This abusive relationship
Was never supposed to take a life
When it's all you think you deserve
A death wish can seemed like love

I believe you that no one understands
Societies can never true love
The road was traveled just abandoned 
By the fuckers that gave it a promise
Leaving wasn't an option

We're all looking for a home with a nameless face
The person that loves us the most is ...

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I was broken and bleeding 
I still never gave up
So tell me what's next
After every word I said about him
Has come out to be the truth

When I tell you I won't be here after September
Do you denied them words to?
I know that I'm not enough
It's a feeling that swallowed me whole

When a memory will you understand I loved you
Because the damage to my heart isn't going to be fixed
I thin...

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I'm not going to make it to Twenty-seven
I'm too busy trying to make it to Heaven
Oh shit I forgot suicide makes you go to hell
That's better than suffering everyday
I rather die than live a lie

I'll start cutting again 
If you won't judge me
I told her that should be the death of me
I was not lying

Love is so messed up 
That you'll start drugs too forget 
Just for you to end up 
W...

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You left everything burning
But the love you couldn't cling to
So this is separation anxiety 
Pushing down your tongue

I was so sick I thought you could love
Locked myself back up in my room
For you could never see me again
So on this anniversary 

I found out firefly 
Your ways are so unkindly
My heart was the casualty to your escape

So fuck your attention they were only for greed

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If home is where the heart
Then I haven't been home in a long time
So tell me I'm wrong 
I'll tell you this sad sappy story

Of this boy that loved a girl
That he wasted his whole fucking life
Only live to see 26 because his heart strings broken
So tell me that's not love
I'll tell you that you're full of shit

She gave a promise that she would marry him
She found a boy that could trea...

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So I don't know who I am anymore
I know I'm far from happy
I know I think about killing myself
That wouldn't fix it 
The pain would just seep into other people

So do I let the pain hold me hostage
I used to think that self mutilation would help
For a bit I was clear

There's no Heaven there's no hell
There's just me thinking to myself
If I stop breathing would it fix my problem
The o...

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This is the story about Mr Man Whore
With a fiance at home
He fucks another girl from work
what a douchebag right
 
What are lowlife 
Who want to fuck them all 
What are lowlife 
Who want to fuck them all 
Fuck them all!

What another douchebag
To add to the population
(We don't want him at all!)
I would sell my soul to get her out of the situation
She's addicted to bad boys and I'm...

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I never feel anything in this world
Suicidal mused of how over whale I am
So take this meat suit off
Tell me how crumbly I am
Maybe then she would have stayed 
Just cute without the e so just to mention it
Fuck E he told me he was a straight G 
But that was a Lego without the L 

When he couldn't keep his word 
This is a reminder how his best friend 
Wants to fuck every girl he gets wit...

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I just met the most perfect girl
So I'm going to push her away
Before I can ruin her life
Please hate me at the end

The alcohol speaks louder than you
Scream at me and tell me I need help
I'm fine choking on the alcohol now

So dose this acid rain hurt? 
I'm acid tripping.

Please don't come around
If I'm on the ground
Cutting at the skin until it bleed
I know this isn't what I nee...

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Put a bullet in my brain
My life's a hurricane
I don't think there's a coming back
Slow dancing into the coffin

I don't want to feel like this forever
If I have to, I will
Cover me in 6 ft of dirt and leave me to rot
I miss when I was your everything
You got me all confused 
I don't want to die

Keep me in your arms
Bury me in my favorite skinny jeans
I've been an unwritten dream la...

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I've been trying to more on 
But it's all you in my dreams
So what the fuck am I living for
I don't see the point of living without you

I might be a little drunk 
You're the memory that makes me 
Say one more shot I'll be blacked out soon
So what the fuck am I living for
I don't see the point of living without you

I thought you all said I'd be numb by now
The lack of her in my hands ...

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The worst thing I can say
Is I hate walking by your house
I have to go by there to go anywhere
So ripped my heart out
You're the reason I'll never find love

I'm so sorry for blaming you
I clearly still love you
So it has to be you
So tell me to go fuck off
Like every word isn't already stuck in my head

I guess I'll let another person down
Realized I still wasn't over you
So Miss Ca...

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Just take my heart out 
Leave it on your fucking kitchen table
So leave Kentucky today 
I'll leave my gun under the pillow
I won't make you sorry that you loved me

Smoke good kush 
Get money
These actions never led me back to you

I'm a fuckboy but I never hurt you in any way
I self-harmed again
You fucked my best friend again
You only talk to me when you're bored
So hide all my fee...

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A pack a day, I hope way.

A stop sign a quarter of a mile away.

But still the rain doesn't come today.

So I can pray for her way here.

But that day will never come.

For a broken man is only shattered away.

For the day he lost her will always remain.

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She says that she needs a daddy 
But I'm more of a baller
She's calling for an SS emergency
But I've been calling for a SS Anne
I can't build no Castle 
I'm just a lonely bastard
so cut me off a little faster

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My interior is kind of crappy
I would fix the brain but I'm off my hinges
Don't believe the terrible sight
The wind only blows when I miss you
So does your cigarette smoke blow to me

Please don't 
Please don't dissipate 
Please don't dissipate into
Because I've been feeling kind of low

How far do I have to go until I find the old you
Because this new you has a material hold
On this ...

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The killer was the memories for those stain the skin a permanent red

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He loved her more than any soul could
She mustered out that he was too nice for her
So he became a bad boy
By the time it was too late she already had a child
So we took off all the fake drawer in everything
Looked in the mirror and told himself that he would wait here
Even when all his friends thought he was crazy
He stay true to what he believed in
He loved her even when he couldn't love...

