonade
with my shaking finger
i trace your ribs like mountains
i drink in the birdsong
lick the spit from your tongue
the calmest i ever felt
was when i reached for your hand
now the hate turns me on
like you never could
if this was war
our cities would be rubble
our eyes would sting with the dust of the fallen
our tears would feather the dirt
there is a...
Tuesday 13th September 2016 7:42 am
infinity
i tried to tell you how i felt about the universe
how i was overcome with the immensity of it
how i would wake up in the morning
with a vacuum between my heart and my gut
an empty space where my bravery should be
what is my motivation for this scene?
you are afraid
what am i afraid of?
of your own power
i don’t understand
don’t you believe in infinity?
so...
Sunday 11th September 2016 1:01 pm
dont know when but a day is gonna come
on tuesday we became the sky
pulled the clouds over our faces like shrouds
poured out vitriol from our mouths, the sun
took the silver sliver of the moon in to our arms and struck the hearts of our enemies
on wednesday we became the earth
tore clumps of sod and soil from the wounded land
used trees as spears, rocks as bullets
hurled tectonic plates, sent smashing against the w...
Saturday 10th September 2016 11:58 am
oh dear oh dear
upon opening the meat, venison, i smelt the blood,
a thick, violet paste, rancid like glue
as i dropped the cubes into the searing copper pan
I saw the maggots pop and crisp like discarded fingernails
some exploding entirely in the heat
still more maggots came then
searching for the moments between my bones
under the leather of my skin, sucking the marrow from my cartilage
...
Friday 9th September 2016 6:14 pm
the man stood in the corner of the room
what happens in your dream she asks
me on a day at a time i do not know
and i cannot speak i am just terrified,
terrified of him, the man from my past who
is now stood in the corner of the room
fading into the shadow of the filing cabinet
like a detuned radio and he stinks, oh god
he stinks like a summers waste bin and again
she asks me what is wrong and i turn to her
a...
Friday 9th September 2016 11:32 am
dunes
the sand lies within us just beneath the surface
but no one will find it not customs officials
or surgeons or cheap state psychologists
searching for photographs of smothered children
the sand we keep within us we draw it in
deep breath in and if we are lucky the fire
in our hearts is strong enough to melt it
into the glass that we use in our later years
to stare at our nei...
Thursday 8th September 2016 2:56 pm
basquiat
you never appreciated basquiat
i felt for you
you told me you only saw a childs scrawling
a cry for attention from a petulant teen
a mentally challenged adult hastily daubing a canvas
before the voices overwhelmed him
before the stench of the shit in the world got too much to bear
the tendrils of emetic despair wafting through the grate
in his run down bathroom
cartoon l...
Tuesday 6th September 2016 1:08 pm
lime
as a fire burns within me i sit in a hut
with a white eyed woman/milk-eyed/like marbles sunk into lips of bruised
fat/hair like rust on silk/each strand disintegrating in loops and leaves
in the solid breeze flowing from somewhere far eastern
and dangerous/where horns are ground for impotence and kaffir
lime leaves scent the air like the perfume of an elderly lady with
...
Monday 5th September 2016 2:58 pm
another day, another gin
the gap between the
platform and the train
he boards each night to
travel home was nothing
compared to the gap
between him and his family
Monday 5th September 2016 2:09 pm
cloak
my name is the sound
that you make late at night
the scream stuck
behind eyes glazed with sleep
fingernails riven
scraping oak boards
the shield of the moon
shuts down at my touch
a mystic
a savage
i come
Friday 2nd September 2016 3:50 pm
dirge
in veils of black crepe silk she rose
each night to tempt my tongue
a phoenix in mourning
at the window a whisper
a gap so small
the nursery lies empty
Thursday 1st September 2016 12:10 pm
ode to amy watson
in school you were a goddess to me
i dreamt of kissing your feet
you were the first girl to make me erupt
to coax out my seed
to transform a clueless boy in to one in tune with his body
but we never spoke
in college you were fading
the albatross of popularity sagged around your love bitten neck
the skirts became shorter to ensure the eyes remained fixed
while i...
