Wallflower
I feel like I'm here all alone
There's people here beside me
I know they don't love me
I'm just a wallflower listening to the conversations
If I fade into my mind I'll find hate
Not for anyone here but just myself
I'm in the city of drug addicts
Broken and all alone
I've overdosed myself on love
Now I'm paying that the price in blood
I could get addicted to drugs
That wouldn't fi...
Sunday 30th December 2018 3:26 am
Silent and Patient
True pain is a collective of thoughts
That you cannot forget
With that the lack of motivation to better yourself
Is heavy like an anchor your sink to the bottom
Only there you can find true happiness
Don't get me wrong it's years of being down there
The melancholy had a invulnerable hold to my trepid body
Pruned and brittle to the thoughts to my head
Only to remind myself that I was doing...
Friday 28th December 2018 4:16 am
Space Cowboy 15 Coffee Shop Blues
Your a cosmic space boy floating in the infinite
At the same time you're in a coffee shop
Waiting for her to get finish dressed
As a smile overcomes your face
She's nothing like ex's she's everything you wanted
You can imagine cold brew coffee
In the morning with her and always bringing her breakfast
These are thoughts that has happened
They are not present day anymore
Nowadays you'r...
Thursday 27th December 2018 6:07 am
A Sign of Love
This is the longest I've been single
I'm scared of dying alone
I can't move on I have to wait for her
Not because of a promise
She's the only one has ever motivated me
She makes me want to be a better man
With her beside me I can face the world
So I'll wait for her even if she doesn't come back
At least I can say I truly love someone and was truly faithful to her
Sunday 23rd December 2018 4:24 am
Look At Me
Look at me
I don't know myself at all
When I sleep I dream of you
Look at me
Self harming again like it's all okay
Don't hold it against me but I hate myself
Look at me
She's too good for me
I'm a nobody going nowhere
Look at you
So unaware of how beautiful you are
When you sleep do you dream of me?
Because I dream of you all the time
You are my Firefly my hope for a bette...
Friday 21st December 2018 4:29 am
thesaddestofboys
I'm an antisocial pessimist
Missing an antidote with a face of an angel
You can tell all your friends that you killed a boy
I'm still stuck in the past
I wanted us to last
You found another man
My heart broke like glass
So you'll find the metaphor in the words I'm saying
I'll play my heart like a violin until the strings break
I was playing the music for you this whole time
So why ...
Wednesday 19th December 2018 4:08 am
Words of The Waiting Man 25 ( Drunk, Lonely and Emotional.)
The lack of passion in my voice today
Has rattled the bones of my ancestors
So if I drown myself in these awful thoughts
I don't think the vivid colors can tell stories
When your seeing them from a blind man's eyes
Even in the deepest dry wells
I've been trying to drown myself
Thinking of you in a evening gown
So put the water gun in my mouth and let's commit watercolors
Would I be a ...
Monday 17th December 2018 4:11 am
Words of The Waiting Man 24
It's a cold rainy day in hell
Two feet under my bed
Where time finds a way to stop
I have a fear I'll start self-harming again
Then my demon start yelling at me
I know that I could fall back into that deep end
All these razor blades are full of dry blood now
I suppress the feel to self-herm
I just got to remind myself
There was a time that I didn't want it
You were the door that I ...
Saturday 15th December 2018 12:40 am
A Word From Our Sponsors Today
You can't tell me a sad waiting story
When I wrote the book on it
Do you know how long
I've been here waiting on her
It feels like forever but I could wait longer
Just come back before I'm old and lose all my teeth
My friends tell me that I'm making a mistake
I don't give a damn I know who I love
I'll fight for her until the day I die
Wednesday 12th December 2018 5:13 am
No Strings Attached
I miss the days when I actually enjoyed living
Now there is a haze of loneliness
Gasping for air is not an option anymore
I kind of feel like I wanna be alone all my life
I still need you so please don't go away
Why don't you just go find some other girl who won't hurt you?
Because I love you. -No Strings Attached
Related with this thing so much I started crying.
Monday 10th December 2018 9:25 pm
I Won't Love Again
Twinkle twinkle little star
I've relapsed again and the blood is all I have left
I know I could wreck a car
My mind's been aching with stress
This melancholy has an apathy over me
I've been drowning myself in Smirnoff
I may go far in life but your always be my forever
That's what mostly kills me inside
I'll never be your forever and only
I'm just a boy who loves you the most
P.S. Ex So...
Monday 10th December 2018 1:02 am
Growing Weary
You've kept your distance
I've kept my promise to you
Home is another place we can't go
So you can deny your feelings
I'll keep giving you sweet words
That has you second-guessing
I know it seems purposely malicious
I never wanted any harm to you
Can you please not let me wait till the end
Home is another place we can't go
So bury the kisses in the backyard
I'll finish off the liquor
Friday 7th December 2018 10:14 pm
Midnight Cafe Dreams
I'm really sleepy but in my sleepiness
All I can think about is her and how much I miss her
I may not know where I'm going
What I do know is I found love in her eyes
In this cafe for two
I'm the only one with lonely eyes missing you
So I may be broken, some would say I'm shattered
I'll always wait for you I promise you that
The one thing I know about a firefly is
They love coffee and I a...