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 He'll check his life away wishing that he could hold her hand one more time for the ending was always dyer.

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A cynical smile, what a loaded question
Could you please not be this way
You're giving me reasons to write again

So break my bones
Leave me all alone
A portrait of a family but it only has me
So could you remember this
What a loaded question

I broke the skin
The blood started, bubbling up
So could you tell me this is an answer
What do you want from me now
Because I'm giving up

I...

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I'd rather die then these be true
Than let the blight in my mind 
Leave me dry like a lie
So remember me not it's fine
I've always been a true believer
Don't burn yourself the lights still never shine

I'm just the devil's regret
That he can't take back
The closer I get to god life make sense
I can't let go of that it's a hope 

So do you think the sinner 
Could sit on the sun
Withou...

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I miss before I was numb
Now there's just a body of blood
In a rainstorm that's washing that away
To remind myself on the absence of life
So cut the center and fill it with your desire
I'll always be fucking empty
I was beaten into bloom
All the petals gave to the Firefly
Just to watch her use them to open up
It wasn't me it was the snake in the garden
Something about the glimmer in his ...

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We're all just shells living hollow
So bleed yourself dry from innocence 
Like the cynical bastard that once had a laugh
The worst part is the damage never left a bruise
Stop playing victim card
When you were all victims in the game of life

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Can you tell me who I am? 
I'm falling apart in this shattered world

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The kingdom was on fire but angels was throwing gasoline on it

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All I wanted was a family to call my own
Now I see that will never be
This forever emptiness will always drift
I would give anything but I already gave it
For after all the soul is home
I sold my home for she can be eternally happy
For her happiness means more to me then mine
Because of this I will be forever and always alone

I will never have my happy ending 

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The flickering lights don't tell the whole story
So keep yourself alive by drowning
We all see by your lies 

If my lips spoke truth 
We'er all be in trouble
I'll leave the whole world on fire
I don't care

So do you feel the pain
I'm the fucking disease now
Did I twist all your words into love?
Did my bellowing for help
Sound delightful to you?

I'm intoxicated with the thought of ...

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I've been filling vacant lately
Why am I even trying
No one cares about me anyway
It's been years, with a memory still there
I've been learning how to tie a nooses lately
It's getting scary in my brain
I don't care about anyone's feelings
I just want the pain to end
Writing about it used to make me feel better
Now the feeling is always there
Life's not fair my friends
I didn't even get ...

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A cup of brandy everyday
Just to drown the feeling into numbness
So could everyone tell the truth 
Stop lying about your emotions 
For that way I'm not the only one overreacting

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I've been up all nigh with Baphomet
Tobi been me for a bit now
So come and let's see the bleeding
Shit won't be the same after tonight
I can't be me anymore 

The soul is too damaged
So let's cut the sickness out
Shit won't be the same

Weed and pills to fix the nightmares
Oh if I keep this up I'll end up in the ground
Fire looks so inviting without a mind 
Girl let's kill the sicknes...

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I relapsed I'm sorry.

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I always kissed her like she was poetry.

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Watch the simple words slip out
I won't be here for next year
So please understand 
Loving you comes easy for me 
I blame it on your personality
Everyone says you'er manipulate me
I think I've been playing dumb for far too long
Everyone thinks I really am 
It's better this way
For the minute I show Intelligence
This facade would bust
The time would be gone 
Love is why I play dumb 

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I can write another poem about her but it would never break her back after all she only talks to me when things are truly bad for I can mend wounds back just to do it all over again it doesn't bother her but it's slowly fucking killing me because all I want to do is lay beside her and call her mine again but that won't happen I'm just a loser in her eyes that loves her with all my heart but that's...

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I was there under the streetlights
Burning into a new affinity
Could you fill my holes where the blood stain?

You're just a show town girl 
That I fall in love with
But you was more then that in my eyes

I never meant anything to you
You just feel pity for me
So here I'm burning into affinity
Without you by myself 

Love please forgive me for this
I've lost my ability to articulate
...

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I was looking for no remedy 
Burning into the silver lining
I trying being my old self but you still remain 
I just want to be the best me I can be 
I feeling like there's a stranger in my skin
It's been this way for too long 

So hold on to fading memory of me 
One day your understand 
I can't be anyone without you 

When the wind blows it feels so hollow 
That time can't be right 
I...

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I know it's late and I really shouldn't be up right now but I keep hearing voices downstairs (Three heads that we can see. Forever is only a second in the mad ones eyes.) I'm learning my imagination take over again. This house is truly getting to me. The last 3 days the cabin doors have been wideopen. 

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The lighthouse I am the ocean I am not,  the way that no one can know I am only who I am but what I am is what I can love. So do not give up there it's always the lighthouse waiting for your arrival. So say that we are different people but I would never have it another way for true love has to brew, like a well stained wine on the finders of white t-shirts both of us meant to have different lives ...

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3 years and nothing has changed
I'm still working my ass off to make a better life for her
Even if she picked him over me

I already know that you're with him tonight
So fuck it all I'm getting drunk tonight
I got 80 proof in my bloodstream
You got nothing but bad timing
Why is it that I always have heartache
When you're not here beside me

I promised you that I would give you everythin...

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 I know this isn't what I normally post here. My grandma just gave me a house in the middle of nowhere. It was my grandmother's but she's going to nursing home. I have to say the weird things my grandma was perfectly Healthy before she moved in this place 6 months ago my grandma told me to sell the house and never to move in. The issue is I have nowhere to go I just lost my apartment so it's a mir...