Friday 26th August 2016 4:57 pm
daysleeper
by day we feast on sweaty mediocrity
hunched over keyboards dripping with seed
a thousand lovely ants shackled by sin
but the night is ours to wander
to stand under the colossal slate sky
our souls alive and burning like the first flame
brought to life by flint and tinder
we float up through roofs and windows
and set our minds free in the vastness of conscience
Thursday 25th August 2016 9:14 pm
the rabbit
i first encountered death at midnight
stumbling through the creaking pines
needles crackling under my bare feet
there lay the fallen rabbit, lit by the moon
its fur matted and stomach bloated
finally, i met death before my parents
could cut me off and sanitise the area
i poked and prodded with a stick purloined
from the tree where my urine was drying
and uncovered its si...
Wednesday 24th August 2016 7:34 pm
fallout
look straight at the sun when it is snowing.
see each flake flecked and fanged with fire.
at last this is not mere frozen rain, but skin,
human skin falling, in strips and patches, air
cloying with the stench of rubber and carbon.
iodine stains the fingers brown as hair sheds
from scalps thick grit with dust and detritus
Tuesday 23rd August 2016 12:56 pm
after we realised we were nothing we became everything
meeting someone between the hours of 2am and 5am
is different to meeting them during the day.
you speak to them in hushed tones, share the moment with them,
the idea that you are the only people left on earth,
the only people special enough to be up at this time,
a time whenever everyone else is deep in slumber
and you are left to appreciate how the world keeps tur...
Monday 22nd August 2016 10:34 pm
sewage
spitting on the carpet
waiting for the day to fade
allow the vomit to dry on the wall
so much easier to clean that way
push the chunks down the sink
through the little holes
to the nether realm
the place where the rats live
perhaps they will enjoy last nights dinner
perhaps they will enjoy the blood
the flat coca cola
matted fur and mangy teeth
i can hear them c...
Friday 19th August 2016 8:50 pm
the leaky tap
the leaky tap it mocks my plight
its dripping never ceases
and in the sweat sink of the night
its mockery increases
it tap tap taps upon my brain
my rest it does encumber
like lying ‘neath the pouring rain
it wont turn off
it wont give in
am i never to slumber
the leaky tap it will not stop
pitter patter pitter patter
i lie in bed and curse its leak
...Thursday 18th August 2016 1:52 pm
symbiosis visual poetry practice
not sure if this will work, im working on a piece of concrete/visual poetry for a journal that want poems on the theme of symbiosis. hoping i can somehow post it here although not sure if it will work so be prepared for edits and deletions galore.
edit. not worked so i have uploaded it on my profile as a photo. any feedback etc.
edit 2. think this is the link.
http://www.write...
Wednesday 17th August 2016 7:25 pm
kesnakesnakesnakesna
so this is the twenty first century
i am witnessing my mum lose her mind over email
each of us pour like cheap poster paint over the canvas of our daily lives
seeping into the nebulous cracks and depressing pits of routine
i have two tranquilizers left but three days until payday
the last novel i read portrayed a society a hundred years from now
where technology had become sentie...
Sunday 14th August 2016 9:24 pm
the destruction of small ideas
we three sit in syzygy
picking faults
parsing each sentence
you, the celestial centre
serene when seen from space
but roiling and folding on the surface
violent and beautiful
under heavy layers of make up
mascara landslides and fuck me red lips
me, the interloper
a mere satellite to your turbulent beauty
hoping your gravitational pull
will hook me in
and...
Friday 12th August 2016 11:02 pm
cold hands in warm fog
lying in the sun is the most self-destructive thing we can do
a chance at a slow death
melanoma
a chance at a quick death
burning skin
sizzling like bacon in a pan
fat rendering
hairs crackling
a pile of warm bones
there are crumbs in my bed
because sometimes i make sandwiches in bed
i have a table
but sometimes i make sandwiches in bed
which is to ...
Friday 12th August 2016 2:53 pm
i no longer feel like god is watching over me
can we hope to feel weightless again
under the scorn of mothers storm clouds
mother as gravity
mother as love
mother as the great tides of the moon
can we hitch a ride on a mayfly
the sweat from our hands slowly disintegrating his delicate wings
until we collapse to the floor
shaking and sweating
the foil breaks each time i need an answer
the bottl...
Thursday 11th August 2016 5:18 pm
insomniac
slick sheets cling like a shroud
full moon bruised sky
ceaseless thoughts fling sharp nails
tick tick ticking clock never stops never stops
its 2am tick tick tick
one bead of sweat crawls down my spine
i long for those pulses of exhaustion
those gloved hands wrapped around my throat
to sleep sweet dreams and stick for a brief eternity
ceaseless thoughts fling sharp nails
...Tuesday 9th August 2016 12:40 pm
a visit to the aquarium
think of life as a visit to the aquarium
stood stock still, perhaps with a loved one
perhaps alone
gazing at the tranquil verdi-gris wonder beyond the glass
mottled raphaels and muddied catfish grazing the bottom of the huge tank
the darting shoals of corydoras, scales gleaming in the golden light
the fluorescent coral reefs sheltering thousands of miniscule beings
now im...