Monday 3rd December 2018 6:51 pm
Echoes
Can you give me a reason
To call this paranoia not theories I'm made in head
I swear to any God that you believe in
I've been like this for as long as I can remember
Don't hug me I'm afraid of human attachment
No one should love me
I've been doing awful things to everyone who's loved me
Swear I need to fix my broken mind
How can I fix things that I didn't break
It's all my fault I let...
Saturday 1st December 2018 10:01 am
Sour Patch Kids Cereal
Has the cold winter air pierced through my body
With thoughts choking on you
My body becomes numb
The memories of you come flooding in
Boards under my feet start to crackle
The pressure of your memories flooding my apartment
Like a child getting hurt for the first time the pain is unbearable
I could lock myself in the bathroom but the pain is still there
There's no running from the dire s...
Wednesday 28th November 2018 10:23 am
Firefly A Reason To Drink
Give me another screwdriver
I envision you in front of me
A smile comes across my face
My love I'll give you everything I have
Just so I could wake up and see you there
I smell the liquor on your breath it's intoxicating
The reality is life has dealt me a cruel existence
When I wake up I'll be without you and last night was just in my head
Tuesday 27th November 2018 10:48 am
âme brisée
He was suicidal from the day you came in this world
Something happened when he met her
He wanted to start his life and give her something more
Now she's gone and he's wishing for death
He stabbed himself to feel something
More than a gaping hole in his heart
The agony has him falling over his feet
Drink some more it's not going to fix the situation
Everyone whispers behind his back
They...
Monday 26th November 2018 11:29 am
A Prisoner To My Own Room
I can never understand how you lie to me
Then you acted like it's all okay
I tried to always be there for you
You treated me like I wasn't good enough
I still love you and that's the worst part of this
You did so many things I was still faithful
I'm a broken Soul that's always crying now
Sunday 25th November 2018 12:34 pm
Heavily
The sweet embrace of your bones on me
Has me thinking of death and decay
There's no King to the lighter this no source to the light
So they talked about how it become delighted
How I lost it in the same season
There was love from me
There's no desire for you to keep it up
So pour the gasoline on the bridge
Light it on fire but I'll keep building it
I've been trying to hide my desires
...
Thursday 22nd November 2018 10:49 am
Nostalgia Eyes
I found a picture of the hickey I left on your neck
I was always leaving them there
To make every guy know that you were my girl
That summer was the greatest of my life
Now a head full of heartbreak is what I have left
That new year I overdosed on pills
My body wildly convulsing on the bathroom floor
200 Cuts and a broken rib later I still love you as much as I did then
Wednesday 21st November 2018 10:46 am
Taught Me
Everyone thinks I'm so depressed
Yes it's true I struggle with depression everyday
I don't do good in social environments
No one ever took the time to get to know me
Thank you dad for raising your son
Tori taught me not to plan anything
Firefly taught me patience
Emily taught how to have a backbone
April taught me love Rip little lady
Right now I'm trying to figure out what
I want ...
Tuesday 20th November 2018 9:03 am
A Diligent Little Soul
I tried to sell my soul but I was already Hell bound
So don't be sad that I'm not coming home
I remember sweet chopstick and blood on your lips
Does he write music like I do?
Can you imagine if I actually tried it?
I told you I could get out of this town if I wanted
I'm just good drowning all alone here
I don't blame you for leaving
Even if I miss your kisses
I just worry about you is...
Monday 19th November 2018 2:18 am
Sour Patch Kid Letter To a Firefly
I made an oath in until I die I'll stick to it
Even if I have to drag my limp body through this existence
I'll always be here when you need me
I promised you forever until the end
So kick me make me feel like shit if it makes you happy
Don't talk to me for months and months and make me worry about you 24/7
I haven't missed a night telling you goodnight beautiful
I may be losing time and my ...
Saturday 17th November 2018 9:48 am
3:32 AM
Hi, I’m sad. What’s your name?
I don’t know what it’s like to not feel broken and alone
even my soul is tired
I’m not trying to be difficult I swear
Why do I and people I love pick people that treat us like we’re nothing?
It keeps getting stronger and growing like a virus with no cure it’s unstoppable
What if I never love again?
Sleeping is the only thing that can make me feel happiness
...
Thursday 15th November 2018 5:46 am
Space Cowboy 14 Old Ones
Oh Space Cowboy you are home
Mother has missed you so much
It was Mother's void that pulled you back here
You no longer have to shoot your way to victory
Mother is only love from the sea
Just talk to the man from the lighthouse
Always waiting for love
The Sleeper has buried himself
Into the core of the Earth
Fascinating letters from above
Also time assuming you'll find in love
So ...