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How dare you tell me where you live
How dare you live so close
When you kill me everyday
Living without you is the fucking worst
Call me stupid call me obsessed call me whatever you want
But you keep fucking with my head
I rather die than live without you
All I want is you close to me
Stop thinking it's okay to just talk to me when you miss me
But you won't say a word to me when I need yo...

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Told her I loved her it wasn't good enough
Put a rope around my neck
My friend kick the chair for me
Was that too much to ask for you all?

You're all sick but not sick enough
I'm sorry I gave my heart away
I gave my soul to the devil
I guess it was already his

The lower I get the better the art is
I think my heartbreak owes me a dollar
So give me a razor blade
I'll relapse in beauti...

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Oh little boy how obsessed with a little lights you were
Glowing little bugs keeping you from the edge
Oh what their princess the most beautiful lights you've seen
Now they're all gone and you're on the edge of suicide
No remedy for the mind
No amount of blood could poor to make you feel pain
I guess the melancholy got you
I guess the summer hits you like a truck
The emotions make you feel...

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I'm choking on my own blood
As you tell him you love him
You could cut the tension with a spoon
This isn't fair 

So quote all your favorite songs
I'll think of something clever to say
I've never been single this long
I've never not self harm
I'm going 7 months strong
I don't think the lessons are learned

I miss the taste of you 
You've already forgotten me
What a bitter way to die
...

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I don't like waking up 
Since you have been gone 
I haven't been okay 
It's like all the time is gone 
You'er happy now and I'm drinking alone 
Fuck I hate myself 
I love the parts of you that everyone hated
You let him kill it off
Without letting it become something beautiful
I promise that always love you
I know that 25 is another year without you
By 26 I won't be here so it's okay 
...

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All of the time is flying by 
I fucking hate myself 
I can't tell you the truth 
It would only hurt you 
I've been abused so many times
I can confuse it for love
I told myself you were the only one
Just to break my own heart over and over
The cuts added up
Then it's scabbed up
Then they all scarred up
Now they remind me of how I fucked up
I could have got lost in your arms in the holdu...

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I've been trying hard not to talk to you
that way we both can move on
I've been trying hard not to call you beautiful
That way I don't tell you goodnight
I sold my soul for you can always be happy
Why do you think I'm dying little lady
The devil has a price it's my life

Don't make me go to Pizza Hut just to start shit with him
I've been feeling like Tobi lately
I think I'm better off in...

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This conversation needs to end
I'm so sick to my stomach
My bones keep locking up
My back feels like I'm carrying the world
Everything hurts and it just seems like I can't stop the pain

Emotionally I'm just broken
So give me a lecture of how I should be happy
Just for I can break down and cry
My mind tells me I'm better off dead
Nervous breakdowns are my new best friend
And choking on ...

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I really don't want to live
Lost in my head again
Want to go out like my name is Van Gogh
Do you understand it yeah

Put some distance between me and her
Maybe she would miss me enough to come back
The thought of her is killing me
I took more medicine but it's still hurts

It doesn't matter what I do
Self destruction is always the easier way
You can hate me all you want but it's
It's ...

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I wish I was more than this
The nothingness that never leaves 
The background noise that no one listens to
The one that never fit in the friend group
The one that will never be the first choice
The miserable bastard that's all I am
The truth is I wish I was dead

Everyone I've ever cared for is in a better place now
Slowly forgetting about me
I don't blame them on that alarm that doesn't...

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I"ll tell you that I'm better now
We both know that I'm now now song
So I'll tell all my friends I hate you
You're the girl I'd give it all for

I asked you to marry me but I wasn't good enough
I stopped caring about my health and just let it slip
Call me what you want but I would still suffocate over you
I make more money than all my friends
Could have had an apartment by now
I don't wa...

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You want to kill all hope but hope is already being ignored
Give yourself a chance to settle the wreckage
We'll set fire to the their minds
It never gets easier to cut your teeth in love
So build a wall and bury yourself six feet deep

Yeah this is the wreckage 
This is the wreckage of love
So we progressed into drug addicts
We became the fire standing everything we touch

I never turne...

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Maybe I could slit my thigh
Pour the gasoline on it
How did I make it to 10 years without you
I'll let the flames burn the wound back together
Desperate words always come for desperate measures
But I've been living underground
For the world's the fraction of what I used to be

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Told myself I could love you more than 
I could love myself 
Truthful that's a fucking lie
I think I kind of wish I was the guy
That you crashed your car for
No one could care that much for me

Another stupid Coldplay song you can listen to
Your yellow jackets makes your blue eyes pop
I told you goodnight would you even look at it
I've been reliving something just like this

I'm just a...

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If I wrote my story down 
Everyone to be amazed 
So I try to be less then you
It's a cold world out there
So everybody put the gun to the temple
Blow the brains out and watch them laugh

It's a cold fucking world out there
No one gives a shit if you live or you lie
I've been trying to be a better human 
But that's a lie that's a lie that's a lie

I guess you don't like my music
It's n...

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I'm an emergency exit that 
You can never truly go out with
So tell me what is so great about him
Is it that he's a bad boy and you're addicted
I wanted to get lost in your eyes spend the day with you

Then I realized I'm nothing but a heartache
That will drown in his own misery
Find someone that I could call a friend
Damn it I just wanted to get lost in your eyes

Admit it I'm too swee...