Saturday 6th August 2016 12:26 pm
two dreams
last night
two dreams
i am in a stately home
that has been taken over by the military
like the one in 28 days later
they dress us up in santa outfits
so we are easy to identify among the green topiary and hedges
they release us one by one
give us five minutes to hide
then the snipers start picking us off one by one
one large lady makes it to the gate
but as sh...
Friday 5th August 2016 11:48 am
pissed jeans
this is how far i have fallen
i cut out your eyeballs and devour them whole
i sleep with your entrails
arranged carefully on the side of the bed where you used to lay
a t-shirt you once wore
the jeans that you outgrew
the gloves you wore that still smell of your hands
the expensive cream you rubbed on your palms after gardening
how i ridiculed you for buying such thing...
Wednesday 3rd August 2016 10:10 pm
some things to make me forget about the fact you died
do every stupid thing to make you feel alive – john darnielle
punch a wall to feel the blood run between your fingers
stick your fingers in the socket
tell your children they will never amount to anything
drink energy drinks until you shake
walk backwards up the stairs
switch hands
find a cactus and kiss it
stick your fingers in the desk fan
smash every bulb and emb...
Tuesday 2nd August 2016 8:16 am
congratulations on leaving your bed
at least once a week i have a dream that i can only wake up from
by rubbing orange segments in to my eyes
the average cloud weighs the same as a hundred elephants
i think we should get awards for doing mundane things like washing and leaving the house
this way we would make depressed people feel better about not being able
to achieve the lofty goals of the ‘normal’
...
Sunday 31st July 2016 1:30 pm
the key
new dawn
salt blue slate grey
push my head down under water
see me bobbing
feel me reaching
save me bright light release me
from sin i am saved
then you played my favourite song
as we danced in a circle
around
and around
each step
as waves
each hand
held tight
flowing silk
flowing water
we all
rais...
Tuesday 26th July 2016 3:50 pm
fire dance
i just can't stop thinking
about being naked on a wrecking-ball
and licking hammers...
am i the only one that hates queen size beds?
buy the right size bedding for the size of the bed
complete with fake names
i always hated your pussy
die alone tonight
THE DANCER MADE FIRE DANCE
Monday 25th July 2016 9:28 pm
mother?
mother
you seem almost disappointed
now i have grown hair
and left your breast
mother
at times you look at me
as one eyes a disappointing windfall
its grey, milky paste still lingering in the mouth
mother
is it that you can no longer protect me
or that i can no longer protect you
from life and its unending troubles
mother
you said i was not mad...
Monday 25th July 2016 3:25 pm
we're going to need a bigger boat
sleep betrays me again
there are faces in the artex that only i can see
i melt at thirty seven degrees
i want to break your heart
there is a dead star in the night sky with more hope than me
have i ever been bitten by a shark before
i can feel the teeth puncturing my skin
how soft my leg would feel between its jaws
how it would drag me down
the water turning red around m...
Saturday 23rd July 2016 12:23 pm
dear sun, thanks for everything. love everyone.
and in the back of every car and the pocket of every coat there is a flask
full of light and the light tastes good like hope and the light tastes bitter
because with hope comes expectation and with expectation comes the
realisation that not everything is going to work out perfectly every time
some things may not work out at all but for those times when the light
is bitter we can que...
Friday 22nd July 2016 1:51 pm
i cant take you tonight but i will be back for you so pack a bag
there is a light within you
it sieves through your pores
it spatters the walls
it draws the moths
its crepuscular
its iridescent
its magnificent
my god
there is so much light within you
Thursday 21st July 2016 10:01 pm
benedictus
so softly flowers grow through the blood bray of the cello
thick slate clouds wound darkest jet night skies
violin raindrops patter at rough leather faces
rusted horns rip questions through shell shocked silence
the angelic chorus spit out ragged sutures
seraphim explode in ears blocked with mud
Hosanna in excelsis
the armed man goes to war
Hosanna in excelsis
...