Wednesday 14th November 2018 12:41 am
Unfortunate Lack of Events
Drifting through life
In a empty husk of a body
The soul was made from religion
Don't let them know that I need
Her like a body need water
Smile I'm leaking out love
If I'm not good enough for you
Then I'll cut my body from oxygen
Please stop torturing me
Your my symphony I've been work on for years
I wouldn't bother you if my love was a lie
Don't take cloudy moons over clear vo...
Tuesday 13th November 2018 5:05 am
Death
Has time flows into death's hold over you
The innocence of your life start to show
Yesterday is something you can't have back
The moments that happen then it's just that
The most beautiful lies is death is your enemy
Without it there is no life to treasure
There is no love, no hope and no life
Death is the end of the adventure
Monday 12th November 2018 8:36 am
A Long Night In Sanitarium
You talk so cold and precise
Verbally I can't express myself
Body language alone would tell you I'm a nervous mess
So can I extract my dirty secrets to you?
Just for you can stab me in the back
I should have known better
Did the predictable thing and fell over heels
Tell the mortgage cremate my body
When the Equinox comes for me
She defines hope in my eyes
Please keep the tone of you...
Saturday 10th November 2018 6:25 am
How Much Longer
How much longer do I have here
In the name of love
The road is stone cold
I've been bashing my knees on
Grey skies and blood moons
Sapphire blue eyes in my nightmares
They fade from existence
A bottle of liquor can change your life forever
Who would think biennium and a whole lot of bad decisions
Has left me here believing in nothing good
How much longer do I have here
Until my m...
Thursday 8th November 2018 7:28 pm
Pink Water
Sitting in a bathtub full of pinkish water
A razor blade in one hand
A head full of excuses in the other hand
This is nothing new you have been like this since birth
They told you life would get better but your 20 something
Thinking about suicide how much easier it would be
Remember when I told you things would get better
This is being mentally ill before you knew what it was
Runaway from...
Wednesday 7th November 2018 6:08 pm
Old Man Happy Ending
It's been two years
Since I could say
I was truly happy
Two days we slept away
In each other's hands
Is just a memory of my happy ending
I had my chance to die happy
I decided to live for her
No lying there's a part of me that gave up
I should leave this life behind and focus on death
I have 1 year and 10 months left
When you look back you
Just know I loved you
I waited until t...
Wednesday 7th November 2018 7:18 am
Words of The Waiting Man 22
I lost my shadow and you can't
You can't love me
You can't hold me
You can't feel my lips
You can't be with me
That means I can't
I can't wipe your tears away
I can't hold you
I can't be anything but transparent
I told you love always will
Sometime it's a word away form the sea
You're not coming back in a boat
So why am I waiting in a lighthouse
I promise I'll be here when you com...
Monday 5th November 2018 6:16 am
Cigarette Smoking Hearts
Love is equal to drowning yourself in tar
I'll take another drag from
I may never win your heart back if I quit
I'll keep taking my drags until it shows you I love you
Friday 2nd November 2018 4:36 pm
Pushing Up Daisies
I'm someone I actually like when I was with you
I miss you but I'm drowning now
Under the waves where the air can't reach
I was a mess when you found me
There's no recovery from the first relapse
I love you too much to let you think
That I can live without you
If I could only medicate the love that you gave me
How did I get out so far
There's no medication for this love
When I'm with...
Thursday 1st November 2018 4:14 am
He
Build your kingdom walls high and thick
Tell yourself what you're doing is Justified
Your words were bullets piercing through the skin
You left like his mother and lied to him
He made promises just to keep them forever
Promises are actions you can't break
He's going nowhere honestly
He's broke and drinking himself to death
So take him away from this broken mindset
He's not a nice guy b...
Wednesday 31st October 2018 12:41 am
Crystal City Part 3 lyrics
Shake your ass in Crystal City
Show some love to your crystal pipe
Then put it back in the garden cause love is a freak
Lady Death is doing it in the next room
Mr. Depression was your lover so Crystal Clear
She's smoking crystal meth
So he calling her Kristy
She wants a name change
But she's no Bruce Lee
She doesn't love you
She loves the money that you gave her
So watch the windm...
Tuesday 30th October 2018 12:56 am
Anxiety
I should let go of this bleak situation
Drift away from all that I say
Don't hold me to this
This is my ugly side the most vile thing about me
I should try to recompose myself
My mind's out racing common sense
Air is getting harder to inhale
My words aren't coming out right
I need to get my feet on the ground
Before the ceiling swallows me whole
Lost in a panic over nothing important
...
Sunday 28th October 2018 5:25 pm
Faithful Until The End
I can't explain how I feel
There's something inside me
You can never remove
The need of hearing you talk about your day
You was my entire world now I'm broken into pieces
I once was a wall but now
I'm hoping and waiting for you
You may never come back but I'll always love
You deserve at least one guy that's faithful to you
I don't want to be hopelessly depressed
I want to get lost ...