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Couldn't have you just listened just for once
No your shattered heart was too loud for you
Now I'm here worried to death about you
Awfully amused by that by the corner of doom
This picture was way too black and blue
Every rose has its thorns for protection
As I sit in this puddle of unworthiness
I ask myself why did I have to leave
Maybe I could have helped you a little bit more
your beau...

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You made me feel like death was a better answer!

So tell me where your empathy is?
You're a nightmare I can't seem to get away from
I might be addicted to the abuse you give to me

Your love is like spoiled milk
I keep sipping because 
I like the taste of sickness
I bet you never thought I would be like this
You made me wish for death 
Baby kill me and all your new ways
I want to cut ...

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I told myself I'd never come to these woods again
Now this dreadful hag has the only thing I've loved
The head of god is means nothing here
I can feel Lucifer's gripped tightening around my throat
Would it be ignorant for me to tell you that I adore this dark presence over me?

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I think the suicidal thoughts have finally caught up
So I may ask a dollar for the jukebox
I've lost myself being a cook for a diner
So nothing seems like it's going to change

I think I'm envious of all the couples walking around
So I may ask for your hand
I've lost myself composure this time
Falling and crying my eyes out like the bastard I've become
The worst part about it is nothing's...

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Maybe one day I'll be more than a concrete bed
With my skin peeled back all there is now is muscle
You didn't want this kind of missed handled case
The knife doesn't push deep enough anymore
All the money in the world but the sadness remains
I didn't ask for this imbalance chemicals in my head
I sure and he'll have to deal with it

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This overwhelming feeling of relief
It's more of a hidden dead dread in the back of my throat
Overcoming it would be too much for me let's be honest
I didn't want anything but love but that was far from your needs
So I'll sit and drown in sulphur 
For the lights won't come on tonight

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Shelter your children
Lucifer is gave life to monster
Rampaging and killing our children
He's already drowned a little girl

The monster he's scared of fire
So grab your torches and let it burn him
His blood will drown the streets
This damnation is all you'll know

Frankenstein this Abomination is on your hands
this is why your science is crucified
you're doing Lucifer's work
Repent f...

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Firefly this isn't about hurting you now
I just want the world to know I'm free 
No longer grasping to the thought of you
I never wanted to call this a burden but it was

Two years of a situation being grim
Thinking about suicide because I wasn't doing anything
This is my final goodbye but you'll never see it
I truly loved you don't you ever deny them words

I have to distant myself from...

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Whenever you think about me do you cry
Because I think I've lied to everyone
I'll tell everyone I'm getting over you
We all know I'm just a now now song
So tell me you fucking hate me

So throw me down the well
We all know it's good for you
Simple text will be swell
Don't ask me to come back please
After September I won't be able to
You want me gone well I'll get that to you

If six f...

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I ripped myself into two
There isn't a string that can sew me back together
I need to be abused to keep my ego from being huge
Because I'm a lowlife piece of shit
Is this discomforting that I talk this way

let's be honest no one can really love me
I've been used by everyone who said they love me
I hate that feel like I deserve this though
There is difference between me and most I'll admi...

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I'm feeling a little happy 
Like I could blast off 
So how could you really love me
I'm trying to finally better myself

I've always been a concept
Not an idea that you would keep
But you would go back and think of
It's not perfect it's just swell

So for the first time in weeks I'll close my window
I know that at least I have myself
And a couple of depressing days coming
Without them...

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If I could get the chemicals in my mind
To stop chasing the ghost of her 
Because the memory of her is just killing me
So how is this even fair anymore
Because my unbalanced chemicals cannot take
The ruling actions in my fucking head

Am I supposed to put a gun to my head
Maybe then you're fucking listen?
My unbalanced chemicals can't take your over glow
I'm tiptoeing on broken glass
It...

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This is all that's left of the waiting men
He broke out of the lighthouse
He decided to go look for her
For the love of the Firefly was more
Than you could ever understand
With his heart condition as bad as it was
He died from a heart attack

This is not our world just a parallel Wonder from us
Even one where the firefight in the waiting man stayed together
To the waiting man was two peo...

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I want to go back to the days
When no one knew that we were something
Back to the nights when I cuddled you
I was scared of you not being by my side
I know these words are in vain but they're all I have left

Back to the days when you read my poems everyday
When you were excited to talk to me
Back to the days when I gave up the computer for you
God dammit do not understand I love you

Y...

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Is it so messed up that I hold you to your word
Until I bleed for all the times that you lied
I've never broken my word but you always break your own
So save yourself from the poison you poured my glass

You promised marriage but all you gave me was heartbreak
So now I'm here melting into a puddle
Trying to make sense of why you didn't want to stay
Was it me was I not good enough 
Two fuc...

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If walls could talk 
Then walls were only talk about 
How much I loved you
Cold and clammy nights was the worst for me

Now you're becoming lost to the Sea
I'm locked in this lighthouse all alone
Your body pressed against me
Has pasted against my walls
I can scream I want it over but it's evermore

Could you please save me tonight
Before my body becomes perfect symmetry
With the barre...

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I choked on my own mind this time
Now the letters in my alphabet soup is all the same
So keep me happy while I'm bleeding inside
Everyone will soon forgive me help me
You want a suicide letter here's one a year and 6 months early

Slow down while he swallows the blood back down
A million fish in the sea in this one is killing him
What the fuck am I supposed to do
With all these memories s...

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Please don't wake me up from this dream
Because love is another thing I can't have
So how deep do I have to go before I complicate your breathing?
So I'll lie to myself to make you feel better

Can you point your gun to my head
One shot and I'll be gone I need this
So kill the conversation the motive to the story is already over
How many lines until Nevada is a thing
Because I'm willing t...