Thursday 21st July 2016 9:43 am
blossoms
A short, philosophical piece using text manipulated from 5* reviews of the book 'Fifty Shades of Grey' taken from Amazon UK.
my wife loves collecting and reading books
pressing blossoms between the pages over and over again.
all life experiences should be mutually shared.
tear out my heart to soak up oil.
cry a few times, sometimes with joy.
Wednesday 20th July 2016 8:11 pm
cold pizza, nudity and the moon
at five a.m energy sieves through the minds of the asleep
creating pools of thought on the cool pillows and satin sheets
but i am awake tonight because i had the dream again
the dream where we are eating animal biscuits
and you are naked on the floor
and i am using the elephants and rhinos to enact a safari scene
on the jutting ranges of your ribs
and it is hot so hot that the...
Wednesday 20th July 2016 11:50 am
what will be easier would be easier
it would be easier for me if it was
1945
and we could break open a little pill pot with a hardback copy of Céline
spend a short lifetime staring at each other
sweating blossom like basho
it would be easier for me if jazz was still
it
if i could wear a hat without being the only other person in the room
who is wearing a hat(?)
it would be easier i...
Monday 18th July 2016 6:16 pm
worms
in the absolute darkness i have worms in me
the worms are made of kissing you
its dark but i still cannot sleep
i am smothered alone
Monday 18th July 2016 12:23 pm
passed
will you see me like i saw him
slamming his son into a kitchen cabinet
blood matting in blonde hair
fear white fingers searching in the drawer
Monday 18th July 2016 12:01 pm
sick
this will be the third day i have not wrote a poem
wordsbackupinsidemefesteringandfermenting
Capital Letters scratch at my throat as i heave them onto the screen
punctuation like yawns are, catching.
Sunday 17th July 2016 10:53 pm
feral
and i become a dull red c flat
played on a rusted harp
brain frayed and fuzzed
furred over like a cheap peach
and i become a drum roll
each skin beat thrumming
each crackling snare fizzing and popping
like pop rocks and coke
and i become your voice
angelic sexuality
like the sun rose out from your throat
rays and flares spinning and spitting
dribbling down your ...
Friday 15th July 2016 2:02 pm
a cat, a bird, a rock
it was raining
back then it often did
wellies and yellow coats for both of us
me thomas the tank engine
you danger mouse
the wind nearly blew us over
but we stood firm
in a hundred years they would name stars after us
a bit of wind wouldn’t keep us down
you tore off like you always did
ignoring mums warnings
the safety net of childhood would hold you tight
strai...
Thursday 14th July 2016 12:05 pm
a nonspecific party in a nonspecific city
daybreak
nine thirty
wake up
two paracetemol
two ibuprofen
one can tenants
ready to go
bus to town
key of ketamine on the way
headphones on
talking heads
endless triumphal drums
songs about houses
bus stop
bum a smoke
get to town
three pints in spoons
meet up with joe
no money left
no problem joe gives me it on tick
joe says there is a pa...
Wednesday 13th July 2016 11:24 pm
pops
sweet little bird
thunderous grey tom
no contest
snow settles
on the lip
melts
leaves
green gold grey gone
time passes
stick thrown
russet blur
returns
Wednesday 13th July 2016 11:59 am
mother
and we drill into her
and we plug her mouth with sand
and we burn holes in her hair
and we tie her up in tight binds so she cannot break free
and we swarm over her like lilliputians raping and wrecking
and we stub our cigarettes and crack pipes out in her eyes and on her arms
and we sit so tightly on her chest and lungs that where once burst forth a victorious answer
now there...
Tuesday 12th July 2016 12:21 pm
inter arma enim silent leges
what insane work is this we undertake daily
to free ourselves from freedom to clip cuffs
around our reddened wrists to shackle our
god given right to fly free over the rivers of
babylon to soar into the skies and talk to the
angels.
what futile resistance we place like
rotten fences, barriers around our souls while
smiling and laughing and dying bit by bit
in front ...
Sunday 10th July 2016 5:07 pm
loss (tanka)
i walk under pale skies
the sun falls to the ocean
scotch rich on my tongue
how many lonely moons
to dim your blinding light
Saturday 9th July 2016 10:46 pm
poetry
to make sense of the world as best we can
this is how we live
you are a quatrain to me
you are a sonnet
my mother is a villanelle
her brain corroded
the violence of words take flight from our pens
my heart is the white space
between lines of faded text.