Sunday 28th October 2018 4:15 am
Not Done
How can I win the fight?
When I want to close my eyes forever
Time is so heavy I don't want to be alone
My thoughts are death sentence in situations like this
I should stop talking to myself in public
I swear there was someone there
If you catch me outside please don't look hatefully
My personality is eroding into slime
I live in melancholy land where nothing is exciting
How did I get...
Saturday 27th October 2018 3:29 am
Show Love
One day I'll be an app that life deleted
Until then I will try to inspire people
I only have a few moments on this Earth
So I'll show love to my enemies be happy for their success
We live in a world where racism is normal
(What a shame)
Democrats and Republicans our just the names
The hatred between both of them to start flame
We only want to blame each other for nowadays
We're all hum...
Thursday 25th October 2018 8:13 pm
Fix Myself
In September I felt like the Twin Towers
Firefly how could you be so mean to your Sour Patch Kid
I know I wasn't the type to bring home flowers
I spent every hour of my day worried about you
Now I'm back to my old Wallflower days
Melancholy feels like a cold shower I'm becoming numb to everything
I really need to fix myself
I really need to fix myself
I really need to fix myself before I...
Wednesday 24th October 2018 9:32 pm
Words of The Waiting Man 21
I was 21 when you found me
Depressed and begging for death
You cured me and give me a reason to leave my bed
I was 21 when you found me
You broke my heart at the age of 22
I've been waiting here for you to come back home
You gave me a reason to live
If you come back home I want to hear all your stories
I told you forever so I'll wait for you
Even you never come back I'll wait here for...
Tuesday 23rd October 2018 5:02 pm
Breathing Underwater
We're all machines wandering dreadfully
The lack of expression on our faces
Proof there's no free will only a grinding ideas
So cut the bad out of your life where it lies more will grow
The Christian will always hate
What they do not understand
The outcasts will always love
The devil just means god
Us as humans don't deserve anything
We're not promised a great life
The only thing i...
Monday 22nd October 2018 4:32 pm
So Call It What You Want
I can't find a reason to live
It's scaring me I'm off my pills
I go on long walks to listen the cars pass
I forced a smile on my face and they all thought it was real
If I died today no one would miss me
I don't want to fight my depression anymore
I think I'm finally giving up and scares me
I don't talk shit behind anyone's back
I know how much that shit hurts
Ignore me would tell me to ...
Monday 22nd October 2018 1:49 am
I'm Becoming a Hopeless Case It's Getting Easier To Tell
Don't look at me for help
Nowadays I don't leave the house
Do you want a recap of my anxiety
I only write about what I know
I haven't lied since 2016
So let me tell you how
I won't be anything you love
You'll get tired of me being over emotional
I've been abused and cheated on
More times than I can count
Tell a hopeless joke I read off the internet
Now I got a whole room laughing
...
Sunday 21st October 2018 4:29 am
How I Really Feel
I have this razor blade and you have him
I'll never be anything more then this addicted
You want words of wisdom I don't have them anymore
It took two years for me to become jaded two more and I'll be dead
I'm not a sad clown anymore I'm just fucking sad
I walked in traffic yesterday but no one wanted to hit me
There's no happy ending for people like me
I'm letting this broken heart kill ...
Saturday 20th October 2018 6:18 pm
Sour Patch Kid
Could you please tell me
The silver lining behind all this
I've been looking for a remedy
My heart so broken missing you
I don't know where I belong
The memory of you is growing cold
Just want to know where I belong
Without you I don't feel comfortable
I feel like everyone wants me dead
This autumn had me at my worst
When You're Gone
There's no place to call home
My heart is getti...
Saturday 20th October 2018 3:00 am
Through Melancholy Eyes
I wish I could start acting my age
I wish I had more self-confidence
Everyone I went to HighSchool with has a family
I'm here trying to further a career that's going nowhere
If happiness is a hike worth walking for
Then we should invest in some hiking boots
Where do I go when I'm sinking into the sadness
Because I'll never be able to afford happiness
I don't think there's a cure for a br...
Friday 19th October 2018 3:35 am
Firefly Battle of Lasagna Mountain
Ladies and gentlemen
Self-destruction over such a pretty little face
What a way to go into the unknown
With her face tattooed to my brain
I'm drowning in the tar of memories that she gave me
I know I should get it off my feet again
She's such a beautiful angel that can cripple anyone
I've become the alcoholic and all alone
Just like you was when I first met you
Little lady I need a jum...
Thursday 18th October 2018 7:28 pm
Melancholy 2
Melancholy season got
My nose all bloody again
Infatuated with my own death
I've been drinking eggnog with rum
I threw up the first time
Wednesday 17th October 2018 1:14 am
Samurai Bebop 7 Sympathy
If you cannot admit that that's you
Then how can you ever heal yourself
When you share it they say your attention-seeking
So no wonder no one wants to come out
They go to drugs instead to fill that hole of sorrow
Find someone who loves you
That's hard to do when everyone's out to get you
People like us believe everything our mind tells us
Have a couple hundred panic attacks
That fee...