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All used up and barely breathing
Did you think my insecurities wouldn't show
I'm a thousand shades of depression
One stroke and you'll be done with me
I'm just a shell of a human being 

I can't remember many happy things
Mint chocolate chip ice cream and the way she cuddles
Ignore the tears I'm just ashamed of what I've become
I'll let anyone use me as long as it makes them happy
Freedo...

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Please hold me close I'm a shattered heart
Dusk from dawn the only part of me
That's worth saving is yours
Choke me until expected results 
Come out of my mouth

The absence of you is easy to notice
Please don't hate me I'm just bleeding out now
I just want to be happy but I'm not allowed to be
Because my mental illness is chewing at my fucking brain

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Set yourself up for failure
Because no one gives a 
Goddamn about you

Set fire to your temple and let it burn
I've been abused since I was five
There's nothing really left inside
I have trust issues until the day I die
In my mind I don't deserve love

So with the scars on my thigh
I'll look at the person who did this to me
I don't have to look far
I'm running from the mirror now

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I've been kindling the flame 
Since you put them out
Do you ever wonder about the man
That you sentenced to death for loving you
You took my only option of happiness away
Now I'm here staring at a Roses growing in the concrete
Begging you to come back 
Truth is I think I'll be fine with just staring at the concrete Roses

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A Rose drowning in tar
Packet of razor blades
Nothing but time remains
The shaping of his broken reality

A Rose could never grow there
For a hopeless romantic is all that he is
A life full of abuse is all he'll ever know
For he copes with the betrayal of his mind

began with him brainwashed to believe he was worthless
There's nothing that grows here in dumb soil
No Love, No peace only...

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I'm the chemical you're dying for
The guillotine that you protected
The blood on your fingernails you forgot about
So put me out like a cigarette that you crave

You pay your highest dollar for the generic version of me
When I am still stuck inside your teeth
I'm vile like a cancer but you still crave me
It's alright I love the way it feels down your throat
Sugar shake and bake me in your...

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I feel so done with everything
Could you please try and fix me 
I'm sick and sad, missing you 
I'm not a saint I've become everything I can't stand

I'm sorry I was told I'd feel better after getting a job
Now I'm just missing you even more
Damn it I could buy you anything you want 
Because I don't want anything but you

God dammit money can't buy me happiness
I can fill the holes for a...

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I've never tried much
But I think I'd like to try with you
Let's give an Applause to 
The cringey little monkeys on the street

I've never really loved anyone
Until I met a glowing fly in the darkness
I don't think I can live without you now

You're cooler than I thought you was
My chest is caving in my with my palms sweaty
I've never been this nervous to hold a hand
Goddamn your sweet...

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This is not a poem for the weak at heart

Black snow black snow falling from the sky
Clearly vicious with a tapping
Why did you take Mommy away
Was it because the bruises on my ribs
Or the blood on the kitchen knife
The music so pretty pretty
It tells me Mommy was a sinner
So chop I did until the sin was out
Scarlet red was all around
A bitter taste that red was
Still pouring on the gr...

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A bitterblossom that's not growing at all
So depressed and lonely that life seems dull
So broken that the stomach is turning 
Frustration that could bring anyone to a heart attack
What a stanza to fall into

All it would need is a butterfly stitch to bring it together
There is no doctor that can fix heartbreak
Only a cold silent night 
Nothing truly incredible about it
A lighter to melt ...

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I'll take all your negative feelings
Trade them for positive love for you
You can push me around 
Twist me until I'm blue

Your voice is the comforting echoes I need again
I'm not as patient as I come off to be
This lonely road has got to me more then once
I've never admitted that out loud

I was coasting through life until I met you
The first sight of you took all my air
You had a fiv...

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Kind of wish I was drunk
I'm sick and tired doing this
The sadness drops in with the thoughts of you
I think to myself  do you actually even care what I write down
Because you are everything to me
This miserable existence without you has been hell
Could you understand the tones of my voice
I'll get my life together if you would just come back
You're my reason of living I haven't done much ...

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You should really keep your mouth shut
You've been filling the fire to lies 
There's consequences to the actions 
Sympathy can only get you so far

I won't be a witness 
To your condescending voice
You wasted eight years of my life
So tell me that I'm delusional
When you're the one who cheated on me on our anniversary

That night I told you that I didn't want to be a couple 
You said t...

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I've been finding clarity in open wounds
I don't want to write about self-harm anymore
But it's all that's in my head
I want to choke in my sleep
Never wake up again
I don't want to be a temperature in between
There's no clarity for the walking dead
I'm becoming background noise to everyone who cared

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If these four walls could talk 
They would tell me I need some sunlight
I'm sorry I can't be the person you want
Everyone's getting so high
It's bringing me down

I feel disconnected from the world around me
Can someone tell me how to fix this
I'm sorry I can't figure out who I am

Everyone's getting so high
It's bringing me down
Everyone's getting so high
It's bringing me down

Sto...

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I wanted to tell the story of us
I realize you bring the better version of me out
I fell apart in the shower the night you left me
Is it better for me to say goodnight?

I became friends with straight razor and a lighter 
I can't fall asleep lately 
The nightmare of you dying in my arms is on the repeat
I fell apart in the shower the night you left me

So tell me what's good about my sit...