Saturday 9th July 2016 5:35 pm
(star)
our star makes its weary way once more
dead neon cityscapes
forced will shine light endless cut throat razors
illuminate silence burn justice shadows
our star makes its weary way coruscating drops of
dull red blood
Friday 8th July 2016 9:59 am
fever
i push them back the memories of what we did
of what we did that day i push them back and
keep them down like fermenting fruit our rotten
lies i push them back down to the pit of my stomach
where they roil and rumble like a faraway storm i
keep them in locked in my bodies cell behind ribcage
bars i keep them in no light no visitors just water and
bread to keep them in but some...
Thursday 7th July 2016 9:29 am
blasphemy
that night i dreamt of lying with jesus
feeling his tears running down the small of my back
his breath on the nape of my neck
setting hairs alight
why? he whispered
but i could not answer
he held me close and told me i was loved
kissed my bare skin
and as i felt the knife run my wrists
we lay dying on a bed of thick white stars
the blood pooling at our feet
the lig...
Wednesday 6th July 2016 11:20 am
click clack
this morning i am mountains
each word i sing an avalanche
each stride i take a tectonic shift
i survey the world below me
i wrap my fingers round your throat
i play you like a lyre
my little orpheus
i keep you in a hole
i dress you in leaves
how fine it would be
to disconnect your spine
Tuesday 5th July 2016 9:16 am
the whale
i thought nothing of the sobbing child
running the other way
his parents wearing masks of unrest
eyes darting to the ground when we met
why didn’t you tell us
i led you down the steep steps
carved into the rock, affording no view of the sea
each one shifting from mud to sand
gradually
as we neared the beach
why the hell didn’t you tell us
the ki...
Monday 4th July 2016 11:31 am
fermi's paradox
fermi’s paradox asks us an important question
if drake’s equation tells us that the amount of inhabited planets in our galaxy
just our galaxy
is between 1000 and 100000000
then where are all the aliens?
fermi’s paradox gives us many theories, from very convincing and slightly sad
the size of the galaxy means we are unlikely to ever meet any other intelligent race
down to the l...
Sunday 3rd July 2016 9:08 pm
this light is a bird
-sometimes i feel so much that all i can do is sleep
i watch youtube videos of sunsets at triple speed
i imagine the sun is dropping into the sea like a giant bloody ball
i close my eyes and wait for the waves of beautiful fury to wash over me
they never come
you never come
they beat another man to death last night
they shot another woman on the streets
...
Sunday 3rd July 2016 11:10 am
i loved me but now i'm dead
this town smells like egg
the lines in the elders faces look like they have been sandblasted on
no crows feet here
just bird shit
years of forlorn drudgery
decades of exhaustion
and for what
for a smile?
for a comfy bed?
better think again
kit kats four for a pound in home bargains
grab hold of this little ember of hope
while we suc...
Saturday 2nd July 2016 11:22 am
forty milligram xanax blues
watch the painters
watch the poets
drug the children
don’t let them create
watch the authors
watch the musicians
drug the populous
don’t let them create
watch the smokers
give them beer instead
don’t let them wander
don’t let them wonder
watch the third eye
keep it firmly shut
don’t let people find out
how firmly they are fucked
drug the children
...
Friday 1st July 2016 10:42 pm
who knows you?
four kittens drowned in a plastic bag that someone paid 5p for
my mother hangs up on my failed suicide plea because her jam is boiling over
and really it is a nightmare to get out.
i sit at the breakfast table picking rusted nails out of my porridge
you swear you never put them there
i have had a migraine for fourteen years
the last three notes i to...
Friday 1st July 2016 2:24 pm
adagietto
nothing sums up the inherent sadness of the world like mahler
he seemed to just ‘get it’, whatever it was
listen to symphony no. 5 and he could be sound tracking a million of our minor breakdowns
a thousand broken hearts
a hundred heroes lost to war
a dozen dry men down to their last pennies
or a single drowning child
sometimes i think it’s just me and mahler that can see how ...
Wednesday 29th June 2016 7:06 pm
gas
the rusted smoke of a cigarette dribbling serenely through the night sky.
the ethereal chaos of liquid nitrogen, broiling and burning out of the canister moments after reducing a crisp, red rose into a thousand heartbroken pieces.
the quasi-panic of rising darkness pouring up from behind a hill or forest, before sweet relief at the discovery of a bonfire, a charcoal burner, a farmer in contr...
Tuesday 28th June 2016 11:53 am
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