Tuesday 16th October 2018 1:55 pm
Write What You Honestly Know
Recently I just want to be left alone
Hopefully they all forget about me
I'll get addicted to self-harming again
Bleed out that way you don't have to deal with me
I don't blame anyone if they want to hate me
I think I drink way too much
I've been feeling like 2015 me
I don't want my medicine being a razor blade
I can't keep a job anymore
I'm giving up my social anxiety
I tried to wri...
Monday 15th October 2018 11:19 pm
I drank to fill the emptiness, but the more I drank the emptier I felt
Monday 15th October 2018 1:01 am
Space Cowboy 13 The Last Death
He fractured his mind
With the thoughts of recovery
Bursting with missiles not caring where they head
Grandeur is not a word you can use for depression
It is putrid, vile and unloving with a touch of malice
Who needs a good reputation
When you're going to hell
Promise me If I lose the war
You'll put me down like my name is Old Yeller
I know we used to be Space Cowboys
But that seem...
Sunday 14th October 2018 8:36 pm
A Poem For Tracy
I should know better that life is not fair
so I wipe my own tears this time
I have to grow up and stop acting like a child
I love you and I hope there's an afterlife for you
You told me that I would find someone
That actually loves me and I should
Stop using woman fill the hole that she left
You was my best friend you told me
April would be pissed off at me if she seen me
Now I'm in ...
Saturday 13th October 2018 9:12 pm
The Starry Night
The weather is getting colder
I'm here thinking about how my life's a wreck
You will forget me I'll be nothing but a hazy memory
Have I talked enough about the situation
You're getting ready to have a family
I'm counting down the days til I go away
My heart still shattered
I'm starting to feel like the Mad Hatter
I've been working on this goddamn letter
But it's like an open wound that ...
Saturday 13th October 2018 2:22 pm
Just Average Rap Song.
All these other rappers are talking about
How much bread they make
But I just bought a loaf for $0.75
I could call women a bitch like everyone else
I would deserve stitches if I use that word
I'm not that rich I'm pretty poor
I'm 8 inches of nothing but average
I deserve a ditch for the last line
Think I'll go twitch live and break something
I should probably switch my flow up now
A...
Friday 12th October 2018 10:29 pm
Melancholy 2.0
Thought I found away
Thought I found away to
Make peace with my demons
There's always an empty hole what you left
I never said I'd be okay
Without you holding me close
Can you please keep your promise to me
I've been broken before
So please, please don't hurt me anymore
I've been crying in this room of heartbreak
There's no recovering from this illness
Overdose on melancholy it'...
Friday 12th October 2018 6:58 am
Words of The Waiting Man 20
Please don't go I need love
This hell doesn't show any
Even if takes a thousand years
I'll prove that I love you
I've tried to grow into someone that you could love
Time will always make more wounds
My mind's turning into dust
Here's no situation where I end up on top
Skin and bones and fragile to the touch
Don't break the glass around my heart
She's gone and time is lost now
I'm a...
Wednesday 10th October 2018 11:53 am
Firefly And Half Eating Sour Patch Kid
You told me that you needed space
Then you started dating my best friend
That day I lose you I wanted to die
Damn you was my everything
That November you cuddled me for 2 days and slept like a baby on my chest
I don't understand if that comfortable with me
Why the hell did you leave me
Don't use the excuse that I'm too good for you
Because without you there's no me just a hollow shell
Monday 8th October 2018 6:35 pm
American Dream
Burn your pictures of a happy family
Fathers smoking weed in the basement
Mom is too nervous to eat ice cream
There's no American Dream just misery
Snip, snip for beauty and true love
Smile it's a lovely day outside
Don't you hear the kids melting enjoy
So love God and love this nation
It's a beautiful day to be rich
They kick the homeless off the street
Call the streets beautiful be...
Sunday 7th October 2018 11:37 am
Melancholy Fever
Can we slow it down
I don't think I'll be around
This ghost town is slowly eating at me
The flowers don't grow right anymore
Do you love me or am I desperate to die alone
I got a pack of squares and a rod to my brain
My trigger finger is feeling happy again
Am I too close to caving in for your comfort
I was so depressed and hopeless
You still didn't come to save me
I was a hostage ...
Saturday 6th October 2018 12:42 pm
I'm Not Swell Little Firefly
So I'll sew my eyelids shut
So I don't have to be reminded of us
Lately I've been distant from everything
I've been trying to make these people laugh
I'm crying too much so my words are coming out mumbled
If I crash my car into the tree by your mom's house
Would you hold it against me
If I come up to the door knocking asking if your home
20 something years and I'm still depressed
Cou...
Monday 1st October 2018 6:03 am
USA Economics
Money is a lie that the government owes you
Sit there and listen to all the bullshit that they tell you
It's a shame when the lies become the truth
So what's use the youth to get them high
Just for rich can a diet them
Into a prison that doesn't love them
We live in a government that citizens isn't loved
So blame it on the poor and the welfare checks
Then go brag about your bread but y...