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I should have told you this a long time ago
I miss the alcohol on your breath
I should've never let you out that day
I should have hold you down in the bed
Should have told you how much you meant to me

Never regretted much but these things I do
If I could go back I would hug you tight
I'd never let go of you, have faith in me
I'll always be forever yours

All the promises my love I've ...

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Leicestershire oh  Leicestershire
It's portaging on the definition of Blue
Eating lambs and children
Tying the children's skin around her waist like a trophy
Her howling is a terrifying fright
Don't go to her cave the oak tree in front
Don't look at her face Madness will consume
The Black Annis will kill tonight

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This isn't one of my normal poems
My intentions are pure and I'll always care for you
The delusions you've made around yourself
Is the layers that I keep pulling away

I'll bleed out for you
I'll die for you
It means nothing to you does it?
I keep matching with blood blisters on my feet
It's not enough evidence until you kill me

So cut me like a hog
My last dying words will be the wor...

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Sugarcoat the lies you tell yourself
Slowly embrace the blood running down your thigh
What do you have to say for yourself?
6in down and still bleeding

you broke all the promises 
you told yourself you wouldn't do
What do you have to say for yourself?
There's nothing you can do about it now
Just burn the wound back together

There's no other words to explain
The dread that pouring out
...

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Damn I guess death is a thing
Trying to make you feel special
Remember them days that 
You stay out drunk, I'd always walk you back
I wanted to raise you higher than the platform

It's unsettling how my head feels numb
I don't think I can smile anymore
This is what I get for trying 

Where's the bright side at this
I'm too tall to fit into the square
I guess you all can say I asked for...

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Always alone 24/7
I'm broken and bruised
Wishing you was here
So spare me a moment

I've been waiting forever 
I'm face down and crying my eyes out 
I've been bagging for you 
So why do I feel so numb

Could you save me from myself
I'm drowning without you

So spare me a moment
I need to know this isn't a nightmare
God if you could of understand 
This lonely road has been killing m...

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I've been dreaming about firefly
There was me and her lost in a forest with kids
We were laying watching all the leaves fall
In this moment I forgot what sadness was 
A smile lifted upon my face I finally had my little family
A son that wasn't mine and a daughter that was 
The woman I waited for forever kiss my cheek
With these leaves falling I swore to protect my family

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In a dark corner a unsettling evil drifts
Into the open-air of the womb that consumed
All light that was visible at the time
The boards are creaking miserably with a violent melody
I unravel the fabric laid around my body
With one spring of a movement I was vertical again
For death itself cannot steal the light no more
When I checked the floor was not cracking
For has my mind faded into in...

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Oh Henry, Oh Henry
Your nightmares are getting worse
Into the ocean no one will come back
A city of green ooze pouring from nowhere
The protector of The Old Ones is rising
Whispering my child come join me
I'm sorry mother but the voices are calling

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I've been trying to break this awful addiction
These sharp objects are whispering
Words wrapped around my throat
To end my existence in one sweep

I know you don't want to hear it
This melancholy rainstorm has a hold of me
I'm not worth saving 

Lies never got me anywhere
But telling the truth got me here
With roses burning out your ears
If it was up to me self-destruction 
Wouldn't b...

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I hate where I am In life 
What's good about breathing 
When you only do it automatically
So can you tell me what good about this?

My mind misses her more then Hou Yi and Chang'e
I'll die young if she could live forever
I need her to be happy because I'm miserable
I tried to sell my soul for her to be eternally happy
Find out that we're both depressed

She's the reason I'm still alive
...

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Please don't abandon me like everyone else
Beat me up bring me down it's okay my dear 
Just don't leave I don't want to be left alone
The voices in my head say that you truly don't care
They want the worst for me everyday
It's not fair blissful ignorance is the only way to be happy

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This is the end of the road if I relapse
Tonight there won't be a coming back
All these sharp objects looks so inviting
This is decaying alive 

I miss you it's that something simple
I guess I'm the only one that's left fucked up
Can someone please help with this void
It's all consuming and there's not much time left
The wolves are all around and I'm not much of a fighter anymore

This ...

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The way she showed courtesy
With them big blue eyes of hers
To the way she speak calmly to the voices in my head
Not questioning my sanity but letting it be
Showeds that she could truly be trusted in this lonely coffee shop
The way she pressed her lips against mine 
Allowed me to see more than just blue on this rainy day
For the roots of my heart find a place to grow

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Dear Firefly I'm sitting in this room sipping on coffee
Missing how the corners of your lips turn into a smile 
That would pierce through my melancholy
You'er still the girl that saved the world in my mind
I only stop time to save you 

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I've been chewing on my cheek lately
Thought I seen her today shopping
Burst into tears so I had to leave quick
It's not fair I'm so lonely and missing you so much
I puked behind the trash can only blood came out
I guess that's what I get for dying in my sleep
Wake up gasping for air having a major headache
These last years have done some permanent damage to me
Firefly if you only knew how...

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I regret that day
I regret that day 
I let you walk out without a word
I'm still here waiting for you
I'll still take a bullet for you
It doesn't matter how many times you break my heart
I'll always be here for you

This alcohol has me up at 2 in the morning
Worrying about you 
Goddamn living like this is killing me
I'd rather die than give up on you
You're going to give me a heart att...

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I know you think I'm an asshole for not talking to you
There's more to the story then I want to tell
You don't understand I'm dead
Numb to the touch so don't come close
Social anxiety and melancholy spelled out like a noose

If I start talking we're going to be here a long time
I just want to have positive thoughts
I was a kid and mama broke my ribs
I lost my innocence ways at the age of ...