Sunday 30th September 2018 8:41 pm
Story Of Julian
This is the story of a boy that lived in Crystal City
His name is Julian he was a good kid before prescription drugs got to him
Julian told the doctor he wanted to kill himself
She gave him all these medications
Now his nose is bleeding from the xanax
He's addicted to it and now he's trying meth
Now he's fading in and out on the couch
His doctor canceled his medical prescriptions
Now we ...
Sunday 30th September 2018 8:34 am
I'm sorry, I'm trying
I see a face in the rain
I'm not gonna be here for much longing
Make sure my father doesn't kill himself
I know he's going to go insane when I'm gone
Where did all the time go
I broke my skin again
I didn't do it for 6 months
Now I'm covered in blood again
I'm sorry, I'm trying
I don't have a reason to do better
I care I just can't show it when you in front of me
I'm mumbled mess try...
Saturday 29th September 2018 10:54 am
Crystal City Part 2 lyrics
Fuck Crystal City
Stop saying they had a hard life
Bitch you're the one who decided to do the needle
Never forget it you did it to yourself
You don't want to do the green
Because you're addicted to crystals
I don't want anything to do with you kids
Grow up and go to drug rehab
One day the city will get its name back
Until then it will be Crystal City
Just listen to the lyrics you'll ...
Saturday 29th September 2018 12:19 am
Crystal City Part 1 lyrics
Grew up in Crystal city
Where the cops did her
And everyone on her looked like zombies
Me and my friends made fun of them
Until they got addicted to her
I am better then Crystal city
So who needs this shit
I am going into the lane of victory
Drug free is victory
So let's keep that way
We'er better then this city
We'er better then this city
Victory drug free victory drug fre...
Friday 28th September 2018 11:41 pm
2 Years It's Been :(
It's officially two years today
Since I became the hollow shell of a man
Things never get better in time
So don't fall for that trap
Learn to cope with the pain but it's always there
Catch the world in a different light
It's still the same world
You'll have depression for as long as you live
The pills might make you feel better
As soon as you're out it's back
So don't lie to yourself a...
Friday 28th September 2018 10:05 am
So Call It What You Want
Call it what you want but I don't give a damn
A generation of misfits a generation of addicted to drugs
We watched our parents work day in and day out for nothing at all
So call it what you want it was selfish and we're done with your games
They worked all night and day to rent a house
I'm sorry but there's something messed up in that sentence
So call it what you want drugs to stay numb ...
Friday 28th September 2018 5:13 am
Checkmate
Told myself deep down that you would never win
All this time you had me at checkmate and I didn't even know it
So mother kick me again I like the way the pain feels
All I wanted was a family but I doubt I'll ever have it
Mother you wanted me miserable well you win
Remember the night that you gave me the knife
You told me to cut you out of me I'll die before that happens
But you're wrong I...
Thursday 27th September 2018 10:25 am
Winter Wind
I was sixteen and grieving
On a cool day of autumn
I was waiting for you to come get birthday pancakes
But you never showed up
You never showed up
Sorry but I hate you for leaving me here alone
They found your body in a lake
It was my birthday and they took you from me
I am sorry my love
A gunshot in your head
The last time I seen you
You were taking my innocence away
Does anyone ...
Wednesday 26th September 2018 1:23 am
Margaret and Mordecai
Autumn has never been this cold
I can't think of anything to say now
I'm running out of reasons to stay on this Earth
I hope the falling leaves remind you of me
Self-mutilation doesn't help anymore
How could you leave me so broken and say you cared
I dream of ending my existence
You realize that I was the one I'll be too late
I'll be 6 feet under the soil
When you imagine me do you im...
Monday 24th September 2018 9:54 am
One Lonely Snowflake
It's like clockwork how my heart misses you
I'm letting these February blues
Take me off under the ice
Your hugs are better at warming my soul
Than hot chocolate and a quilt so why did you let go?
December was more like depressed on eggnog
I've never felt so much pain in my life
It's been here for 2 years straight
I don't think it's leaving anytime soon
December was more like depre...
Saturday 22nd September 2018 10:57 am
Old Man
I've been looking for the right thing to say
You're the most beautiful lady I've ever seen
I know you won't be home anytime soon
The consistency of the way I tell you goodnight
Has you thinking it's just a hobby for me
The truth is there's love in every word I send you
Just remember I only have one heart and I gave it to you
I promise to stay loyal to you so please come home soon
Plea...
Friday 21st September 2018 8:51 am
Still Love Her
[Verse 1:]
I can't be leaning on anyone
When I still have love for you
I thought I knew better than this
Then falling in love with you
Because you break my heart
you break me heart
[Hook:]
I'm trying to get through to her
I still have love for her
I'm trying to get through to her
I still have love for her
[Verse 2:]
I can perform magic with you
I can perform lust with you
I d...