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I know you think I'm giving up on you
If that's what you really think you're dead wrong
I said I'll wait for you forever and a day
That's just what I'm going to do
I might be a sad panda without you
Ask anyone that sees my poems
I'm absolutely in love with you
Long nights talking to you is what I crave
You're beautiful in ways I couldn't explain

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I've got to say there's 
Never special about me
I'm an average as cardboard cutout
So please stop poking holes through me
I'm too fragile for that shit

You like white lightning and rain storms
I become a soggy mess in them
Your kisses made me feel human
Just for me to bleed out all over the floor

It's easier
It's easier
It's easier for me to bleed
Then to see you sad

It's easier
...

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It's been awhile since 
I could lay back and forget the world
Without my mind pointing a gun to my head
I know it's a sick thought 
If cutting still worked I'd still do it
Don't mind me I'm just a lonely ghost
Suffering in my own little corner
I hate being like this
There's no exit door just four walls

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I don't think it's going to be okay by the night
It feels like everyone has an opinion about the situation
They're not the ones that's left missing you tonight
If I could dream, if I could dream I could see you

There's a hole where you belong and I can't fill it
I think I'll always miss you, I'll always miss you
After you left I let my crippling illness win

I don't want to bother you bu...

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Belittle me into believing I'm nothing
I guess I'm getting that point, where I'm giving up
Can you please leave me alone
I don't deserve another human beings company
I wish I wasn't desperate but I've lost all hope 
I'll keep telling myself that things are going to get better
I'll wake up just to wish that I didn't

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She cut me deeper than I could ever admit
This depression has the best of me
I wish I could find some room to breathe 
But I'm suffocating on memories

I've wasted so much time saying I'm fine
But I'm far from what I say
You only see the shallow end of what my mind thinks
Could something just go right once in my life?
Father says it's a shame what I've become

Playing ignorance is a saf...

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As my mind hopelessly arrivals into nothing
My existence fading from everywhere
I plead for you not to look at the outcome 
please remember me for who I was
This dark embraces is all I've become
Just who could tear me apart like this
Is she the silence step that I forgot
Is there something more that's caving my chest in
I'm unraveling the truth but it's breaking me more
I'll soon be nothi...

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It's a broken memory 
That you can't choose to unseen
So keep this up choose dying alone
It's no one's fault but your selfish mind
How could you pick her over living
You're waiting but it's almost due time
If she doesn't come back 
By September you know that it's over
But you're hopelessly wait one more year
I'm the reality that you can't face
The open wound that you always think about
...

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I was dreaming of you firefly and you were in trouble
He was mistreating you 
I couldn't do a damn thing about it
I couldn't sugarcoat the devilish grin he had
You were crying and I was a ghost
For that moment I felt alive my heart was breaking
I tried everything to wipe the tears from your face
My hand would just go through it
So I started to tell you I love you and it's all okay 
You co...

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I haven't looked at myself in a weeks
Do you think they can medicate self-loathing behavior
I'm a lost cause I haven't left my apartment in days
I put my best foot forward just to have it broken
Gave her my heart now she's cutting strings until it falls
6 feet deep with a fancy to stone on top of it
I'll try to help everyone just to watch myself drown a little bit more
I just want to leave ...

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Little John Doe was let go by the police
Little John Doe was accused of rape
Little John Doe was hated all through the town
Little John Doe must have did what the girl said
Little John Doe was a holy man
Little John Doe was killed by the preacher's hand
Little John Doe was an innocent man

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As the air thickens around me
The blood of another man was all over these walls
I may have not understood his language
As I watched the light from his eyes slowly fade
They were screaming help me but I didn't listen
For after all the beautiful scarlet was all around me
As a grin took over my face
I could leave the body of this pedophile on the ground
No one would mourn his fate
For this i...

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I've been having more emotional breakdowns
It's so hard to shake this feeling
It's all consuming and I can't get out
Should I start digging my grave now?
Vividly it's too much to take in
So please try to understand I'm lost at sea
I know the mind is only as strong as I am
Right now I'm the weakest link
I don't think I'll be fine again
I've been running from this memory but not fast enough
...

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Growing up so alone feel so useless
Like I can't get anything right
You made my world drowning in fire
I don't think there's a solution to fix it
Depression never leaves and I don't want to bleed with it again
I'm selfish and I have a death wish
I know I should have never kissed to you on that June afternoon
That kiss took my breath away all I have left is tears
You made me the happiest I'...

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I was so lost in a part of you 
That I could find myself in you
Holding onto memories so loved
I was falling away from my fear
I'm just a box of souvenirs that you don't pull out anymore

Maybe I could have been more 
But you weren't allowed me to be
I know I'm being hostile but this is killing me
How could you pick a cheat over me?
I warned you almost everyday 

Maybe you was happy th...

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Nothing is guaranteed in this
I haven't decided what I wanted to do with my life
I don't have many years left to decide
By the age of 24 I thought I'd have it all figured out
I'm more lost than I ever have been
I'm so hopelessly grabbing hold something 
Interesting to happen in this world
That reality isn't the truth anymore
It's going on ten years since I met her 
That means next year sh...