Thursday 20th September 2018 8:03 am
The Beginning
Firefly I miss you
Firefly can we watch Rock & Rule
Just lay by me and hold my hand
Firefly I'm losing my mind
Firefly I got a bottle of vodka
I don't want to drink it without you
Will you be my Touka?
I'll be your Ken Kaneki I promise I'll always protect you
I'm barely human anyway
I've been chewing on my pinky lately and blacking out
I know he misses his darling his sugar plum
So...
Wednesday 19th September 2018 9:14 am
Group of Old Crows
Cigarettes and vinegar
With the raunchy taste of blood
I'm the consequences that you'll regret in the morning
So plead your fifth as you forgive my face
You will never forget what you've did to me
How could you bury me inside these four walls?
You're all alone with a ghost that you've made
How's it feel to know that you can't leave what you've done?
Do you believe that God can forgive ...
Wednesday 19th September 2018 4:46 am
Words of The Waiting Man 19
Can you please stop
The words in my head is drowning me
The skin clings to the bone
I just want to breathe
As everyone's judgmental eyes on me
I burst into tears there has to be a way out of this alive
Why was I created so flawed
My worth is not existing
Before you get a chance to speak sense to me
My anxiety panic mind wants to end it all
I miss the loving light that you gave me
No...
Tuesday 18th September 2018 8:53 am
Memento Mori
One year and 12 months that's all I have left on this Earth
The closest thing to home
That I've ever felt in the last two years
Was a rubber around my neck
I don't love a soul I swear to it
Fuck I lied again
I told my friends I'm going out like Robin Williams
I've been suicidal since I was 14
I go through a pack of menthols a day
Their self care in the way I live now
Blasting now no...
Monday 17th September 2018 9:44 pm
A Moment of clarity
I lost myself somewhere in between
The longboard in the road beneath me
For a second there I was floating in the sky
The blood-stained Supernova rushed into my thoughts
So where are you when I was getting high
Because somewhere in this vodka bottle
There has to be the answer I'm looking for
It just may take a few thousand bottles before I get there though
So what's going to kill me fir...
Sunday 16th September 2018 8:06 am
Pink Room Lyrics
[intro:]
I'm stuck in this pink room
I don't think I'll ever make it out
Depressed and lonely talking to four walls
What a shit way to start a song
[Verse 1:]
I'm fishing for compliments
They're not giving me any
Look God I've been praying
I don't think it's working
I know you can't have a funeral without fun
[Hook:]
So if I die before I wake
Just laugh because that's all I wante...
Saturday 15th September 2018 5:18 am
Letter To Firefly
Please look at me
All my feelings for you have never left
I remember you falling asleep in my arms being complete
I still have your straightener
In my tote where I keep all of the things of yours
I miss waking in your arms feeling happy
Thinking about you make tears fall out my eyes
I'm sorry that I'm weak when it comes to you
If I was your Sour Patch Kids
Why couldn't you handle the so...
Friday 14th September 2018 5:46 am
Dear God Why?
I swear that my mind's going to be the death of me
I can't go anywhere where other people are at
Without having to walk the other way
This social anxiety is a terrible fate
I take prescriptions but they're not working anymore
Had someone asked me if I was okay
Ended up crying for 3 hours straight
Everyone still wants me to get a job
I wish I could I wish I wasn't so fucked up
My brain...
Thursday 13th September 2018 5:24 am
Princess of the Fireflies
Dear Firefly princess there's no words to explain how much you mean to me
I just miss you and I know I shouldn't cry about it but I do I just my heart aches
I know my heart is getting worse I wake up in pain every night now
I can barely keep food down anymore I'm so worried about you
I'm just your Sour Patch Kid that doesn't mean anything to you anymore it feels like
P.s. I will always lov...
Wednesday 12th September 2018 7:35 am
Cafe Blues And An Rainstorm From You
It's unnecessary how rugged the rain is come down
Somewhere I lost myself in old pictures of you
Can you kiss me like the rain coming down
I feel like my bitter battered heart has been crying out
Listen to all the sounds that you make
So slurp on your coffee some more
As I imagine you are so gracefully looking up
I couldn't get away form these cafe blues
They're the ma...
Tuesday 11th September 2018 5:27 am
Melancholy Weather lyrics
[Verse 1:]
This Melancholy weather has the best of me
I talked to my father he said you wasn't the only fish in the sea
But you are the only fish I see
So who am I supposed to be
You could give me the third degree
But this boy's love will always be free for you
[Hook:]
I want to settle down and have a couple kids
If that doesn't happen before 26
You can't say I didn't try to show you ...
Monday 10th September 2018 2:54 am
Firefly
[Verse 1:]
You don't know how precious you really are
You're way too beautiful for words to explain
You're rarer than the rose in the concrete
When I see you I see Heaven inside you
You make me into a sappy little kid
You have me waiting here with your sweet lovely hands
You're definitely the one I can't refuse it at all
Firefly have your back no matter what
[Hook:]
I'll be waiting her...