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She was not the ordinary girl
She was a firefly lighting my way
I'm just a space cowboy that drifted upon this lighthouse
These peculiar times has been heavy on the soul
For I'm just the captain of this lighthouse now
Selling on a dark ocean lit by the hope to see her again
Only loneliness is promised on the ship
One day I will hopefully leave it and see the world from her light

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A doctor that's what we needed
Someone that give us hope there's none
For she is everywhere but nowhere at once
Breathtaking but always giving it back
An acquired taste of love
For her and her beautiful ghost monument
Will always be there when someone truly needs saving
It's brilliant in more ways than one

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I've been compliant to their commands
Just to end up with more of the same
Stop trying understand me it's going to hurt you
I spent morning, coughing out blood chasing after her
Just to find out that I'm killing her

What's the point I'm running out of time
Saying it just brings a smirk to my face
I've been planning it since I was 16
Let's look at the big picture my friend
I haven't lied...

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Unorthodox that's in a word to explain it
How was I supposed to know
It happened all so fast
I've grown up since then
Not into the person that anyone wanted me to be

I'm not normal and I'm not politically correct
Have I learned from the mistakes that I've made
Does hope get anything more than a betrayal of reality
Is it a poem it's more of a quotable thought that's in my head
Always blo...

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If you don't like me then I get it
Feeling numb is better than feeling like this

I'm the definition of failure
What's the definition of success in your mind
I'll try to reach it if I can 
If I reach out to far I'll fall
Everyday I have this hopeless feeling of  deja vu
Force a smile on my face crack a joke
While I'm dying inside
It's a romantic memory I wish I could get rid of

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The Melancholy rain reflects 
The youth that was stolen from you
My dear love memories are louder than sound
so hold your eyes open because darkness is everywhere
Your time is the only thing you should fear
It's unstoppable and always ticking away
I think in the inside every adult has a heart of a child
The mind wants to fall back on the purity of being a child
Reality is far too cruel to ...

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Have you ever put a gun to your head?
Just to countdown for the bullets not to go through
It got lodged into the gun
I had a moment of bliss yesterday
Now the depression is back
I hate these deadly chemicals that can kill
Drowning my brain they are

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I wish I could go back to that night in June
It's going on 10 years since you passed away
We were only 14 and so in love
We lost our innocence that night on your parents couch
I miss you but it's okay cause I don't cry anymore
I just sit in solitude and think about how things could have been

I found a girl that I love just as much as you
She took everything but my innocence
So now I'm em...

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That's it the feeling of missing her
It's an overwhelming pain
That will never heal itself  
For the vial company of misery 
Has a brutal hold on reality that's all consuming
This is not heaven or hell this is purgatory
Where waiting forever in silence
Is only equal to beckoning of the sea 
For I'm of a lighthouse and the light is always on for her

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Most of the time I don't want to wake up
I don't see a positive thing about breathing
I guess I've just become the definition of a pessimist
So go ahead tell me all the things I should be happy about
I used to have a goddamn reason to be alive
Now I'm losing my mind and wasting everyone's time
I used to be the kindness kid but now I'm just dead inside
This melancholy fever has hit an all-ti...

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When the pain is unbearable I think about how
I told her I'd walk through hell for her
That's exactly what I've been doing
I know the strings of my heart are getting weak
I'm content with waiting forever and always
If it kills me while she can never say that I didn't love her

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I feel all alone
Like this hell never ends
As far as I can remember
It's always been like this
I know it's grown a lot
Every time that it gets to the point 
Where I can't handle it
Usually someone stops me from taking that step
I don't see anyone around this time
This is suffering in solitude
No one seems to understand it
I've only met two people I've ever truly loved
One of them died ...

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What if we riot
Then time couldn't lay here forever
A moment of silence
Was only heard from the victims
We're only accessible to a spineless leader

A World leaders is what he calls himself
In the people's eyes he's nothing but a traitor
Barely a man for the awful things he's done
He only cared about his rich friends and the wall

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This is a vivid reminder is my family
To bury the box under the weeping willow
There's no more time to lose
The excuses are building up on my shoulders
Breaking under the pressure

God I just want to die
Seems like I'm fading from existence
I'm still alive I feel the heavy heart beating
I feel like holding her hand would be a reality
Too good for my sinful ways

Three years of nothing ...

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I'm tired and all I can do is think about her
I'm in the cast of falling apart again and she'll never know
What's the point of it anymore
She's so beautiful imperfection and I'm ugly
If I could explain everything 
Before she left this house
Maybe things would have been different
I can't waste my time in the past
I got to prove to her that I'm the right option
So I wait here in this Cafe o...

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I'll stay emotionally drained 
Telling everyone I'm getting over you
Everyone knows I'm not

My bedroom walls don't make good company
Things may be different now
But the behavior is all the same
I'll quench the thirst with gasoline
Make the bridge out of cement this time

Leaving knots in our stomachs
So we don't sleep in weeks
Because we see each other in our dreams
This is a hell I ...

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It was chiseled, chiseled and broken
With long shattered glass protruding out from it
He didn't have the time to find out if it could be fixed
So he finish smashing it into millions of pieces
He was only fifteen when this happened

Like all stories he found a new one
But with it he found a girl 
He was lost in space when he looked at her
He was floating on butterflies 
How do you approac...

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May I hold your hand please
May we hold hands while we sleep
Like we used to back when we were young and dumb
I'll be here if you need someone to cry on

I bought you a pack of Marlboro blacks 
I know that it's your favorites
Little lady you're the most precious thing I've ever met
You made me feel like I could face the world
I was not afraid of death when you had my hand

The hardest p...

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I'm just an depressed individual
Who can't find his place in this world
They all told me this was a phase I just wish it was
It's a melancholy switchblade 
I can feel it cutting through the skin
I'm walking to with a metaphorical gun to my head
All the time crashing into itself
I told myself I would always love you
I'd give up my soul just to hold you for tonight
There's no way in hell th...

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