Sunday 9th September 2018 2:26 am
Overdose
[intro:]
Being alive isn't living
I don't fear dying now
So as I tried to overdose
On all the promises you made me
[Verse 1:]
All I want to do is dream
Dreaming is dangerous when you're comfortable in it
Is this not relatable to you
I thought I could fly but the concrete woke me
All I want to do is dream
[Hook 1:]
Pick-A-Part my mind
To find if there's love for you
The answer you...
Saturday 8th September 2018 2:59 am
Basement Thumping
[Hook:]
We're smoking loud
We're basement drinking
We're all cereal now
Lit as fuck with our hearts on the ground
[Verse 1:]
I'm just trying to find my happiness
I like to keep myself in this business
I'm straight up losing this
This Kush is loud straight tidiness
Now play the hook again and just say grace
[Hook:]
We're smoking loud
We're basement drinking
We're all cereal now
...
Friday 7th September 2018 6:21 pm
A Letter From Sour Patch Kid
This is the story of a Sour Patch Kid
Tell me what to say now
You have me singing a broken ballad
I shouldn't love you but I did
You was my dirty little secret
One kiss and I became Bewitched
I broke up with my girlfriend of 7 years for you
I gave up New York for you
It was never enough for you
I was a fuck boy who had everyone fooled
Thinking I was a good kid
Then the truth came s...
Friday 7th September 2018 4:36 am
The True Life of A Poor Kid Lyrics
[intro:]
This isn't about race
It's the poor versus the 1%
If they get their way
They'll make it about race
[Verse 1:]
I'm going to get a little political
I'm a liberal until the day I die
Just because we have different politics doesn't mean anything
Antifa stop punching everyone you think it's a Nazi
MLK told us that words are more powerful so use them
Violence only makes a villain ...
Thursday 6th September 2018 4:50 am
Homeless. Lyrics
[Verse 1:]
Let's get it right we both understand each other's pain
We were both born to mothers that don't love us
They both was abusive and addicted to drugs
I remember the night that you were homeless
I couldn't let you sleep on the street
I love you to goddamn much
[Hook:]
I'm trying to make a living on this music
Every time I see your picture
It reminds me of why I can't let go
I...
Wednesday 5th September 2018 4:23 am
Goodnight Firefly Never Forget That You're The Reason I'm Still Alive
I've caught this broken hearted fever
I don't think they make glue to fix this
Your love was the blow torch that melted it back together
Now your absence is weighting on me
The ghost of us making out on the kitchen counter
I was so nervous with you
I never wanted to hurt you but my anxiety came out
To destroy our love story that we were making
if I could go back to them days
I would ...
Tuesday 4th September 2018 1:02 am
Zombie
I am only damaged goods
There's nothing good about me dear
You should have killed me at least
I would have been better off
You were my everything but now I'm just a zombie
I still remember everything you told me
Conversation is thrilling with you
So please come home soon I'm numb to everything
I'm liking the thought of positivity
You were my everything but now I'm just a zombie
You ...
Monday 3rd September 2018 5:42 am
Sweet Like Vinegar
Don't try to understand this
The absence of my will to live
Has possession over me
It's terrifying in my mind
I don't have what it takes to stay alive
I was once strong don't get me wrong
With your arms wrapped around me so tight
Now I'm here of a dead soul
It's terrifying in my mind
Has possession over me
The absence of my will to live
Don't try to understand this
Sunday 2nd September 2018 4:45 pm
We'er Moving
We're moving in a month
To some house in England
I'll miss this place
I'll miss my friends
Mother can't afford this house
Dad why did you have to leave us
We're moving to 30 East Drive
Saturday 1st September 2018 8:43 pm
Firefly// Self Harm In a Bottle of Gin
Sinking feeling of dread
Comes over you as the night falls
I don't want to live but I don't want to die
I don't really think it's ever going to get better
I'm consumed by this Melancholy weather
Don't tell me I should live
Because I've heard it all before
April at the age of 15 you were taken too early
It left me begging for death
Don't tell me I should live
Negative lines are tight ...
Saturday 1st September 2018 6:06 am
Words of The Waiting Man 18
As you distorted the words I had to say
Dismiss fitted heart of mine broke down into painless realization
Overcame me like the oxygen in my lungs
I realization of the truth that my mind needed you and only you
I'm always going to be an option on the table but that's not good enough to you but I need love like anyone else
I pray to every God damn being in this universe for you to come back
S...
Tuesday 28th August 2018 4:48 am
I Am a Broken Down Factory lyrics
I've been so disgusted with myself
If you leave me here you won't miss me
Pocket full of posies were all going to be ashes soon
My mind's decomposing to misery
This social anxiety is eating me alive
I'm not brave enough to fight alone
I've got this hole in my chest ever growing
This heartbreak is killing me
I wish I could just stop caring
I'll be dead by 2020 so who cares anyway
I be...
Monday 27th August 2018 5:19 am
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